♀Change♂

Realize that I'm not the me that I used to be when I was the freshman to here. It's sad that I know you're the one who change me, or the love does changed me.

Fall back to the past, the saddest past that I wish I could never retouch it but I did. I was too much care on my man. Lived in scare and worry everyday and still, too much care and feels of insecure. Mistrusting everyone. Maybe I was held the rope too tight and the last he still gone. I lost everything that I care the most.

Once again the scene replay.

I love you. Just too much than the beginning until I can't afford it at all. I started to hold on it and tighten, tighten and tighten. Perhaps I'm relying you on everything in my world. In simple words, I couldn't lose you.

Is that seems too hard for you to be relied? I know it.

And you started to not respond to me when I'm sad and down, not even try an effort to make me laugh. And if I want it, I've to beg it. That's so hard, for me to beg. You're starting to request for more and more and more, about my attitude, my appearance, my everything and I've tired to respond to it. You're not with any feeling anymore when I ask for leaving.

Every of it does scared me.

You'll be him again, and I'm going to be hurt once again.

Is that mean that, if I change, not to care about you, and having back my own world, will be good for both of us?

Hwai said, we are girls and we should not beg for love, but try to find the happiness by ourselves, she is right.

Sometimes I know my temper is the factor for us to fight. I'll change it for you and try not to tighten you. You should have your own life and so for me :)

Lets be happy and let the bad things go~ Yet I'm still loving you❤