Whoa!
Such a long time didn't write my blog. Flies everywhere here wakaka.
Anyway. I'm totally busy. Haiz.
Busy.
With a little bit happy.
With a little bit contented.
Because love in my world. =)
Went to many place I've never been there or long time didn't been there to shoot photo for study use. Batu Caves larh, Pavilion larh, Lot 10 larh, Orchid Park larh. Haha. Kinda sweet because you were there with me along the journey mah. ^^ But sweat also lar ><
Sometimes didn't forgot to take a break meanwhile let assignments and exercises drive me crazy. Just used half day time to sleep and watch anime in room with you. Hahaz. Lazy day~ And go for a movie, a GREAT movie Harry Potter 7! Haha~ Happiness still there even tough life is hard. Because I know the place it is.
And thanks much also to my friends yea. Always make me laugh when I'm tiring. =)
Last but not least. My family. My lovest family always the reason for me to keep awake through the night and through the stress. Muacks. And thanks God I've made the time to go home after all this. I do really really miss you guys...
Thanks everyone I love in my life. You give me love. You give me strength. You give me life.
Nov 20, 2010
Nov 8, 2010
True Love
What make you cry so helpless like a child, my dear?
Are you feeling so unsure and confuse about what you are doing?
Love always fools people around.You love him. He loves her. She loves him. He loves her. And you ask, who loves you?
Your family.
Love from family is the only unchange love. They brought you to the world with not easy. Brought you up until you can stand, can speak, can feels, can chase for the things you want. You are here because of them.
And then, the so call LOVE comes. Makes you happy and sad and smile and cry. You are so addicted to it until you lost yourself. What you do is only centering her/him. There might be one day the LOVE leaves you. You feel so sad so depress like lost everything in your life. And?
You try to hurt yourself or maybe suicide.
STUPID!
Look at you! Like an idiot.
Have you ever think of the result? The one you love will maybe at most sad and guilty for some time. After that she/he can live with no more effects that you've made. Okay. Is that worth? And, try to think about the one who brought you to this world. You leave will bring them the permanent scar inside their deep deep heart. They might use the whole of their life to cry to mourn you. They lost is forever. The lost is unrecoverable. The one they used to love with all their life had gone. Who else can replace? Don't hurt yourself. You're not alone in the world.
If you can't let go the so called LOVE, means that you aren't understand what love is, and you're not mature enough. Well my "let go" doesn't mean that you won't sad anymore, but, you won't do any stupid things.
Everything you do you shouldn't just think of yourself, you're not allowed to be selfish. The first you have to think is you parents. They love you. And there are so many people such as your friends love you too. And don't sad because you lost one, since that one isn't the right one for you.
love yourself more. Just go on your life. God will be there. You family will be there too.
Are you feeling so unsure and confuse about what you are doing?
Love always fools people around.You love him. He loves her. She loves him. He loves her. And you ask, who loves you?
Your family.
Love from family is the only unchange love. They brought you to the world with not easy. Brought you up until you can stand, can speak, can feels, can chase for the things you want. You are here because of them.
And then, the so call LOVE comes. Makes you happy and sad and smile and cry. You are so addicted to it until you lost yourself. What you do is only centering her/him. There might be one day the LOVE leaves you. You feel so sad so depress like lost everything in your life. And?
You try to hurt yourself or maybe suicide.
STUPID!
Look at you! Like an idiot.
Have you ever think of the result? The one you love will maybe at most sad and guilty for some time. After that she/he can live with no more effects that you've made. Okay. Is that worth? And, try to think about the one who brought you to this world. You leave will bring them the permanent scar inside their deep deep heart. They might use the whole of their life to cry to mourn you. They lost is forever. The lost is unrecoverable. The one they used to love with all their life had gone. Who else can replace? Don't hurt yourself. You're not alone in the world.
If you can't let go the so called LOVE, means that you aren't understand what love is, and you're not mature enough. Well my "let go" doesn't mean that you won't sad anymore, but, you won't do any stupid things.
Everything you do you shouldn't just think of yourself, you're not allowed to be selfish. The first you have to think is you parents. They love you. And there are so many people such as your friends love you too. And don't sad because you lost one, since that one isn't the right one for you.
love yourself more. Just go on your life. God will be there. You family will be there too.
Nov 4, 2010
I'm Totally Going Crazy.
Home again.
Home again with complicated feeling.
I'm about to mad.
What's wrong?What's wrong?
Can someone please understand my situation? I need only the understanding but not demand the care or attention or what more. I need you to understand and please stop blaming. You know I love you you know I'm not mean that is it? I love you so so much daddy. I wish I can share your sadness too...I'm sorry...
