There are nothing much to say between me and you.
Everything seems simple and ordinary but not bored.
Me and you.
There are days for us to enjoy together in such simple way.
But there are some times we fight and cry.
I always want to tell you that I love you, and I do really really feel your love eventough you never speak out.
I always want to thank you for you understanding and accept my sturbborn and childish.
But I never tell you that, I'm glad that with you by my side.
We're going to make it last longer and longer, right?
You're the only reason for me to work harder when I'm tiring.
You're the only one in my mind when passing through the hard.
Apart from parents, you're the only one I need in my life.
You're my only LOVE.
=)
Dec 13, 2010
Nearly end of everything
Busy days.
So fast it's the end of the 2nd semester ler. Still left about three weeks, everything of this semester go to an end. Time passes fast. Haiz.
However, I think I did grow in this semester. In study. I've learn a lot and done a lot. Everything is going to be improved after practise non-stop eventough busy like hell.
Things happened a lot in this semester. But everything must have an end.
Stress for the last rushes.
And worry for the final examination.
Not forget also the results.
So fast it's the end of the 2nd semester ler. Still left about three weeks, everything of this semester go to an end. Time passes fast. Haiz.
However, I think I did grow in this semester. In study. I've learn a lot and done a lot. Everything is going to be improved after practise non-stop eventough busy like hell.
Things happened a lot in this semester. But everything must have an end.
Stress for the last rushes.
And worry for the final examination.
Not forget also the results.
Dec 4, 2010
梦.回忆
说好的幸福。
是一起吃饭、看戏、散步、睡觉。
说好的幸福。
是一起分享，快乐和悲伤。
说好的幸福。
是彼此体谅，彼此原谅。
说好的幸福。
是互相扶持。
说好的幸福。
是一起付出，然后珍惜。
说好的幸福。
... ...
只需要你点头，说“我爱你”。
我们说好，要一起到老的。不是吗？
分岔路口，
你选择了没有我的天空。
分岔路口，
你放开了我的手。
分岔路口，
以后只有我一个人走。
或许遇见别的他。
或许故事到最后会换了男主角。
但是最美丽的路程，是我们手牵着手。
最温柔的触碰，使你轻扶我的头发。
感觉到永恒的时刻，是你承诺我们会有未来。
剩余的是枕边滴落的水迹。
是一起吃饭、看戏、散步、睡觉。
说好的幸福。
是一起分享，快乐和悲伤。
说好的幸福。
是彼此体谅，彼此原谅。
说好的幸福。
是互相扶持。
说好的幸福。
是一起付出，然后珍惜。
说好的幸福。
... ...
只需要你点头，说“我爱你”。
我们说好，要一起到老的。不是吗？
分岔路口，
你选择了没有我的天空。
分岔路口，
你放开了我的手。
分岔路口，
以后只有我一个人走。
或许遇见别的他。
或许故事到最后会换了男主角。
但是最美丽的路程，是我们手牵着手。
最温柔的触碰，使你轻扶我的头发。
感觉到永恒的时刻，是你承诺我们会有未来。
剩余的是枕边滴落的水迹。
Nov 20, 2010
Busy, Tired, and Lovely.
Whoa!
Such a long time didn't write my blog. Flies everywhere here wakaka.
Anyway. I'm totally busy. Haiz.
Busy.
With a little bit happy.
With a little bit contented.
Because love in my world. =)
Went to many place I've never been there or long time didn't been there to shoot photo for study use. Batu Caves larh, Pavilion larh, Lot 10 larh, Orchid Park larh. Haha. Kinda sweet because you were there with me along the journey mah. ^^ But sweat also lar ><
Sometimes didn't forgot to take a break meanwhile let assignments and exercises drive me crazy. Just used half day time to sleep and watch anime in room with you. Hahaz. Lazy day~ And go for a movie, a GREAT movie Harry Potter 7! Haha~ Happiness still there even tough life is hard. Because I know the place it is.
And thanks much also to my friends yea. Always make me laugh when I'm tiring. =)
Last but not least. My family. My lovest family always the reason for me to keep awake through the night and through the stress. Muacks. And thanks God I've made the time to go home after all this. I do really really miss you guys...
Thanks everyone I love in my life. You give me love. You give me strength. You give me life.
Such a long time didn't write my blog. Flies everywhere here wakaka.
Anyway. I'm totally busy. Haiz.
Busy.
With a little bit happy.
With a little bit contented.
Because love in my world. =)
Went to many place I've never been there or long time didn't been there to shoot photo for study use. Batu Caves larh, Pavilion larh, Lot 10 larh, Orchid Park larh. Haha. Kinda sweet because you were there with me along the journey mah. ^^ But sweat also lar ><
Sometimes didn't forgot to take a break meanwhile let assignments and exercises drive me crazy. Just used half day time to sleep and watch anime in room with you. Hahaz. Lazy day~ And go for a movie, a GREAT movie Harry Potter 7! Haha~ Happiness still there even tough life is hard. Because I know the place it is.
And thanks much also to my friends yea. Always make me laugh when I'm tiring. =)
Last but not least. My family. My lovest family always the reason for me to keep awake through the night and through the stress. Muacks. And thanks God I've made the time to go home after all this. I do really really miss you guys...
Thanks everyone I love in my life. You give me love. You give me strength. You give me life.
Nov 8, 2010
True Love
What make you cry so helpless like a child, my dear?
Are you feeling so unsure and confuse about what you are doing?
Love always fools people around.You love him. He loves her. She loves him. He loves her. And you ask, who loves you?
Your family.
Love from family is the only unchange love. They brought you to the world with not easy. Brought you up until you can stand, can speak, can feels, can chase for the things you want. You are here because of them.
And then, the so call LOVE comes. Makes you happy and sad and smile and cry. You are so addicted to it until you lost yourself. What you do is only centering her/him. There might be one day the LOVE leaves you. You feel so sad so depress like lost everything in your life. And?
You try to hurt yourself or maybe suicide.
STUPID!
Look at you! Like an idiot.
Have you ever think of the result? The one you love will maybe at most sad and guilty for some time. After that she/he can live with no more effects that you've made. Okay. Is that worth? And, try to think about the one who brought you to this world. You leave will bring them the permanent scar inside their deep deep heart. They might use the whole of their life to cry to mourn you. They lost is forever. The lost is unrecoverable. The one they used to love with all their life had gone. Who else can replace? Don't hurt yourself. You're not alone in the world.
If you can't let go the so called LOVE, means that you aren't understand what love is, and you're not mature enough. Well my "let go" doesn't mean that you won't sad anymore, but, you won't do any stupid things.
Everything you do you shouldn't just think of yourself, you're not allowed to be selfish. The first you have to think is you parents. They love you. And there are so many people such as your friends love you too. And don't sad because you lost one, since that one isn't the right one for you.
love yourself more. Just go on your life. God will be there. You family will be there too.
Are you feeling so unsure and confuse about what you are doing?
Love always fools people around.You love him. He loves her. She loves him. He loves her. And you ask, who loves you?
Your family.
Love from family is the only unchange love. They brought you to the world with not easy. Brought you up until you can stand, can speak, can feels, can chase for the things you want. You are here because of them.
And then, the so call LOVE comes. Makes you happy and sad and smile and cry. You are so addicted to it until you lost yourself. What you do is only centering her/him. There might be one day the LOVE leaves you. You feel so sad so depress like lost everything in your life. And?
You try to hurt yourself or maybe suicide.
STUPID!
Look at you! Like an idiot.
Have you ever think of the result? The one you love will maybe at most sad and guilty for some time. After that she/he can live with no more effects that you've made. Okay. Is that worth? And, try to think about the one who brought you to this world. You leave will bring them the permanent scar inside their deep deep heart. They might use the whole of their life to cry to mourn you. They lost is forever. The lost is unrecoverable. The one they used to love with all their life had gone. Who else can replace? Don't hurt yourself. You're not alone in the world.
If you can't let go the so called LOVE, means that you aren't understand what love is, and you're not mature enough. Well my "let go" doesn't mean that you won't sad anymore, but, you won't do any stupid things.
Everything you do you shouldn't just think of yourself, you're not allowed to be selfish. The first you have to think is you parents. They love you. And there are so many people such as your friends love you too. And don't sad because you lost one, since that one isn't the right one for you.
love yourself more. Just go on your life. God will be there. You family will be there too.
Nov 4, 2010
I'm Totally Going Crazy.
Home again.
Home again with complicated feeling.
I'm about to mad.
What's wrong?What's wrong?
Can someone please understand my situation? I need only the understanding but not demand the care or attention or what more. I need you to understand and please stop blaming. You know I love you you know I'm not mean that is it? I love you so so much daddy. I wish I can share your sadness too...I'm sorry...
I'm crazy. Untrusting you crazily. You make me go insane or I drive myself insane? I hope that my instinct isn't correct this time even tough it is strong until I can't bear it. You know I'm going to leave without any mercy if you turn back to me once, I won't care how hurt is my heart until break to pieces and pieces. Three days time. For you.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate myself.
Assignments. Exam. Exercises. Redo. I need more time...I'm all in a mess. I need more time. I can't make it! I'm crazying and I've cried for tiring nights and nights. Non-stop coming works I need a breathe...but who cares? I need more time to finish them all. All I just want a little relax time I wish I can go Zoo Negara...But I don't even have time to sleep. Don't dream.
I've forgetten what is entertainment. I can't even make time for a short movie before sleep. I need a break for breathe. But why this time I feel so depress when I'm at my home...?
I can't face death. It's my first time and I'm scaring. I don't know what to respond. I wonder if someone is with me now. But no one.
I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Can someone, just anyone, to speak. Tell me be strong. Tell me you will always with me. Tell me I can make it through all of these mess. Can I?
I'm alone with no one can understand I was exhausted I'm tired and I'm crying. No one no one.
I should walk trhough it all by myself. Because this is my life. Is it?
Don't worry. I'm okay. I won't do any wrong thing or stupid thing. For all who really care about me.
Home again with complicated feeling.
I'm about to mad.
What's wrong?What's wrong?
Can someone please understand my situation? I need only the understanding but not demand the care or attention or what more. I need you to understand and please stop blaming. You know I love you you know I'm not mean that is it? I love you so so much daddy. I wish I can share your sadness too...I'm sorry...
I'm crazy. Untrusting you crazily. You make me go insane or I drive myself insane? I hope that my instinct isn't correct this time even tough it is strong until I can't bear it. You know I'm going to leave without any mercy if you turn back to me once, I won't care how hurt is my heart until break to pieces and pieces. Three days time. For you.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate myself.
Assignments. Exam. Exercises. Redo. I need more time...I'm all in a mess. I need more time. I can't make it! I'm crazying and I've cried for tiring nights and nights. Non-stop coming works I need a breathe...but who cares? I need more time to finish them all. All I just want a little relax time I wish I can go Zoo Negara...But I don't even have time to sleep. Don't dream.
I've forgetten what is entertainment. I can't even make time for a short movie before sleep. I need a break for breathe. But why this time I feel so depress when I'm at my home...?
I can't face death. It's my first time and I'm scaring. I don't know what to respond. I wonder if someone is with me now. But no one.
I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Can someone, just anyone, to speak. Tell me be strong. Tell me you will always with me. Tell me I can make it through all of these mess. Can I?
