I'm Totally Going Crazy.

Home again.

Home again with complicated feeling.

I'm about to mad.

What's wrong?What's wrong?


Can someone please understand my situation? I need only the understanding but not demand the care or attention or what more. I need you to understand and please stop blaming. You know I love you you know I'm not mean that is it? I love you so so much daddy. I wish I can share your sadness too...I'm sorry...


I'm crazy. Untrusting you crazily. You make me go insane or I drive myself insane? I hope that my instinct isn't correct this time even tough it is strong until I can't bear it. You know I'm going to leave without any mercy if you turn back to me once, I won't care how hurt is my heart until break to pieces and pieces. Three days time. For you.


I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate myself.


Assignments. Exam. Exercises. Redo. I need more time...I'm all in a mess. I need more time. I can't make it! I'm crazying and I've cried for tiring nights and nights. Non-stop coming works I need a breathe...but who cares? I need more time to finish them all. All I just want a little relax time I wish I can go Zoo Negara...But I don't even have time to sleep. Don't dream.

I've forgetten what is entertainment. I can't even make time for a short movie before sleep. I need a break for breathe. But why this time I feel so depress when I'm at my home...?

I can't face death. It's my first time and I'm scaring. I don't know what to respond. I wonder if someone is with me now. But no one. 

I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Can someone, just anyone, to speak. Tell me be strong. Tell me you will always with me. Tell me I can make it through all of these mess. Can I?

I'm alone with no one can understand I was exhausted I'm tired and I'm crying. No one no one.

I should walk trhough it all by myself. Because this is my life. Is it?

Don't worry. I'm okay. I won't do any wrong thing or stupid thing. For all who really care about me.

I love you.

You love me...?