I'm crazy. Untrusting you crazily. You make me go insane or I drive myself insane? I hope that my instinct isn't correct this time even tough it is strong until I can't bear it. You know I'm going to leave without any mercy if you turn back to me once, I won't care how hurt is my heart until break to pieces and pieces. Three days time. For you.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate myself.
Assignments. Exam. Exercises. Redo. I need more time...I'm all in a mess. I need more time. I can't make it! I'm crazying and I've cried for tiring nights and nights. Non-stop coming works I need a breathe...but who cares? I need more time to finish them all. All I just want a little relax time I wish I can go Zoo Negara...But I don't even have time to sleep. Don't dream.
I've forgetten what is entertainment. I can't even make time for a short movie before sleep. I need a break for breathe. But why this time I feel so depress when I'm at my home...?
I can't face death. It's my first time and I'm scaring. I don't know what to respond. I wonder if someone is with me now. But no one.
I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Can someone, just anyone, to speak. Tell me be strong. Tell me you will always with me. Tell me I can make it through all of these mess. Can I?
I'm alone with no one can understand I was exhausted I'm tired and I'm crying. No one no one.
I should walk trhough it all by myself. Because this is my life. Is it?
Don't worry. I'm okay. I won't do any wrong thing or stupid thing. For all who really care about me.
Home again with complicated feeling.
I'm about to mad.
What's wrong?What's wrong?
Can someone please understand my situation? I need only the understanding but not demand the care or attention or what more. I need you to understand and please stop blaming. You know I love you you know I'm not mean that is it? I love you so so much daddy. I wish I can share your sadness too...I'm sorry...
I'm crazy. Untrusting you crazily. You make me go insane or I drive myself insane? I hope that my instinct isn't correct this time even tough it is strong until I can't bear it. You know I'm going to leave without any mercy if you turn back to me once, I won't care how hurt is my heart until break to pieces and pieces. Three days time. For you.
I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate myself.
Assignments. Exam. Exercises. Redo. I need more time...I'm all in a mess. I need more time. I can't make it! I'm crazying and I've cried for tiring nights and nights. Non-stop coming works I need a breathe...but who cares? I need more time to finish them all. All I just want a little relax time I wish I can go Zoo Negara...But I don't even have time to sleep. Don't dream.
I've forgetten what is entertainment. I can't even make time for a short movie before sleep. I need a break for breathe. But why this time I feel so depress when I'm at my home...?
I can't face death. It's my first time and I'm scaring. I don't know what to respond. I wonder if someone is with me now. But no one.
I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Can someone, just anyone, to speak. Tell me be strong. Tell me you will always with me. Tell me I can make it through all of these mess. Can I?
I'm alone with no one can understand I was exhausted I'm tired and I'm crying. No one no one.
I should walk trhough it all by myself. Because this is my life. Is it?
Don't worry. I'm okay. I won't do any wrong thing or stupid thing. For all who really care about me.
I love you.
You love me...?
Oct 29, 2010
Art Expo 2010 - Matrade Centre
Had a really really precious experience at Art Expo 2010. Thousands thanks to my lecturer for giving us the opportunitiy. There showed up to hundreds or even more art works and it is so good that I could have to take a look over them.
It was an art exhibition which was took part by artists all over the world like local artists, Taiwan, China, Korea, Japan, Germany, Indonesia, Hungary, India, Thailand and more and more. I've never seen so much art works all in front of me before! All is fantastic and they refresh my mind sharpen my creativity.
Had the great time met with a lot of artists there especially the China artist Miao Xiao Chun and another kind old artist (forgot what is his name xP). It was so lucky that we could took photo with him and grabbed his signature on the cataloge.
Finished the serious part. Now is the funny stuff.
Haha.
We never thought that we can eat over there since the cafeteria was daylight robbery. But when we reached the China area, so soincidence the buffet was started. Haha so we were damn lucky could eat the high-classed food there and the WINE! Haha. And we (Tee, Brenda, Hsiang, Terence, Hau, DJie, Peggy, Zack, Hong and me) standed around a small table ate there and chit-chat there. Suddenly a China uncle came and wanted to snap our photo! Hahaz. What a surprise. xD Then soon came two more China uncle wanted to snap photo with us also. They weren't those visitors but were the management people over there~ What an honor~ Haha. And then they even asked us to take a photo with the Chairman of that Art Expo. Haha we said we were even more famous than those artists. Ceh ceh perasan xD But those photos were snapped by them and for sure were saved in their cameras. Haiz so perhaps our photos will appear at China xD
And the last, we were all waited the bus in front of the axhibition. And well~ we snapped a lot of funny pictures there ;)
Anyway, I love Art Expo.