I'm alone with no one can understand I was exhausted I'm tired and I'm crying. No one no one.
I should walk trhough it all by myself. Because this is my life. Is it?
Don't worry. I'm okay. I won't do any wrong thing or stupid thing. For all who really care about me.
I love you.
You love me...?
Oct 29, 2010
Art Expo 2010 - Matrade Centre
Had a really really precious experience at Art Expo 2010. Thousands thanks to my lecturer for giving us the opportunitiy. There showed up to hundreds or even more art works and it is so good that I could have to take a look over them.
It was an art exhibition which was took part by artists all over the world like local artists, Taiwan, China, Korea, Japan, Germany, Indonesia, Hungary, India, Thailand and more and more. I've never seen so much art works all in front of me before! All is fantastic and they refresh my mind sharpen my creativity.
Had the great time met with a lot of artists there especially the China artist Miao Xiao Chun and another kind old artist (forgot what is his name xP). It was so lucky that we could took photo with him and grabbed his signature on the cataloge.
Finished the serious part. Now is the funny stuff.
Haha.
We never thought that we can eat over there since the cafeteria was daylight robbery. But when we reached the China area, so soincidence the buffet was started. Haha so we were damn lucky could eat the high-classed food there and the WINE! Haha. And we (Tee, Brenda, Hsiang, Terence, Hau, DJie, Peggy, Zack, Hong and me) standed around a small table ate there and chit-chat there. Suddenly a China uncle came and wanted to snap our photo! Hahaz. What a surprise. xD Then soon came two more China uncle wanted to snap photo with us also. They weren't those visitors but were the management people over there~ What an honor~ Haha. And then they even asked us to take a photo with the Chairman of that Art Expo. Haha we said we were even more famous than those artists. Ceh ceh perasan xD But those photos were snapped by them and for sure were saved in their cameras. Haiz so perhaps our photos will appear at China xD
And the last, we were all waited the bus in front of the axhibition. And well~ we snapped a lot of funny pictures there ;)
Anyway, I love Art Expo.
It was an art exhibition which was took part by artists all over the world like local artists, Taiwan, China, Korea, Japan, Germany, Indonesia, Hungary, India, Thailand and more and more. I've never seen so much art works all in front of me before! All is fantastic and they refresh my mind sharpen my creativity.
Had the great time met with a lot of artists there especially the China artist Miao Xiao Chun and another kind old artist (forgot what is his name xP). It was so lucky that we could took photo with him and grabbed his signature on the cataloge.
Finished the serious part. Now is the funny stuff.
Haha.
We never thought that we can eat over there since the cafeteria was daylight robbery. But when we reached the China area, so soincidence the buffet was started. Haha so we were damn lucky could eat the high-classed food there and the WINE! Haha. And we (Tee, Brenda, Hsiang, Terence, Hau, DJie, Peggy, Zack, Hong and me) standed around a small table ate there and chit-chat there. Suddenly a China uncle came and wanted to snap our photo! Hahaz. What a surprise. xD Then soon came two more China uncle wanted to snap photo with us also. They weren't those visitors but were the management people over there~ What an honor~ Haha. And then they even asked us to take a photo with the Chairman of that Art Expo. Haha we said we were even more famous than those artists. Ceh ceh perasan xD But those photos were snapped by them and for sure were saved in their cameras. Haiz so perhaps our photos will appear at China xD
And the last, we were all waited the bus in front of the axhibition. And well~ we snapped a lot of funny pictures there ;)
Anyway, I love Art Expo.
Oct 23, 2010
Erm.
Many things happened around this busy week yea. Happy and sad and confuse and angry. Mixed.
First.
Wanna tell one of my friend. My sha sha de friend.
How come you will thought that I was hating you? I never mean so eventough I did done something stupid before when I was mad. I'm sorry about it and don't think too much lar yorr~ you make me felt so guilty lar weh. Sha sha de you only the one who need to take good care larh. Recover soon yea. ;)
Second.
Happy is I bought my DSLR already^^
And I'd made it not lose my tempered easily~ Hehe congratz to me ;)
And nothing too bad happen so, happy lorh~
Third.
Angry is, someone who really really "muka tebal",please lar, behave yourself okie? Don't make me blacklist you, STUPID!
Forth.
Hmm. Sad. Because of you.Hope you're not lying. I've no more strength to think about it because it will only make me more tire. I should start not to think too much. That's bad.
Fifth.
Sick already. Tired. Many assigments, exercises, presentation. Tired also. Haiz. Somebody help~~~~
Many things happened around this busy week yea. Happy and sad and confuse and angry. Mixed.
First.
Wanna tell one of my friend. My sha sha de friend.
How come you will thought that I was hating you? I never mean so eventough I did done something stupid before when I was mad. I'm sorry about it and don't think too much lar yorr~ you make me felt so guilty lar weh. Sha sha de you only the one who need to take good care larh. Recover soon yea. ;)
Second.
Happy is I bought my DSLR already^^
And I'd made it not lose my tempered easily~ Hehe congratz to me ;)
And nothing too bad happen so, happy lorh~
Third.
Angry is, someone who really really "muka tebal",please lar, behave yourself okie? Don't make me blacklist you, STUPID!
Forth.
Hmm. Sad. Because of you.Hope you're not lying. I've no more strength to think about it because it will only make me more tire. I should start not to think too much. That's bad.
Fifth.
Sick already. Tired. Many assigments, exercises, presentation. Tired also. Haiz. Somebody help~~~~
Oct 20, 2010
To :: Hong
Hmm.
Promise myself. Not to get angry so fast ler. I wanna change myself. Because I wanna keep this relationship longer and longer. Eventough people aren't wishing for us, but as you said, we wanna disappointed them.
And I've found that, you pamper me more and more nowadays. Hehe happy when you're pampering me, loving me.
I don't care how people look at me or look at our relationship but, I'll try my best to keep it longer. You make me the happiest girl in the world, so I'll. I love you.
I'll be here for you just right beside you. We have to work hard towards our future by study harder and harder. Don't give up as I'll be here ready to help you everytime when you need. I know you can as how I believe in myself.
Promise myself. Not to get angry so fast ler. I wanna change myself. Because I wanna keep this relationship longer and longer. Eventough people aren't wishing for us, but as you said, we wanna disappointed them.
And I've found that, you pamper me more and more nowadays. Hehe happy when you're pampering me, loving me.
I don't care how people look at me or look at our relationship but, I'll try my best to keep it longer. You make me the happiest girl in the world, so I'll. I love you.
I'll be here for you just right beside you. We have to work hard towards our future by study harder and harder. Don't give up as I'll be here ready to help you everytime when you need. I know you can as how I believe in myself.
My DSLR~~~~
Wow.
Just bought my very first DSLR camera. Excited and happy.
At first have to thanks my parents who lend me money to buy eventough they aren't really afford to do so. I'm sorry and thanks.
I bought Nikon D3100 with the price RM2069. Not that expensive if compared with the others. I think it worth that price. Wish to learn more about the way to use it so that I can use it to take many many nice pictures ;)
My forth "husband". Haha.
Just bought my very first DSLR camera. Excited and happy.
At first have to thanks my parents who lend me money to buy eventough they aren't really afford to do so. I'm sorry and thanks.
I bought Nikon D3100 with the price RM2069. Not that expensive if compared with the others. I think it worth that price. Wish to learn more about the way to use it so that I can use it to take many many nice pictures ;)
My forth "husband". Haha.
Hey You!
Hey. You know what? You make me disappointed. I won't share anything to you and, we are just friend. Not more than that. Just the most common friend. I don't wanna be more and that will only trouble me. I hate to care on your feelings anymore and PLEASE don't act like you know everything and I'm so needing you! Stupid you.
Hate the way you're acting like a know-know.
Hate the way you think like you know everyone well.
Hate the way you act like you are so YENG and always LAN YENG!
The hate most was when you said like my mummy is just trusting you and like you. Stupid. Mummy treats you good because you're my friend. That's all and please don't act in front of me anymore.
One more.
You say you are a GOOD MAN? You think that I don't know what shit you're thinking about? Act like you are treating me good and always do things for my own good? Stupid. Don't think that I know nothing about your bad ideas. You just wanna make me angry and get jealous. Tell you you were success once but nothing more. No more. I shouldn't do any respond for your stupid acts anymore. I was stupid for doing so but won't anymore.
If you're treating people good sincerely, people will know it and, no necessary at all to call yourself a GOOD MAN.
Hate the way you're acting like a know-know.
Hate the way you think like you know everyone well.
Hate the way you act like you are so YENG and always LAN YENG!
The hate most was when you said like my mummy is just trusting you and like you. Stupid. Mummy treats you good because you're my friend. That's all and please don't act in front of me anymore.
One more.
You say you are a GOOD MAN? You think that I don't know what shit you're thinking about? Act like you are treating me good and always do things for my own good? Stupid. Don't think that I know nothing about your bad ideas. You just wanna make me angry and get jealous. Tell you you were success once but nothing more. No more. I shouldn't do any respond for your stupid acts anymore. I was stupid for doing so but won't anymore.
If you're treating people good sincerely, people will know it and, no necessary at all to call yourself a GOOD MAN.
Oct 17, 2010
Recharged Angela
Tomorrow back hostel le. Packed-schedule.
Leave my sweet home again. Nothing much than sad.
Ganbateh Angela! Should do better after recharge!
Sleep lurh. Goodnight all my loves.
Leave my sweet home again. Nothing much than sad.
Ganbateh Angela! Should do better after recharge!
Sleep lurh. Goodnight all my loves.
Oct 16, 2010
I also don't know what the hell I'm talking about...
I can feel your love when there are no one else.
I can feel your care when I'm the only one beside you.
I love that feel crazily.
I addicted on it seriously.
I can't take myself off from it.
I love you until I almost lost myself. That isn't sound good huh.
But I did.
So I kill my heart so that it won't tight you up.
I love you so that I left myself behind.
All I ever wanted is your happiness and smile. That's all I want to see.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Whereas I wouldn't tell you anymore, I love you.
Love you with not loving you.
Not until you realise that how important am I in your world. Perhaps the day will not come.
My heart is died.
But died in the way no one knows not even you realise.
I love you.
I can feel your care when I'm the only one beside you.
I love that feel crazily.
I addicted on it seriously.
I can't take myself off from it.
I love you until I almost lost myself. That isn't sound good huh.
But I did.
So I kill my heart so that it won't tight you up.
I love you so that I left myself behind.
All I ever wanted is your happiness and smile. That's all I want to see.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Whereas I wouldn't tell you anymore, I love you.
Love you with not loving you.
Not until you realise that how important am I in your world. Perhaps the day will not come.
My heart is died.
But died in the way no one knows not even you realise.
I love you.
Oct 15, 2010
亲爱的，我又提出了分手。
你不断地问我为什么，我却甩开了你的手。
我想你是累了，所以你不理我.
其实每一次我发脾气，你都不理我。
所以我难过。
你不和我说话，我会难过好久好久。
我不和你说话，你却可以若无其事的说说笑笑。
我觉得你不需要我了。其实，你真的不需要我，不是吗？我在你身边，只会加重你的负担，我却不能为你做些什么...吧？
所以我想离开。我讨厌你身边的一切。更讨厌我自己像个小孩一样任性自私。
“分手吧”
我说出口。
然后我们都不说话了。分开了，远远的。
我没有办法集中我的思想。不停的聊天、不停的笑，掩饰自己的颤抖，不想让别人知道，也欺骗了自己。
回家的路上耳边听着mp3，心碎的声音好几次差点让眼泪掉下来。只好抬头仰望天空，让温暖的阳光蒸发我的眼泪，却温暖不了我的心。
回到房间的我再也忍不住了，放声地大哭，反正没有人看见，没有人听见。我哭，哭得好痛好痛，却还要强迫自己去面对你。
站在你面前的我，骄傲一层一层崩塌。
我问你能不能别走，你说，不能。
从那一刻起我知道我的心死了。
我们到最后，还是回到原点。没有分手。
是场闹剧。
你视我的眼泪和难过为无理取闹。
只有我自己知道，死了的心已经不会再跳了。
你不断地问我为什么，我却甩开了你的手。
我想你是累了，所以你不理我.
其实每一次我发脾气，你都不理我。
所以我难过。
你不和我说话，我会难过好久好久。
我不和你说话，你却可以若无其事的说说笑笑。
我觉得你不需要我了。其实，你真的不需要我，不是吗？我在你身边，只会加重你的负担，我却不能为你做些什么...吧？
所以我想离开。我讨厌你身边的一切。更讨厌我自己像个小孩一样任性自私。
“分手吧”
我说出口。
然后我们都不说话了。分开了，远远的。
我没有办法集中我的思想。不停的聊天、不停的笑，掩饰自己的颤抖，不想让别人知道，也欺骗了自己。
回家的路上耳边听着mp3，心碎的声音好几次差点让眼泪掉下来。只好抬头仰望天空，让温暖的阳光蒸发我的眼泪，却温暖不了我的心。
回到房间的我再也忍不住了，放声地大哭，反正没有人看见，没有人听见。我哭，哭得好痛好痛，却还要强迫自己去面对你。
站在你面前的我，骄傲一层一层崩塌。
我问你能不能别走，你说，不能。
从那一刻起我知道我的心死了。
我们到最后，还是回到原点。没有分手。
是场闹剧。
你视我的眼泪和难过为无理取闹。
只有我自己知道，死了的心已经不会再跳了。
我。爱。你
我。不。爱。你
回家了
终于回到家了，久违了三个星期的家。世界再大，还是回家好。爸爸、妈妈、妹妹、弟弟，和外婆，我好想念你们......
最近真的发生满多事情的。
我想，都是自己太白痴了。对不起。
上课嘛。都ok。老师教了好多好多，我也学了好多好多。学会多用Illustrator，学会用DSLR（虽然我没有><），学会画画...好多好多功课呵>< 唉。
最近生病也慢慢康复了。
参加了课外活动。和每一个人说我join了篮球，每一个人都有被吓到。嘻。打篮球很辛苦呐，跑跑跳跳、老师又严格、又要做assignment...我没有球鞋，穿着我的小包鞋去打，结果呢，起了多多水泡>< 有一点苦不堪言...还有10次......><
最近的自己真的很情绪化。太过了。却控制不了。我其实很难过，却不说出来。我讨厌这样的自己，乱发脾气的......对不起。
回家了。
希望能买到DSLR。
要去做工！！不然爸爸妈妈会被我榨干榨净>< 呼呼。
和妈妈、外婆来一个大大的“爱的抱抱”，可知道在你们怀里的我多想放声大哭，一个人生活，好累......
最近真的发生满多事情的。
我想，都是自己太白痴了。对不起。
上课嘛。都ok。老师教了好多好多，我也学了好多好多。学会多用Illustrator，学会用DSLR（虽然我没有><），学会画画...好多好多功课呵>< 唉。
最近生病也慢慢康复了。
参加了课外活动。和每一个人说我join了篮球，每一个人都有被吓到。嘻。打篮球很辛苦呐，跑跑跳跳、老师又严格、又要做assignment...我没有球鞋，穿着我的小包鞋去打，结果呢，起了多多水泡>< 有一点苦不堪言...还有10次......><
最近的自己真的很情绪化。太过了。却控制不了。我其实很难过，却不说出来。我讨厌这样的自己，乱发脾气的......对不起。
回家了。
希望能买到DSLR。
要去做工！！不然爸爸妈妈会被我榨干榨净>< 呼呼。
和妈妈、外婆来一个大大的“爱的抱抱”，可知道在你们怀里的我多想放声大哭，一个人生活，好累......
Oct 11, 2010
Hmm.
One more week has passed. Nothign much special. But my health. Fall a sick and never recover until now. Headache, and kidney pain. Kinda worry but I do nothing. I hate hospital ><
Homework study all okay~
Money still not enough for my daily meal and buy those drawing materials, textbooks, and camera. Frustrated.
Didn't back hometown last week. Damn miss my family.
Everything runs well.
Takecare.
One more week has passed. Nothign much special. But my health. Fall a sick and never recover until now. Headache, and kidney pain. Kinda worry but I do nothing. I hate hospital ><
Homework study all okay~
Money still not enough for my daily meal and buy those drawing materials, textbooks, and camera. Frustrated.
Didn't back hometown last week. Damn miss my family.
Everything runs well.
Takecare.
Oct 7, 2010
Hey long time didn't blogging jor >< Too much things to do and have no internet access at hostel ><
Anyway, I'm now leading a good and sweet life.
Eventhough sometimes, actually feel sad but I wouldn't have told anyone =]
College life is great. Love all the subjects I learn (except Tamadun Islam >< ) and I wanna work harder and harder ^^
Since Hong has borrowed the car from RongQiang so actually we went out kinda frequent. Huhu.
Have to buy a DSLR camera jor, cost around rm2000. Die soon. Haiz. Unable but have to. Sorry Daddy Mummy. I will pay back your loves with my action and result.
Hmm.
Hate somebody now. I think fews. I hate 'em. They're just so, annoying and, CHEAP. But I won't pray for them bad, huhu I'm a good girl haha. But, don't you reach my limit I will slap your ASS bitch!
Tomorrow going back home. Miss you my dear Daddy Mummy, and also my DiiDii MeiMei. Muaks. See ya soon.
Anyway, I'm now leading a good and sweet life.
Eventhough sometimes, actually feel sad but I wouldn't have told anyone =]
College life is great. Love all the subjects I learn (except Tamadun Islam >< ) and I wanna work harder and harder ^^
Since Hong has borrowed the car from RongQiang so actually we went out kinda frequent. Huhu.
Have to buy a DSLR camera jor, cost around rm2000. Die soon. Haiz. Unable but have to. Sorry Daddy Mummy. I will pay back your loves with my action and result.
Hmm.
Hate somebody now. I think fews. I hate 'em. They're just so, annoying and, CHEAP. But I won't pray for them bad, huhu I'm a good girl haha. But, don't you reach my limit I will slap your ASS bitch!
Tomorrow going back home. Miss you my dear Daddy Mummy, and also my DiiDii MeiMei. Muaks. See ya soon.
I love you Hong <3
Sep 25, 2010
End of my break
So soon, my semester break is coming to an end.
Think back what had I done along this month, actually nothing.
I spent my time with family,
I spent my time on guitar,
I spent my time to sing,
I spent my time for...missing u the most.
Soon, the second semester is coming. Many new subjects that I really eager to learn. I wanna learn new things I love to learn new things. ;)
Gonna meet my friends back soon also. Are they changed in the month? Hope friendship never change. =)
Gonna start the college life again. Hope, will be busy until I could use my mind fully in those useful things. don't think too much.
Be happy my Dear Angela ;)
Goodbye my home~
Think back what had I done along this month, actually nothing.
I spent my time with family,
I spent my time on guitar,
I spent my time to sing,
I spent my time for...missing u the most.
Soon, the second semester is coming. Many new subjects that I really eager to learn. I wanna learn new things I love to learn new things. ;)
Gonna meet my friends back soon also. Are they changed in the month? Hope friendship never change. =)
Gonna start the college life again. Hope, will be busy until I could use my mind fully in those useful things. don't think too much.
Be happy my Dear Angela ;)
Goodbye my home~
Sep 23, 2010
Love u Hate u and I'm Leaving
I can move on with u if u say u can't find ur future.
I can find with u if u say u have no destination.
I can hold ur hands and give u the most calmly habour to stop if u feel tire.
I can tell u I'll be with u until my last heartbeat.
I can stay beside you when u need me there.
I can leave ur side if u tell me u wanna be free.
But u deny it all.
U said I deserve a better one.
U said u won't let me see if u are be with another one.
U said we are not gonna make it till the end.
U break my heart.
And u make me feel scare every second. Keep wondering when are u gonna to leave my side.
U make me feel guitly just because I'm too good.
I learn become independence
I learn become strong enough to take everything
I learn become a girl who can do everything
I learn become so optimistic until people seldom see my tears
All because of u.
I want u to love me more. I want u not to worry about me, I don't wanna be ur burden.
But seems I make u misunderstand, U think I can live without u. U think I'm too good and u're not that good enough for me.
Tell me. What am I supposing to do? So that I can stay u.
U give me a suck reason in order to leave me. U break my heart into pieces and u'll never get to know how hurt am I until my breathing is going to stop. U'll never know.
U give me the strength to love, give me the hope of forever, and u leave me alone here.
I hate u.
I don't wanna stay and wait u everyday, wait for u to say break up with me. So I'm the one to tell u. Since u wanna break, so let's break.
I still here for u. If u ask for stay.
I will leave for u. If u show me nothing.
My first time to say break up with u. I decided not to say it to u forever and tried to work hard on our relationship make it until forever. But u disappoint me. U never show me u're loving me and wanna be forever, like what I always do. This time, my leaving, wanna see if u're loving me, or not.
U're my love one. And u do really really hurt me deep deep more than I can afford. I hate u, I love u.
I can find with u if u say u have no destination.
I can hold ur hands and give u the most calmly habour to stop if u feel tire.
I can tell u I'll be with u until my last heartbeat.
I can stay beside you when u need me there.
I can leave ur side if u tell me u wanna be free.
But u deny it all.
U said I deserve a better one.
U said u won't let me see if u are be with another one.
U said we are not gonna make it till the end.
U break my heart.
And u make me feel scare every second. Keep wondering when are u gonna to leave my side.
U make me feel guitly just because I'm too good.
I learn become independence
I learn become strong enough to take everything
I learn become a girl who can do everything
I learn become so optimistic until people seldom see my tears
All because of u.
I want u to love me more. I want u not to worry about me, I don't wanna be ur burden.
But seems I make u misunderstand, U think I can live without u. U think I'm too good and u're not that good enough for me.
Tell me. What am I supposing to do? So that I can stay u.
U give me a suck reason in order to leave me. U break my heart into pieces and u'll never get to know how hurt am I until my breathing is going to stop. U'll never know.
U give me the strength to love, give me the hope of forever, and u leave me alone here.
I hate u.
I don't wanna stay and wait u everyday, wait for u to say break up with me. So I'm the one to tell u. Since u wanna break, so let's break.
I still here for u. If u ask for stay.
I will leave for u. If u show me nothing.
My first time to say break up with u. I decided not to say it to u forever and tried to work hard on our relationship make it until forever. But u disappoint me. U never show me u're loving me and wanna be forever, like what I always do. This time, my leaving, wanna see if u're loving me, or not.