It was an art exhibition which was took part by artists all over the world like local artists, Taiwan, China, Korea, Japan, Germany, Indonesia, Hungary, India, Thailand and more and more. I've never seen so much art works all in front of me before! All is fantastic and they refresh my mind sharpen my creativity.
Had the great time met with a lot of artists there especially the China artist Miao Xiao Chun and another kind old artist (forgot what is his name xP). It was so lucky that we could took photo with him and grabbed his signature on the cataloge.
Finished the serious part. Now is the funny stuff.
Haha.
We never thought that we can eat over there since the cafeteria was daylight robbery. But when we reached the China area, so soincidence the buffet was started. Haha so we were damn lucky could eat the high-classed food there and the WINE! Haha. And we (Tee, Brenda, Hsiang, Terence, Hau, DJie, Peggy, Zack, Hong and me) standed around a small table ate there and chit-chat there. Suddenly a China uncle came and wanted to snap our photo! Hahaz. What a surprise. xD Then soon came two more China uncle wanted to snap photo with us also. They weren't those visitors but were the management people over there~ What an honor~ Haha. And then they even asked us to take a photo with the Chairman of that Art Expo. Haha we said we were even more famous than those artists. Ceh ceh perasan xD But those photos were snapped by them and for sure were saved in their cameras. Haiz so perhaps our photos will appear at China xD
And the last, we were all waited the bus in front of the axhibition. And well~ we snapped a lot of funny pictures there ;)
Anyway, I love Art Expo.
Oct 23, 2010
Erm.
Many things happened around this busy week yea. Happy and sad and confuse and angry. Mixed.
First.
Wanna tell one of my friend. My sha sha de friend.
How come you will thought that I was hating you? I never mean so eventough I did done something stupid before when I was mad. I'm sorry about it and don't think too much lar yorr~ you make me felt so guilty lar weh. Sha sha de you only the one who need to take good care larh. Recover soon yea. ;)
Second.
Happy is I bought my DSLR already^^
And I'd made it not lose my tempered easily~ Hehe congratz to me ;)
And nothing too bad happen so, happy lorh~
Third.
Angry is, someone who really really "muka tebal",please lar, behave yourself okie? Don't make me blacklist you, STUPID!
Forth.
Hmm. Sad. Because of you.Hope you're not lying. I've no more strength to think about it because it will only make me more tire. I should start not to think too much. That's bad.
Fifth.
Sick already. Tired. Many assigments, exercises, presentation. Tired also. Haiz. Somebody help~~~~
Many things happened around this busy week yea. Happy and sad and confuse and angry. Mixed.
First.
Wanna tell one of my friend. My sha sha de friend.
How come you will thought that I was hating you? I never mean so eventough I did done something stupid before when I was mad. I'm sorry about it and don't think too much lar yorr~ you make me felt so guilty lar weh. Sha sha de you only the one who need to take good care larh. Recover soon yea. ;)
Second.
Happy is I bought my DSLR already^^
And I'd made it not lose my tempered easily~ Hehe congratz to me ;)
And nothing too bad happen so, happy lorh~
Third.
Angry is, someone who really really "muka tebal",please lar, behave yourself okie? Don't make me blacklist you, STUPID!
Forth.
Hmm. Sad. Because of you.Hope you're not lying. I've no more strength to think about it because it will only make me more tire. I should start not to think too much. That's bad.
Fifth.
Sick already. Tired. Many assigments, exercises, presentation. Tired also. Haiz. Somebody help~~~~
Oct 20, 2010
To :: Hong
Hmm.
Promise myself. Not to get angry so fast ler. I wanna change myself. Because I wanna keep this relationship longer and longer. Eventough people aren't wishing for us, but as you said, we wanna disappointed them.
And I've found that, you pamper me more and more nowadays. Hehe happy when you're pampering me, loving me.
I don't care how people look at me or look at our relationship but, I'll try my best to keep it longer. You make me the happiest girl in the world, so I'll. I love you.
I'll be here for you just right beside you. We have to work hard towards our future by study harder and harder. Don't give up as I'll be here ready to help you everytime when you need. I know you can as how I believe in myself.
Promise myself. Not to get angry so fast ler. I wanna change myself. Because I wanna keep this relationship longer and longer. Eventough people aren't wishing for us, but as you said, we wanna disappointed them.