U're my love one. And u do really really hurt me deep deep more than I can afford. I hate u, I love u.
Sep 22, 2010
What Those Happy Days =)
These days really really marked happiness in my life.
First of all, Happy Mooncake Festival to all my sweet friends ;)
Going to talk about, about these days...
20th September 2010
Today, went to hostel to meet my Hong, since he was off on that day to settle the hostel stuff, and he was arranged to the same room with Zack, what a nice arrangement ;) Had a nap at their hostel, too tired was I, so for Hong >< Then went back my hostel to get myself prepared for the next, we went to Times Square to watch Step Up 3 with Hong's friends ;) Reached there, and had my favorite Mc Donald as our lunch ^^ Then we went to meet up with his friend, Kam Hoe, and his friends.
The movie really nice and worth to watch, I bet it is nicer than Pirahna =D Really, it is talking about a gang of teenagers, teenagers who like to dance, and how they kept their dream moves on. I was touched. And I thinked to myself...There are so much to talk about my dream but, anyway the movie is really nice ;)
And then we rushed to Kepong, for steamboat~ Haha. Hong was calling up his friends. But we reached earlier than them, so we started to eat first XD The food there is really really many type to choose. And we took so many until the table was half fulled. Haha. And we started to steamboat and BBQ. And Hong's friends were coming one by one. I met with them and get to know them, and they are really Nice, Funny and Friendly ;) Honestly I love them all. We ate there for rounds >< And I did very very FULL...urghhh...>< First time saw Hong feels full, huhu. And we ate until almost 11++
Then, back to Hong's house to sleep by SoonMing's car =D And fast fast bath, fast fast sleep, TIRED~~~
21th September 2010
Woke up in 12 noon. Huh. Planned to watch Pirahna, but couldn't make it because time was rush and day was raining, haha. So I said wanna back home ler. Just right on this moment, Hong received a call from his friend, Ah Lai to ask him went to Genting Highland with him since he had a meeting up there. Hong was thinking whether follow or not, but than at the end he agreed also, and without hesitated I follow him to go ;)
Ah Lai reached Hong's house and we get up his car, and went to fetch JunHong, haha. All guys talked and joked along the road, really funny =D
Reached there, Ah Lai went for meeting and left we three, with no place to go for killed time, we went for 4D Motion Master =D Haha kinda scary the movie, but seemed I was the only one who scared huh, hahaz. Then went to outside there, sat down and ate Hong's mummy's cook. Nice~ But cold hahaz, JunHong was there kept shivering, haha really funny larr~ And soon Hong was like him also XD I kept laughing there, so bad huh =P So we fast fast finished the delicious food and run back to indoor, had a walked at there, watched the portrait artist from Shanghai drew the potrait there on the spot, with Hong, kept wondering how can he draw so perfect with those scale and the feeling. Nice ;)
Soon Ah Lai here and brought us to put our bags into the hotel. Reached hotal and we played cards there =D Haha nice, JunHong and Hong kept losing nia~~ Haha, and the loser had to open the oranges for the winner~~~Haha. Pity Hong =P And later we teared off some papers to be used as betting money XD funny, played Poker, and JunHong really funny lar~~Always lose and left fews, keke. And then Ah Lai went back to continue his meeting, ( He left it with the reason TOILET, and he went for "toilet" for about an hour haha ) After he left, we slept. Tired, haha. Slept until Ah Lai was back, and he brought JunHong out to chat something about their career. So, left me and Hong lu. We took turn to bath, and watched animal channel, and chatted about something about our future...Kinda be an other story to talk with, so, skip >< Chatted and then slept again =D Until JunHong they back, and went out for dinner at 2 midnight! Haha.
Ate KFC, since Hong had the voucher to free 4 chickens. We ate 10 chickens for 4 people, horrible >< Haha. Ah Lai decided to back just right on that night. >< So suddenly and I had no where to go if they back, I can't back home because family all slept already, and since they're going to come here tomorrow morning, so I had to leave, not following them, and my Hong, also left down in order to accompany me. Touched. Thanks. Really...I love you.
After they back, left me and Hong in hotel, time was getting late, so we had to sleep. Tomorrow need to wake up early. But before get sleep, we chatted a lot...Many, about Hong, about us, about...many. Slept at 4++
22th September 2010
Woke up at 8. Tired. Both tired. Washed face and went to buy bus ticket for Hong to back. Really worried to let him back alone, felt sorry. >< Then, after Hong back, I went to First World to wait my family =)
Soon they came. After bought tickets, we went to play~~~
We played really many games today, played four times for the Corkscrew, my favorite~~Haha, and DiiDii was addicted to the Roller Coaster, so, I played with him, for seven times! Haha, DiiDii really very brave and shocked us all, he even braver than my mum XD but me, gonna vomit already. And played Train, Flying Chair, 4D, Pirate Ship and so on, haha, really abit couldn't take it, old already XD Especially the Pirate Ship, almost vomit when I went down, damn scary >< We also enjoyed the Kenny Roger's Roaster there, delicious~~ At the end, we all really kinda headache and tired, so we back. All were super tired, so for me, so I slept since back, until now...Haha =D
First of all, Happy Mooncake Festival to all my sweet friends ;)
Going to talk about, about these days...
20th September 2010
Today, went to hostel to meet my Hong, since he was off on that day to settle the hostel stuff, and he was arranged to the same room with Zack, what a nice arrangement ;) Had a nap at their hostel, too tired was I, so for Hong >< Then went back my hostel to get myself prepared for the next, we went to Times Square to watch Step Up 3 with Hong's friends ;) Reached there, and had my favorite Mc Donald as our lunch ^^ Then we went to meet up with his friend, Kam Hoe, and his friends.
The movie really nice and worth to watch, I bet it is nicer than Pirahna =D Really, it is talking about a gang of teenagers, teenagers who like to dance, and how they kept their dream moves on. I was touched. And I thinked to myself...There are so much to talk about my dream but, anyway the movie is really nice ;)
And then we rushed to Kepong, for steamboat~ Haha. Hong was calling up his friends. But we reached earlier than them, so we started to eat first XD The food there is really really many type to choose. And we took so many until the table was half fulled. Haha. And we started to steamboat and BBQ. And Hong's friends were coming one by one. I met with them and get to know them, and they are really Nice, Funny and Friendly ;) Honestly I love them all. We ate there for rounds >< And I did very very FULL...urghhh...>< First time saw Hong feels full, huhu. And we ate until almost 11++
Then, back to Hong's house to sleep by SoonMing's car =D And fast fast bath, fast fast sleep, TIRED~~~
21th September 2010
Woke up in 12 noon. Huh. Planned to watch Pirahna, but couldn't make it because time was rush and day was raining, haha. So I said wanna back home ler. Just right on this moment, Hong received a call from his friend, Ah Lai to ask him went to Genting Highland with him since he had a meeting up there. Hong was thinking whether follow or not, but than at the end he agreed also, and without hesitated I follow him to go ;)
Ah Lai reached Hong's house and we get up his car, and went to fetch JunHong, haha. All guys talked and joked along the road, really funny =D
Reached there, Ah Lai went for meeting and left we three, with no place to go for killed time, we went for 4D Motion Master =D Haha kinda scary the movie, but seemed I was the only one who scared huh, hahaz. Then went to outside there, sat down and ate Hong's mummy's cook. Nice~ But cold hahaz, JunHong was there kept shivering, haha really funny larr~ And soon Hong was like him also XD I kept laughing there, so bad huh =P So we fast fast finished the delicious food and run back to indoor, had a walked at there, watched the portrait artist from Shanghai drew the potrait there on the spot, with Hong, kept wondering how can he draw so perfect with those scale and the feeling. Nice ;)
Soon Ah Lai here and brought us to put our bags into the hotel. Reached hotal and we played cards there =D Haha nice, JunHong and Hong kept losing nia~~ Haha, and the loser had to open the oranges for the winner~~~Haha. Pity Hong =P And later we teared off some papers to be used as betting money XD funny, played Poker, and JunHong really funny lar~~Always lose and left fews, keke. And then Ah Lai went back to continue his meeting, ( He left it with the reason TOILET, and he went for "toilet" for about an hour haha ) After he left, we slept. Tired, haha. Slept until Ah Lai was back, and he brought JunHong out to chat something about their career. So, left me and Hong lu. We took turn to bath, and watched animal channel, and chatted about something about our future...Kinda be an other story to talk with, so, skip >< Chatted and then slept again =D Until JunHong they back, and went out for dinner at 2 midnight! Haha.
Ate KFC, since Hong had the voucher to free 4 chickens. We ate 10 chickens for 4 people, horrible >< Haha. Ah Lai decided to back just right on that night. >< So suddenly and I had no where to go if they back, I can't back home because family all slept already, and since they're going to come here tomorrow morning, so I had to leave, not following them, and my Hong, also left down in order to accompany me. Touched. Thanks. Really...I love you.
After they back, left me and Hong in hotel, time was getting late, so we had to sleep. Tomorrow need to wake up early. But before get sleep, we chatted a lot...Many, about Hong, about us, about...many. Slept at 4++
22th September 2010
Woke up at 8. Tired. Both tired. Washed face and went to buy bus ticket for Hong to back. Really worried to let him back alone, felt sorry. >< Then, after Hong back, I went to First World to wait my family =)
Soon they came. After bought tickets, we went to play~~~
We played really many games today, played four times for the Corkscrew, my favorite~~Haha, and DiiDii was addicted to the Roller Coaster, so, I played with him, for seven times! Haha, DiiDii really very brave and shocked us all, he even braver than my mum XD but me, gonna vomit already. And played Train, Flying Chair, 4D, Pirate Ship and so on, haha, really abit couldn't take it, old already XD Especially the Pirate Ship, almost vomit when I went down, damn scary >< We also enjoyed the Kenny Roger's Roaster there, delicious~~ At the end, we all really kinda headache and tired, so we back. All were super tired, so for me, so I slept since back, until now...Haha =D
不完美
你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
我希望你幸福 尽管你并不爱我
[李玖哲::不完美]
Sep 19, 2010
See You Tomorrow
Today I made my hair treatment.
Today I put lotion on my skin.
Today I coloured my nails.
Today I made a mask for my face.
Because tomorrow will be our first meet after this long long holiday. Expecting. Aren't you? Miss you...
See you tomorrow my dear =]
Sep 18, 2010
Love of This World
Why is some people can be so easy come easy go towards their relationship? And they will get whatever they want.
Why is some people always pay off their everything in a relationship blindly and without ask for any repay? And what they get is always the sad ending, heartbroken ending.
Why is some people will easily forget about how eager are they to start the relationship with the one they really "Love" for at first of all? And they act like wanna throw away the relationship such as it looks like a burden to him/her.
Love, fool people. And Love, where people are fooled.
So many kinds of love in the world. And now I'm talking about the love between man and woman.
I don't really sure if is it fixed that the one who loves the deepest the one who will get hurt at the end. But what have I seen around me, including my own experiences, it seems correct. Who loves the deepest, the easiest he/she will get hurt. Isn't that cruel? Why must be the one who loves the deepest get hurt? Because their partner never ever pay off the same and never precious their love. Why? Unfair.
Case I
He left a girl, Angie because of the other girl, Mandy. He told Angie that he loved Mandy in the way she is. Independence, self-confidence self-esteem, cheerful, sporting and so on. Described like no other can be compared with her. Angie cried, cried of sadness and be self-abased. She left. And soon he was together with the girl he dreamed for, Mandy. Not that long time, he left Mandy. He hurt Mandy so deep in the way that outsider could never imaging. Mandy gives him all he asked for and at the end Mandy lost much more than she can afford...He soon started his new life with the other girl. What can I say?
Case II
A girl lost her love one. And soon meet with a new one, who really really pamper her and love her more than the past one. She accepted this one. She was so in love with the one, she told her friends, like she has met the right one. Only in a short time. She felt that they aren't that sweet than before, feeling just can't correct. She asked for break. She totally forget abut, her happiness at first. What can I say?
Can I point that whose the wrong one? I think I can't. There are no mean of correct or wrong in a relationship...? I really really don't know.
I will admire when I see two old couple, jogging in the morning. They aren't talking sweet things but keep babbling about the life's unsatisfying. Then, is raining. The old uncle faster takes out an umbrella, and opens it holds it for his old partner. They walk slowly, with keep babbling...I wonder how many things they had came through along the years since they get married. I wonder how deep is their love to hold them together after so many years. Their love with no such beautifully romantic stuff, but their love is permanently, and strong than the teenagers' or the adult's love which always hanging those words of "Love" and "Forever" everyday. The only thing I know is, they never simply think of "break up" or "divorce" no matter what had happened. They live in the world of two people, isn't their own.
My friend told me about a cruel thing she had gone through. She had a baby, and her boyfriend brought her to abort it. And after the abortion, her boyfriend left her. I can imaging, how was the girl's feeling. She loves him, gives him everything. And she had their, or her very first child in her life. the little child. As a mother, she imaging how will the little baby looks like, and what if the baby can born, how will be her life...? But she is still very young! How can she faces this all? She was in scare...And her stupid boyfriend brought her to abort! It was an operation. She killed her own baby by herself. Can you imagine the girl's feeling?...I do, and I cry for her experience. She has sacrificed so so much to the only guy she loves and what she wants is only the guy's love...Is that too much? I think what has she paid is far more much than what she expects for.
I'm now in a relationship. A simple relationship with not that much problems. Everything seems just fine, but who know what's going to happen in the future? Love isn't guaranteed us forever, Love isn't for the purpose to be forever anymore. Love isn't simple as human change to become greedy and greedy.
All of us who really serious towards the relationship will always confuse and wonder, what can I do, so that my love will guarantee me forever? I believe they will do anything if there are any way to get it, if there are any way...But there aren't any way.
People always said, Love isn't that precious if it can always last forever, Love can be prettier if we only have it for some days in our life time...I say that all bullshit! Love, is that so holy that God gives us the ability to love a person, so that our love can last for forever and forever. That's only the love is beautiful.
Love, how good is if it is simple and last forever?
WTF!
Really really angry now.
What the heck!
Ask you guys, will you get angry when there are people talk bad about you with the things that isn't correct at all?? Mean, GOSSIP !......
@^&**&^%$#@$^&*(&$%TT&*$#%&*$#%$&..........
Hey you know me nothing but you can talk about me in front of the people around me?
Hey you always act like you know everything and talk like you wanna help me?
Hey you think you are my WHO that's enough to talk about me?
Hey what the hell you think you're doing that you thought can ruin me?
Gosh! You make me sick!
There're nothing you can do on my life with you fucking gossip mouth!
You really really such an ordinary BITCH!
I blame myself for such stupid ever think wanna forgive you.
I'll NEVER forgive you anymore, no matter how they beg or ask, I WON'T! I hate you.
Stop acting like you're a good person, don't dream wanna get heart from the people around me, don't dream!
Bitch than a BITCH! Gossip gossip gossip gossip......please larr, no qualification to talk about me at all larr you. Somemore, know only a little bit than act like you know everything, don't make me laugh! In my eyes what you have done is just such an idiot...
What the heck!
Ask you guys, will you get angry when there are people talk bad about you with the things that isn't correct at all?? Mean, GOSSIP !......
@^&**&^%$#@$^&*(&$%TT&*$#%&*$#%$&..........
Hey you know me nothing but you can talk about me in front of the people around me?
Hey you always act like you know everything and talk like you wanna help me?
Hey you think you are my WHO that's enough to talk about me?
Hey what the hell you think you're doing that you thought can ruin me?
Gosh! You make me sick!
There're nothing you can do on my life with you fucking gossip mouth!
You really really such an ordinary BITCH!
I blame myself for such stupid ever think wanna forgive you.
I'll NEVER forgive you anymore, no matter how they beg or ask, I WON'T! I hate you.
Stop acting like you're a good person, don't dream wanna get heart from the people around me, don't dream!
Bitch than a BITCH! Gossip gossip gossip gossip......please larr, no qualification to talk about me at all larr you. Somemore, know only a little bit than act like you know everything, don't make me laugh! In my eyes what you have done is just such an idiot...
LOLz, you did made me laugh.
Sep 15, 2010
Big Girl Don't Cry...
好朋友失恋了...><
看她即使难过得快崩溃了，还是逞强，心也就跟着疼了...傻婆...
在一起了好久呵...
说分了就分了。
海誓呢？山盟呢？...
她哭着告诉我，数落着她自己，说曾经是多么的傻，相信能够牵着他的手到白头。
感慨。
亲爱的，
抱歉我真的什么都帮不上。
只能陪你疯、陪你闹。
只能在笑闹间无意瞥见你心伤掉下的泪。
只能默默祝福，希望外表坚强的你能再一次站起来...
只能，在你的背后看见自己的影子...
亲爱的，
你知道我能明白你。
所以你选择了在我面前卸下城墙。
因为，我们走的，竟是不同时空的同一条路...同样的故事、同样的结局、同样的背景和人物...
当初就没怪过你，你就别自责了，傻婆...
你说，你心情复杂的快要疯了。
他说，要分开，因为彼此的不适合。很快的他的身边就出现了另一个她。
你会难过，是应该的...
你说，他告诉你爱情是没有童话故事般的结局。
我懂你说这话的时候，是有多么多么的无奈。
你恨他，为什么不在一开始就告诉了你...
我知道。我统统都知道。
时间会是一切的解药。
相信我。
你一定，能比我更快走出回忆的痛，能走向更幸福的未来。
看她即使难过得快崩溃了，还是逞强，心也就跟着疼了...傻婆...
在一起了好久呵...
说分了就分了。
海誓呢？山盟呢？...
她哭着告诉我，数落着她自己，说曾经是多么的傻，相信能够牵着他的手到白头。
感慨。
亲爱的，
抱歉我真的什么都帮不上。
只能陪你疯、陪你闹。
只能在笑闹间无意瞥见你心伤掉下的泪。
只能默默祝福，希望外表坚强的你能再一次站起来...
只能，在你的背后看见自己的影子...
亲爱的，
你知道我能明白你。
所以你选择了在我面前卸下城墙。
因为，我们走的，竟是不同时空的同一条路...同样的故事、同样的结局、同样的背景和人物...
当初就没怪过你，你就别自责了，傻婆...
你说，你心情复杂的快要疯了。
他说，要分开，因为彼此的不适合。很快的他的身边就出现了另一个她。
你会难过，是应该的...
你说，他告诉你爱情是没有童话故事般的结局。
我懂你说这话的时候，是有多么多么的无奈。
你恨他，为什么不在一开始就告诉了你...
我知道。我统统都知道。
时间会是一切的解药。
相信我。
你一定，能比我更快走出回忆的痛，能走向更幸福的未来。
祝福你...
我爱你
就这么说吧，简简单单一句，“我爱你”。
够了。
足够让我明白你的心。
别每次都不说什么，我不够聪明去猜懂你，我怕猜错。我需要你的肯定。
你说我该懂，只要你说，我就懂。
懂你，
够了。
足够让我明白你的心。
别每次都不说什么，我不够聪明去猜懂你，我怕猜错。我需要你的肯定。
你说我该懂，只要你说，我就懂。
懂你，
其实和我爱你一样，那么爱我
其实当我每次为你付出，你都知道，也会感动
其实你心疼我
其实你在乎我的感受
其实，你也想我... ...
或许我们都太年轻了，或许我偶尔真的太任性了。可是你的包容、你的了解，我都知道，谢谢你，亲爱的。或许我们都不懂，该怎么去恒温一段感情。可是我们可以慢慢慢慢地学习，不是吗？就这样，牵着手，一步一步地走，或许，或许会就这样地一个不小心，让我们走到了永远...？嘻，我爱你。
氧气
带你心飞
沉入越来越深的海底
我开始想念你
我好孤寂
跌进越来越冷的爱里
我快不能呼吸
我想要你
人活著赖著一口氧气
氧气是你
如果你爱我 你会来找我
你会知道我 快不能活
如果你爱我 你会来救我
空气很稀薄 因为寂寞
[卢学叡 :: 氧气]
Sep 13, 2010
Yipee~~~
Wakakakaka~~~
Finally, we finished that PUZZLE larrrrrr~~~~
Hahahaha,,
Happy ^^
All the effort from Ling, Mummy, DiiDii, and...ME~~~~
Hohohoho
12 Sept 2010, Family Day
Today is a typical Sunday, Daddy hasn't worked. And I still not sleep for the whole night.
Early in the morning Mummy came and knocked my door,
At first I thought not to go because I was totally exhausted but it was a family day! I shouldn't be so selfish, and I wanna join their happiness moment, and hence, I went.
We went to UYB there to have our breakfast, we ate a super delicious roast duck rice =] Not very expensive also. Nice.
Then we departed to Damansara~~
We reached and visted The Court first. Had a look on the furniture. And then went to upstair the Bentley Music. There sold a lot of music instruments, drums, violin, guitar, piano, keyboard...OMG. And I saw a very nice plug-in guitar, sold RM 1060, I target for it, hehe, save money and learn more on guitar, and then will buy it for myself, it is really really nice. =]
Then we went to The Curve, and then E-Curve. We snapped some photos there because the decoration was nice. ^^ MeiMei and me found our "heaven" there! An animation shoplet! OMG, there has sold a lot of accesories related to animation especially our favorite one Bleach and One Piece! MeiMei said wanna save money, because wanna buy the Bleach cosplay costume, hahax, but that really nice, cost RM 100++, and at the end we bought 4 four t-shirts whice has the Anime's pictures on it. And a 1000 pieces puzzle! Hahax, DiiDii also bought a transformer model. We spent RM 185 there...That's worth! Happy~~
Then, I went to Sasa. There had been a long time since I visited. And bought an eyeliner and a yogurt mask. Hahax. I love to make myself look pretty =P
Tesco. Mummy and DiiDii went into Tesco and MeiMei and me were totally tired, we sat on a bench to take a break. Also bought a lot of things at here. I bought the Herbal Essence shampoo and conditioner, Lux body shampoo, and some beverages. Hahax. Really used alot of money today, but still happy. Not forget to buy the SUSHI~~hahax, bought RM 15++, hahax.
Then, Daddy fetched us to SS2 to have our lunch. After Daddy bought his DVD, we started to order, MeiMei and Mummy ate hcao donghun, DiiDii and me ate Char Kuey Teow, and ABC, and some herbal tea.