And I've found that, you pamper me more and more nowadays. Hehe happy when you're pampering me, loving me.
I don't care how people look at me or look at our relationship but, I'll try my best to keep it longer. You make me the happiest girl in the world, so I'll. I love you.
I'll be here for you just right beside you. We have to work hard towards our future by study harder and harder. Don't give up as I'll be here ready to help you everytime when you need. I know you can as how I believe in myself.
My DSLR~~~~
Wow.
Just bought my very first DSLR camera. Excited and happy.
At first have to thanks my parents who lend me money to buy eventough they aren't really afford to do so. I'm sorry and thanks.
I bought Nikon D3100 with the price RM2069. Not that expensive if compared with the others. I think it worth that price. Wish to learn more about the way to use it so that I can use it to take many many nice pictures ;)
My forth "husband". Haha.
Just bought my very first DSLR camera. Excited and happy.
At first have to thanks my parents who lend me money to buy eventough they aren't really afford to do so. I'm sorry and thanks.
I bought Nikon D3100 with the price RM2069. Not that expensive if compared with the others. I think it worth that price. Wish to learn more about the way to use it so that I can use it to take many many nice pictures ;)
My forth "husband". Haha.
Hey You!
Hey. You know what? You make me disappointed. I won't share anything to you and, we are just friend. Not more than that. Just the most common friend. I don't wanna be more and that will only trouble me. I hate to care on your feelings anymore and PLEASE don't act like you know everything and I'm so needing you! Stupid you.
Hate the way you're acting like a know-know.
Hate the way you think like you know everyone well.
Hate the way you act like you are so YENG and always LAN YENG!
The hate most was when you said like my mummy is just trusting you and like you. Stupid. Mummy treats you good because you're my friend. That's all and please don't act in front of me anymore.
One more.
You say you are a GOOD MAN? You think that I don't know what shit you're thinking about? Act like you are treating me good and always do things for my own good? Stupid. Don't think that I know nothing about your bad ideas. You just wanna make me angry and get jealous. Tell you you were success once but nothing more. No more. I shouldn't do any respond for your stupid acts anymore. I was stupid for doing so but won't anymore.
If you're treating people good sincerely, people will know it and, no necessary at all to call yourself a GOOD MAN.
Hate the way you're acting like a know-know.
Hate the way you think like you know everyone well.
Hate the way you act like you are so YENG and always LAN YENG!
The hate most was when you said like my mummy is just trusting you and like you. Stupid. Mummy treats you good because you're my friend. That's all and please don't act in front of me anymore.
One more.
You say you are a GOOD MAN? You think that I don't know what shit you're thinking about? Act like you are treating me good and always do things for my own good? Stupid. Don't think that I know nothing about your bad ideas. You just wanna make me angry and get jealous. Tell you you were success once but nothing more. No more. I shouldn't do any respond for your stupid acts anymore. I was stupid for doing so but won't anymore.
If you're treating people good sincerely, people will know it and, no necessary at all to call yourself a GOOD MAN.
Oct 17, 2010
Recharged Angela
Tomorrow back hostel le. Packed-schedule.
Leave my sweet home again. Nothing much than sad.
Ganbateh Angela! Should do better after recharge!
Sleep lurh. Goodnight all my loves.
Leave my sweet home again. Nothing much than sad.
Ganbateh Angela! Should do better after recharge!
Sleep lurh. Goodnight all my loves.
Oct 16, 2010
I also don't know what the hell I'm talking about...
I can feel your love when there are no one else.
I can feel your care when I'm the only one beside you.
I love that feel crazily.
I addicted on it seriously.
I can't take myself off from it.
I love you until I almost lost myself. That isn't sound good huh.
But I did.
So I kill my heart so that it won't tight you up.
I love you so that I left myself behind.
All I ever wanted is your happiness and smile. That's all I want to see.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Whereas I wouldn't tell you anymore, I love you.
Love you with not loving you.
Not until you realise that how important am I in your world. Perhaps the day will not come.
My heart is died.
But died in the way no one knows not even you realise.
I love you.
I can feel your care when I'm the only one beside you.
I love that feel crazily.
I addicted on it seriously.
I can't take myself off from it.
I love you until I almost lost myself. That isn't sound good huh.
But I did.
So I kill my heart so that it won't tight you up.
I love you so that I left myself behind.
All I ever wanted is your happiness and smile. That's all I want to see.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Whereas I wouldn't tell you anymore, I love you.
Love you with not loving you.
Not until you realise that how important am I in your world. Perhaps the day will not come.
My heart is died.
But died in the way no one knows not even you realise.
I love you.
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