Hahax, really a nice day spent with family.
Reached home even tough I was exhausted, but I still started to play the puzzle with MeiMei. =] Not that easy, for the 1000-piece One Piece puzzle, and at the end I still fell asleep on 10...Hahax.
Early in the morning Mummy came and knocked my door,
" Wanna go out anot?"
"Go where?"
"The Curve."
At first I thought not to go because I was totally exhausted but it was a family day! I shouldn't be so selfish, and I wanna join their happiness moment, and hence, I went.
I make-up. Hehe, long time didn't make-up.
We went to UYB there to have our breakfast, we ate a super delicious roast duck rice =] Not very expensive also. Nice.
Then we departed to Damansara~~
We reached and visted The Court first. Had a look on the furniture. And then went to upstair the Bentley Music. There sold a lot of music instruments, drums, violin, guitar, piano, keyboard...OMG. And I saw a very nice plug-in guitar, sold RM 1060, I target for it, hehe, save money and learn more on guitar, and then will buy it for myself, it is really really nice. =]
Then we went to The Curve, and then E-Curve. We snapped some photos there because the decoration was nice. ^^ MeiMei and me found our "heaven" there! An animation shoplet! OMG, there has sold a lot of accesories related to animation especially our favorite one Bleach and One Piece! MeiMei said wanna save money, because wanna buy the Bleach cosplay costume, hahax, but that really nice, cost RM 100++, and at the end we bought 4 four t-shirts whice has the Anime's pictures on it. And a 1000 pieces puzzle! Hahax, DiiDii also bought a transformer model. We spent RM 185 there...That's worth! Happy~~
Then, I went to Sasa. There had been a long time since I visited. And bought an eyeliner and a yogurt mask. Hahax. I love to make myself look pretty =P
Tesco. Mummy and DiiDii went into Tesco and MeiMei and me were totally tired, we sat on a bench to take a break. Also bought a lot of things at here. I bought the Herbal Essence shampoo and conditioner, Lux body shampoo, and some beverages. Hahax. Really used alot of money today, but still happy. Not forget to buy the SUSHI~~hahax, bought RM 15++, hahax.
Then, Daddy fetched us to SS2 to have our lunch. After Daddy bought his DVD, we started to order, MeiMei and Mummy ate hcao donghun, DiiDii and me ate Char Kuey Teow, and ABC, and some herbal tea.
Hahax, really a nice day spent with family.
Reached home even tough I was exhausted, but I still started to play the puzzle with MeiMei. =] Not that easy, for the 1000-piece One Piece puzzle, and at the end I still fell asleep on 10...Hahax.
Actually planned to watch movie through out the night with MeiMei, but, hahax, sleep already. Paiseh yea Ling~
Sep 11, 2010
10 Sept 2010, A Happii Daii
The day, DiiDii's birthday and also my house's Open Day.
Many people, relatives and friends were invited to come, and the party started at 6.
But before that, held a party isn't that simple. Many preparing need to be done.
Early in the morning, we started to clean out our house, and arranged all the tables and chairs. After the ordered food came, we now really really busy. We cooked, prepared the bbQ and steamboat, arranged the food and fruits and drinks, and also the spoons, plates, cups...etc. All of us worked until sweaty. Huhu.
Right before the party get started, and the guests were all arrived, I went to bath, and, after helped mummy out, I started to EAT~~~
Wohoo so many things to eat and I ate the most was nugget, delicious. Steamboat, and bbQ. The fire of bbQ wasn't easy to put up. Hahax. DiiDii received many presents. I can see his happiness from his smile.
My house suddenly seemed so crowdly. Around 40 guests there. All ate and chatted, haha environment was looked so noisy but harmony. I love that feeling, love of family.
Reached the time to cut the cake. One of my auntie bought DiiDii a secret recipe's chocolate indulgence, huhu, my favorite =] We all made a circle around DiiDii and sang him "Happy Birthday" in three different versions, hahax. And, DiiDii made a wish, and blew the candle, and cut the cake. Even tough we all can only be divided a little amount of cake, but we still enjoyed it.
Then was the time, most expected time, hahax, DiiDii was opening the presents. Hahax, many photos were took, and DiiDii kissed everyone who gave him presents, can be seen that how happy was him. =] All the presents he loves also, hehe. He happy, I feel happy too...
Then, me and fews were started the second round of bbQ. Hahax that was awesome and great! We kept on compared whose chicken wings were the nicest, hahax and my big uncle kept told jokes that made all of us laughed crazily =D The wings were so delicious. Mummy and aunties sat aside together and chit-chatted there, also happy. Hahax, my another uncle then caame and joined our bbQ too, because we were just too happy =D
And then was the time for Tee to perform his magic XD Lol, could hear lot of sound of admire like "yerr!", "wah, "yo"...haha. Famous jor lo!
Then, day getting night. I was just too tire due to not sleep at the night before. So I went to sleep at 12. BUT! They were all continued playing computer together the "Bejeweled Blitz" until 4...= =
Many people, relatives and friends were invited to come, and the party started at 6.
But before that, held a party isn't that simple. Many preparing need to be done.
Early in the morning, we started to clean out our house, and arranged all the tables and chairs. After the ordered food came, we now really really busy. We cooked, prepared the bbQ and steamboat, arranged the food and fruits and drinks, and also the spoons, plates, cups...etc. All of us worked until sweaty. Huhu.
Right before the party get started, and the guests were all arrived, I went to bath, and, after helped mummy out, I started to EAT~~~
Wohoo so many things to eat and I ate the most was nugget, delicious. Steamboat, and bbQ. The fire of bbQ wasn't easy to put up. Hahax. DiiDii received many presents. I can see his happiness from his smile.
My house suddenly seemed so crowdly. Around 40 guests there. All ate and chatted, haha environment was looked so noisy but harmony. I love that feeling, love of family.
Reached the time to cut the cake. One of my auntie bought DiiDii a secret recipe's chocolate indulgence, huhu, my favorite =] We all made a circle around DiiDii and sang him "Happy Birthday" in three different versions, hahax. And, DiiDii made a wish, and blew the candle, and cut the cake. Even tough we all can only be divided a little amount of cake, but we still enjoyed it.
Then was the time, most expected time, hahax, DiiDii was opening the presents. Hahax, many photos were took, and DiiDii kissed everyone who gave him presents, can be seen that how happy was him. =] All the presents he loves also, hehe. He happy, I feel happy too...
Then, me and fews were started the second round of bbQ. Hahax that was awesome and great! We kept on compared whose chicken wings were the nicest, hahax and my big uncle kept told jokes that made all of us laughed crazily =D The wings were so delicious. Mummy and aunties sat aside together and chit-chatted there, also happy. Hahax, my another uncle then caame and joined our bbQ too, because we were just too happy =D
And then was the time for Tee to perform his magic XD Lol, could hear lot of sound of admire like "yerr!", "wah, "yo"...haha. Famous jor lo!
Then, day getting night. I was just too tire due to not sleep at the night before. So I went to sleep at 12. BUT! They were all continued playing computer together the "Bejeweled Blitz" until 4...= =
Anyway, it is really a happy and unforgettable day for me and I believe is for my family too =]
Love you all, forever, Papa, Mama, DiiDii, and MeiMei. Muacks ^3^
Sep 9, 2010
Sep 7, 2010
My Tuesday, 7 Sept 2010
Wow. Not sleeping but here blooging in a such time, I'm going to crazy, hahax. Now is 4.30 A.M.
Actually isn't want to wait for anyone or whatelse, just simply couldn't sleep.
Let's chat about yesterday =)
Hmm. Woke up, and helped mummy in some household stuff.
Then online chatted with my guitar teacher -- Yip, Tee and another Angela, hahax.
Played guitar for a long long time, until fingers felt pain. But that was great when sing meanwhile playing guitar. I never regret to learn guitar no matter how hard I had gone through to learn it, erm I mean the fees. ><
Then, grandmum they came. House suddenly became so crowdful. Hahax. Continued my guitar.
Hungry. Cooked the Tomyam Panmee ^^ Nice neh~
And then, talked phone with Hong. Talked for long long time. Hahax. Hong didn't went to work due to his sickness. Heartache...><
Finished talked, then watched the TV programme I had downloaded, a taiwan's singing competition. Kinda like to watch such singing competition, like to learn something about singing inside that =)
Music is my life.
That's why I learn guitar,
And I fell into singing since I was still 10,
I can sing well, but not now ><
Because since I get into college, I never practise my singing anymore. No time, no place. How can I sing in hostel??Going to be threw shoes from neighbours hahax. Haiz, I did practised at home few days ago, but that voice, killed me. Disappointing to myself.
Hahax.
And raining the whole night.
Hong, sweet dream. Love you.
Actually isn't want to wait for anyone or whatelse, just simply couldn't sleep.
Let's chat about yesterday =)
Hmm. Woke up, and helped mummy in some household stuff.
Then online chatted with my guitar teacher -- Yip, Tee and another Angela, hahax.
Played guitar for a long long time, until fingers felt pain. But that was great when sing meanwhile playing guitar. I never regret to learn guitar no matter how hard I had gone through to learn it, erm I mean the fees. ><
Then, grandmum they came. House suddenly became so crowdful. Hahax. Continued my guitar.
Hungry. Cooked the Tomyam Panmee ^^ Nice neh~
And then, talked phone with Hong. Talked for long long time. Hahax. Hong didn't went to work due to his sickness. Heartache...><
Finished talked, then watched the TV programme I had downloaded, a taiwan's singing competition. Kinda like to watch such singing competition, like to learn something about singing inside that =)
Music is my life.
That's why I learn guitar,
And I fell into singing since I was still 10,
I can sing well, but not now ><
Because since I get into college, I never practise my singing anymore. No time, no place. How can I sing in hostel??Going to be threw shoes from neighbours hahax. Haiz, I did practised at home few days ago, but that voice, killed me. Disappointing to myself.
Hahax.
And raining the whole night.
Hong, sweet dream. Love you.
Feel like wanna sing now...in the midnight??LOL don't kidding = =
Sep 6, 2010
Face with Death
Early in the morning, was awoke by my STEWPID kidney >< Urghhh.
My kidney pain again. Feeling suffered.
The first thing rushed into my mind was, is it I'm going to die...?? Haizx wanna let Tee scolds again, think too much = = Hahax
But, soon think about something...Not bad to care about, hahax
Who is the person that I just can't let go until my last heartbeat...?
What is/are the things I wanna do before I die?
What will you say to people before you die?
So, what's the conclusion?
My kidney pain again. Feeling suffered.
The first thing rushed into my mind was, is it I'm going to die...?? Haizx wanna let Tee scolds again, think too much = = Hahax
But, soon think about something...Not bad to care about, hahax
Who is the person that I just can't let go until my last heartbeat...?
Answer :: Absolutely my parents. They rise me up, feed me, care me, love me. I don't wanna see their faces of sad due to my death. And I even can't repay their paid off. Haiz, sad.
What is/are the things I wanna do before I die?
Answer :: Many. Hahax. I want earn many many money, I want let my parents have their comfortable life, meanwhile not to worry about me. =] I want let my sister and brother can fulfill their dreams whatever they wanna reach. I wanna let my family feel proud of me. Hahax. One more stupid thing. I want get married. Hahax. Isn't that funny huh? But, for me, it shall be the happiest moment, or the prettiest moment for a girl. Sure larr, also for the time later, become his wife, spend the rest of my life with him, and also our children...Hahax. (Shy shy)
What will you say to people before you die?
Answer :: To my parents I'll say, "Daddy Mummy, I love you". To my didi and meimei I'll say, "Be a good person, work hard on your future". To my dear I'll say, "Don't cry, you deserve the better one" (fake hahax). To my friends I'll say, "Stay happy as when I was there beside you all". (hahax wanna cry already)
Answer :: Hahax. Sure is, I DON'T WANNA DIE SO FAST larr. XD Still got lot things wait for me to achieve, that's a waste for die so young. Haha. I'll take good care myself, for my dearest family...for my lovely Hong...for my precious friends also...I regret larr >< I want take good care of myself from now on lerr >< Solli solli T^T
p/s :: aha long time din write such a HAPPY (?!) blog lerr, owis the sad sad stuff >< Huhu, enjoy urself XD
Sep 5, 2010
Last Hurtbeat
Watch on the wall shows me 5, and the sky outside the window tells me is morning now, even tough the Sun hasn't risen.
The dogs' bark outside makes me shiver.
I stay alone at downstair of my big big house. Sometimes, it seems too big enough to make me feel lonely easily. The air downstair is cooler, that's what I told my daddy. Fake biatch.
Facebook again, and Ah Tee again, who accompany me through out the cold night. I deserve all the loneliness, I make it comes to my life. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. And totally, lose myself. Not anymore the "Me" that I used to be. Happy, optimistic, strong, charming, sporty...all gone from me. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. All because of myself.
Fall deeply into a relationship isn't a good thing.
I need someone, who needs me too. I don't need a man who is wealth, or handsome, or clever, or whatso, but, I need Him to need Me too, isn't that seems impossible? Haha. We tend to live in our own life, by having each other as partner, but won't even once stir on the other's life. That's better for me and Him. I think so.
Hmm.
I love the man. I won't let him go easily, won't speak out the WORD easily, as long as, he remains unchange. And, I know he will feel frustrated also if, I keep on waiting him, and waiting him. Even tough he never know why is my purposes. Care, and love, and scare. Anyway, this is the last night I wait for Him. Last. I promise to myself. Love myself more. Meanwhile I never fade my love towards Him. No worries.
The dogs' bark outside makes me shiver.
I stay alone at downstair of my big big house. Sometimes, it seems too big enough to make me feel lonely easily. The air downstair is cooler, that's what I told my daddy. Fake biatch.
Facebook again, and Ah Tee again, who accompany me through out the cold night. I deserve all the loneliness, I make it comes to my life. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. And totally, lose myself. Not anymore the "Me" that I used to be. Happy, optimistic, strong, charming, sporty...all gone from me. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. All because of myself.
Fall deeply into a relationship isn't a good thing.
I need someone, who needs me too. I don't need a man who is wealth, or handsome, or clever, or whatso, but, I need Him to need Me too, isn't that seems impossible? Haha. We tend to live in our own life, by having each other as partner, but won't even once stir on the other's life. That's better for me and Him. I think so.
Friends said I'm always dig out problem at wherelse suppose no problem. I make myself problem. I make myself sadness and trouble. Actually everything is going to be like normal, is me, don't appreciate what I'm having now.
YOU are not me! You will never ever know what's the feeling for a girl who lost in a LOVE where she actually isn't need to be there. Everyone got their own problems in love, so, don't you simply judge on mine. As I never really judge on yours, my dear friend. I don't need you to be by my side and comfort me and scold the man together, and so, I don't need you to be their too to say how pity are you and how stupid am I for not appreciating my love.
Hmm.
I love the man. I won't let him go easily, won't speak out the WORD easily, as long as, he remains unchange. And, I know he will feel frustrated also if, I keep on waiting him, and waiting him. Even tough he never know why is my purposes. Care, and love, and scare. Anyway, this is the last night I wait for Him. Last. I promise to myself. Love myself more. Meanwhile I never fade my love towards Him. No worries.
Hong arr Hong~~
Yesterday, almost getting frustrated when I was waiting for you at night, until the sun rose. I wasn't sleep through out the night. My dear, your working time become later and later than before.
6 a.m.
Here you were.
You called me, and we chatted.
Chatted about everything, chatted and laughed.
Sweet when hear you called me lao po...Thanks lao gong. You called me twice, enough for me to sleep tight with smile on my face.
I sang for you.
I love you. I'm missing you days and nights, every second. That's bad.
Feel your changes, but just can't say what the difference. Worry. Until I asked you not to work anymore, I told you honestly I'm worrying. But, no idea, you wanna continue also. I know you work is because of me. You want me a better life, eat better, life better, and buy all the things I wish to buy, that's why you go to work. Even tough the work isn't that good somemore tiring...Dear. Thanks, I love you, and sorry.
Sooo...
Pray for you...
Miss you...
Trust you...
Love you...
6 a.m.
Here you were.
You called me, and we chatted.
Chatted about everything, chatted and laughed.
Sweet when hear you called me lao po...Thanks lao gong. You called me twice, enough for me to sleep tight with smile on my face.
I sang for you.
I love you. I'm missing you days and nights, every second. That's bad.
Feel your changes, but just can't say what the difference. Worry. Until I asked you not to work anymore, I told you honestly I'm worrying. But, no idea, you wanna continue also. I know you work is because of me. You want me a better life, eat better, life better, and buy all the things I wish to buy, that's why you go to work. Even tough the work isn't that good somemore tiring...Dear. Thanks, I love you, and sorry.
Sooo...
Pray for you...
Miss you...
Trust you...
Love you...
Don't make me disappoint of u, okay dear?
You're my only Lao Gong, Hong.
Sep 3, 2010
For Dear
Planned to sleep on 9 and then wake up at 4, just right when Hong back from work. But thing wasn't gone right, slept on 11 something and soon, woke up at 12 due to hungry...
Kinda lazy to walk down, and cook myself a maggi, but after thought and thought and thought repeatly, I still did it. Went down, cooked maggi + egg, cold water, and, online. Haha.
Finished eating and now, sitting in front of my laptop. Facebook-ing and trying to write something in my blog.
Hmm, nothing much to write about lately. Due to my simple lifestyle at home. Nothing much to do, nothing much happen. Easy come easy go haha.
Anyway, isn't really in good mood today. Maybe also for the next few days.
Never show up, don't wanna let mummy daddy worry. Hidden inside my room only I'll take away my mask, the mask with charming smile.
Hmm.
You larr. The one who makes me like this. Haiz. Blame you?? No I'm not doing this. Just...haiz babbling.
I'm worrying about you, although I never tell you. Working in such a place, so complicated place. I just don't like it. But what to say? You need work, you need money, that's my fault too. Dear, take good care of yourself can? I'll always here pray for you safety. I don't know is that too over to say about these, but, I just aren't feel good about it.
Somemore I'm nt there beside you. No one is going to takecare of you. When you back home, no one wait for you, maybe cooks for you. Everytime I will think how good if I'm there with you. Wait for you. Heartache for seeing you work until so late, worry about your health also.
What I can only do for you is, staying up in the middle of the night, waiting for you. Maybe have a call to you, listening your story about today's stuff, and, sleep with you...eventough not beside you.
Dear, don't forget that I'm here, I'm the one who loves you so much.
Kinda lazy to walk down, and cook myself a maggi, but after thought and thought and thought repeatly, I still did it. Went down, cooked maggi + egg, cold water, and, online. Haha.
Finished eating and now, sitting in front of my laptop. Facebook-ing and trying to write something in my blog.
Hmm, nothing much to write about lately. Due to my simple lifestyle at home. Nothing much to do, nothing much happen. Easy come easy go haha.
Anyway, isn't really in good mood today. Maybe also for the next few days.
Never show up, don't wanna let mummy daddy worry. Hidden inside my room only I'll take away my mask, the mask with charming smile.
Hmm.
You larr. The one who makes me like this. Haiz. Blame you?? No I'm not doing this. Just...haiz babbling.
I'm worrying about you, although I never tell you. Working in such a place, so complicated place. I just don't like it. But what to say? You need work, you need money, that's my fault too. Dear, take good care of yourself can? I'll always here pray for you safety. I don't know is that too over to say about these, but, I just aren't feel good about it.
Somemore I'm nt there beside you. No one is going to takecare of you. When you back home, no one wait for you, maybe cooks for you. Everytime I will think how good if I'm there with you. Wait for you. Heartache for seeing you work until so late, worry about your health also.
What I can only do for you is, staying up in the middle of the night, waiting for you. Maybe have a call to you, listening your story about today's stuff, and, sleep with you...eventough not beside you.
Dear, don't forget that I'm here, I'm the one who loves you so much.
我-不-乖
今天的自己一直都魂不守舍
刚刚想要煲饭，却把还没放米的饭煲拿去洗碗盆，想要洗米。
发现了自己那么的笨，不禁靠在墙上捂着嘴巴哭了起来。
是妒嫉、是怀疑、是生气、是心碎，
所以我隐藏。
一切都将回到最初那样，
刚刚想要煲饭，却把还没放米的饭煲拿去洗碗盆，想要洗米。
发现了自己那么的笨，不禁靠在墙上捂着嘴巴哭了起来。
恨自己，就不能笨一点、傻一点。
恨自己，总能那么轻易的，就拆穿了你的谎言。
恨自己，非要爱你那么那么深，宁可伤了自己也不愿意让你难堪。
恨自己，爱你爱的不能恨你...
是妒嫉、是怀疑、是生气、是心碎，
所以我隐藏。
一切都将回到最初那样，
一切都和以前一样...不是吗?
到底要怎么爱，才能不受伤害...可不可以为了我，爱自己?
Sep 1, 2010
遗失的美好
自己很喜欢的一首歌，就是张韶涵的“遗失的美好”。
男孩离开了女孩。
男孩离开了女孩。
女孩还是坚强的走下去她的未来，带着那些曾经的美丽。
一步一步地，就算寂寞。女孩想寻找，想要寻找那个会让男孩深爱的自己。
即使男孩已经不爱了，女孩依然相信这、依然坚持着...# 海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪划过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒
有些人 有些事 早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑
真心会和真心遇到...#
我一直都相信你...
新的自己
突然回想起从前，回想起昨日的昨日，许多个昨日以前的自己。发现了改变。
从前的自己，脾气非常暴躁。
曾几何时我变了。
让自己改变的，
是我的男朋友。
记得有一次自己在家又发了一顿很大的脾气。他骂了我，狠狠地骂了我一顿，甚至扬言要离开我。那一刻我慌了，我答应他尽量不再乱发脾气。最后，我也做到了。
我记得那时候。他像是哄小孩般轻拍我的背后，止住不停哭泣的我...
分手之后，故态复萌。
是妈妈的爱、妈妈的包容和关怀，支撑着我度过了那段好失意的时候。要若不是妈妈，一瞬间失去爱人和朋友的我，无法走过来。
我答应自己不再让她难过，于是我不再发脾气。这一次自己真的做到了。
和家人的感情，尤其是妈妈，现在是非常的和谐。我很满意现在的一切。
从前的自己，非常的悲观。
谈恋爱，无法平静下来。无法对伴侣怀着百分百信赖。总检讨自己的不够完美，和过于完美的他。
最后，想得成真了。我的不信任，让幸福驶向更温暖平静的港口停泊了。
太过的依赖让自己沉溺在痛苦，久久不肯醒来。
现在镜子里的自己发现，是的，有什么不一样了。
是笑容变得自信起来。
是眉间不再紧紧揪着。
是心情，期待着更美好的幸福。
是的，我变漂亮了。
人生依旧还有好多挫折。然而现在我能独自面对，独自笑着面对。
这何尝不是一种成长？
其实改变了，还有许多美丽的依然保留着。
而我引以为傲的，是我对爱的坚持。
是的，对下一个即将来临的幸福，我已经准备好了。
从前的自己，脾气非常暴躁。
曾几何时我变了。
让自己改变的，
是我的男朋友。
记得有一次自己在家又发了一顿很大的脾气。他骂了我，狠狠地骂了我一顿，甚至扬言要离开我。那一刻我慌了，我答应他尽量不再乱发脾气。最后，我也做到了。
我记得那时候。他像是哄小孩般轻拍我的背后，止住不停哭泣的我...
分手之后，故态复萌。
是妈妈的爱、妈妈的包容和关怀，支撑着我度过了那段好失意的时候。要若不是妈妈，一瞬间失去爱人和朋友的我，无法走过来。
我答应自己不再让她难过，于是我不再发脾气。这一次自己真的做到了。
和家人的感情，尤其是妈妈，现在是非常的和谐。我很满意现在的一切。
从前的自己，非常的悲观。
谈恋爱，无法平静下来。无法对伴侣怀着百分百信赖。总检讨自己的不够完美，和过于完美的他。
最后，想得成真了。我的不信任，让幸福驶向更温暖平静的港口停泊了。
太过的依赖让自己沉溺在痛苦，久久不肯醒来。
现在镜子里的自己发现，是的，有什么不一样了。
是笑容变得自信起来。
是眉间不再紧紧揪着。
是心情，期待着更美好的幸福。
是的，我变漂亮了。
人生依旧还有好多挫折。然而现在我能独自面对，独自笑着面对。
这何尝不是一种成长？
其实改变了，还有许多美丽的依然保留着。
而我引以为傲的，是我对爱的坚持。
是的，对下一个即将来临的幸福，我已经准备好了。
p/s : Actually this post I wrote it at few years ago. I find it out, and feel that quite nice, hence wanna share with you all here.
回忆录
思念它一直都不肯迁移
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
思念它一直都不肯迁移
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
哭过以后就把泪擦干净
不要再回忆过去
毕竟我是因为你因为你
伤心的失去了自己
深夜我一个人听着悲伤的歌曲
品尝着你的离去
爱走了
和平分开
还记得那一天突然下起了大雨
我们翻阅着过去
你说你 有另一段场景
思念它一直都不肯迁移
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
哭过以后就把泪擦干净
为什么在意分离
只要让我爱着你爱着你
我就感觉到很满意
明白
这一切都是种 意外
我们的爱来得 太快
所以爱消失得也那么快
明白
这是最完美的 分开
如果有一天你 回来
或许那份爱已经回不来 回不来
不回来
Aug 31, 2010
Semester Break
Semester break. Planned to have a job during this one-month-long break but due to some problems, at last, I'm going to spend my break at hometown with do nothing. Planned more things to do, so that I may gain something besides weight during this semester break.
i. Practice guitar
ii. Practice singing
iii. Dancing
iv. Watch drama
v. Practice drawing
vii. Spend time with family
Erm, Hong go to work lerr. Can't chat with him everyday, as he is working as night shift, morning has to sleep also. Just can wait, for the next month, he will move to hostel, than we can meet everyday ler. Wait, and miss...Not really feel relief, worry if...But I wanna trust Hong, trust him. That's what I can only do apart from worry everyday. Love you.
Erm, there are going to be a period not together with all my beloved friends also, especially my D5 fellows. Huh gonna miss you all so so much. Longing for the day we meet, the start of the new semester, then we can play and eat and study and crazy together ler ^^ Hope that our friendship is not going to be faded although long time no see, hehe. Miss you, take care, and, enjoy~
i. Practice guitar
Wanna practice make perfect my guitar skill, take maybe two hours a day to play guitar.
ii. Practice singing
Planned to work as singer at nearby cafe, (just plan), so, wanna practice more as I have found that my singing become worse these days due to lack practice. Hmm. I do really wanna sing well if not to work as singer. Maybe, also two or more hours in a day.
Wanna dance, dance nicer, so, maybe once in a week dance in room, haha, maybe.
iv. Watch drama
Addicted to a drama since couple years ago, Ghost Whisperer. Lately just downloaded the latest season. Wanna finish it during these days.
v. Practice drawing
As a designer, need to be skillful in drawing. But I'm still not really good in that. Hence I think is a must for me to do this task. Haha.
vii. Spend time with family
This is the most important thing for me. How to do it, at first, gonna celebrate my brother's 8th birthday grandly~~Haha, held a barbeque at home and mummy invites many relatives come. Sister invites her friends and I, invites Tee. Actually wanna ask more to come, Joyous, Esther, and Hong. But all not free to come. Haha most important is Tee, for my brother. Then, will spend time for family, maybe watching Blu-ray together, chit-chat...
Erm, Hong go to work lerr. Can't chat with him everyday, as he is working as night shift, morning has to sleep also. Just can wait, for the next month, he will move to hostel, than we can meet everyday ler. Wait, and miss...Not really feel relief, worry if...But I wanna trust Hong, trust him. That's what I can only do apart from worry everyday. Love you.
Erm, there are going to be a period not together with all my beloved friends also, especially my D5 fellows. Huh gonna miss you all so so much. Longing for the day we meet, the start of the new semester, then we can play and eat and study and crazy together ler ^^ Hope that our friendship is not going to be faded although long time no see, hehe. Miss you, take care, and, enjoy~
I was With You
Have some happy days with you before we separate...
The night we went to Wangsa Walk,
It was a Saturday and actually you can stay at home relax and have a rest but, you weren't do so, and came to school to accompany me who stayed hostel alone nothing to do. We went for movie at Wangsa Walk. It was our first time went there, we didn't know how to reach there, but at last luckily we made it. Reached there and bought the tickets for "The Descent 2", where the movie we decided wanna watch haven't show yet. We bought for couple seats. It was the first time for me to sit on couple seat. Hehe. It was comfortable, and no obstacle between the seats yours and mine. We sat so close. Ahaa the movie was totally scary and even scared you this big man off XD The scene was so excited and fasten every heartbeat of us. It was embarrasing when there was only I screamed when the creature jumped out and my scream filled over the cinema, LOL. You closed my mouth immediately,and also kept closing until the movie was finished. Then, it was late. We couldn't get any bus, and we decided to WALK back! In the dark night, we walked without really know about the right direction, scared if there might be some robbery. >< But at last when we reached a petrol station, we gave up and took a taxi to back school. As it was impossible for you to back Jalan Ipoh, we overnighted at our school's hall...
I taught you Bahasa Melayu, and I sang, you listened, you felt sleepy. We went into the snowy rain...It was an unforgetable romantic night for me, even tough sleepy, yea, we stayed awake until morning, and you back after the bus came.
Dear, thanks that your love...
Another day, before National Day. You had your Bahasa Malaysia test. After that you brought me to Times Square =) Yea, just once before we separate...
We had our enjoyable moment there where was really really nice and rarely for us, I brought you to taste on the cake which I had it for every birthday few years ago, Chocolate Indulgence, at Secret Recipe. It was really delicious. We shared a slice, one bite for you, and one for me. So sweet ^^ And then, you this big dinasour still hadn't full yet, hence you brought me to the next station, Kenny Rogers. Haha damn full. Then, we wandered around. Saw a nice Spongebob's t-shirt! And you bought it for me, so for a Patrick's toy, we bought it together, as a gift for my little brother, thanks dear, muackss ^^ Planned for watch the Pirana next time =)
Then we went home. We played Chinese chess together, haha and I lose >< HUH next time I wanna win you. Blekk. And played many more games together with your sister, haha, it was really fun. XD Waited for the fireworks meanwhile watched the damn lame Scary Movie 4. Lol. But then sincce it was raining, no more fireworks >< And than, we slept.
Woke up at twelve and had a breakfast with RongQiang.
You sent me to Chow Kit, and we separated there... On the bus my tears almost drop but I managed to hold them back. Watched you further and further than me when the bus moved on...There are going to be a month time we stay apart. Takecare, and be careful when you work. I'll see you soon, and love you, as always...
The night we went to Wangsa Walk,
It was a Saturday and actually you can stay at home relax and have a rest but, you weren't do so, and came to school to accompany me who stayed hostel alone nothing to do. We went for movie at Wangsa Walk. It was our first time went there, we didn't know how to reach there, but at last luckily we made it. Reached there and bought the tickets for "The Descent 2", where the movie we decided wanna watch haven't show yet. We bought for couple seats. It was the first time for me to sit on couple seat. Hehe. It was comfortable, and no obstacle between the seats yours and mine. We sat so close. Ahaa the movie was totally scary and even scared you this big man off XD The scene was so excited and fasten every heartbeat of us. It was embarrasing when there was only I screamed when the creature jumped out and my scream filled over the cinema, LOL. You closed my mouth immediately,and also kept closing until the movie was finished. Then, it was late. We couldn't get any bus, and we decided to WALK back! In the dark night, we walked without really know about the right direction, scared if there might be some robbery. >< But at last when we reached a petrol station, we gave up and took a taxi to back school. As it was impossible for you to back Jalan Ipoh, we overnighted at our school's hall...
I taught you Bahasa Melayu, and I sang, you listened, you felt sleepy. We went into the snowy rain...It was an unforgetable romantic night for me, even tough sleepy, yea, we stayed awake until morning, and you back after the bus came.
Dear, thanks that your love...
Another day, before National Day. You had your Bahasa Malaysia test. After that you brought me to Times Square =) Yea, just once before we separate...
We had our enjoyable moment there where was really really nice and rarely for us, I brought you to taste on the cake which I had it for every birthday few years ago, Chocolate Indulgence, at Secret Recipe. It was really delicious. We shared a slice, one bite for you, and one for me. So sweet ^^ And then, you this big dinasour still hadn't full yet, hence you brought me to the next station, Kenny Rogers. Haha damn full. Then, we wandered around. Saw a nice Spongebob's t-shirt! And you bought it for me, so for a Patrick's toy, we bought it together, as a gift for my little brother, thanks dear, muackss ^^ Planned for watch the Pirana next time =)
Then we went home. We played Chinese chess together, haha and I lose >< HUH next time I wanna win you. Blekk. And played many more games together with your sister, haha, it was really fun. XD Waited for the fireworks meanwhile watched the damn lame Scary Movie 4. Lol. But then sincce it was raining, no more fireworks >< And than, we slept.
Woke up at twelve and had a breakfast with RongQiang.
You sent me to Chow Kit, and we separated there... On the bus my tears almost drop but I managed to hold them back. Watched you further and further than me when the bus moved on...There are going to be a month time we stay apart. Takecare, and be careful when you work. I'll see you soon, and love you, as always...
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