Have been waiting for you all day long. And what I've get is you sorry.
What to do for my disappointment? Blame you? I'm not doing that anymore.
Being your perfect woman is a tiring work.
I wish for your pampering your accompany too. I wish that you would love me like others do. May I request and then being classified as a selfish girlfriend?
You would do your own way.
I need space for myself from now on. <3
Nov 19, 2011
Oct 21, 2011
Moody things need to be announced XD
Mood was brought down by a steupid lecturer.
He said Im a lousy designer that always look for shortcut, just because of I accidentally forgot to replace back those blu tack that pasted behind my artwork with masking tape. I was so damn unhappy after that.
Things aren't going right after that.
I need some space.
And I will soon give back YOUR space. We will leave :) And you couldn't even do something childish and stupid behind me.
He said Im a lousy designer that always look for shortcut, just because of I accidentally forgot to replace back those blu tack that pasted behind my artwork with masking tape. I was so damn unhappy after that.
Things aren't going right after that.
I need some space.
And I will soon give back YOUR space. We will leave :) And you couldn't even do something childish and stupid behind me.
Oct 7, 2011
I'm sorry my dear
Last Thursday we went to play basketball. But since that my skill is sucks, I just sat there and watch them played. Anyway that was boring and so I went to CITC get some researches. I kept waiting and get frustrated soon.
After a long time, he finally came and I was really on my temper. I walked fast and left him behind. I thought he was with friends.
He called. He said he was fell into a drain.
My brain was like empty and all I wanted to do is get to him as soon as possible. I saw him sat beside the road and with his left leg hurt. Tears burst but I didn't let 'em out. Even tough I was so worried, scared and felt sorry.
I stayed calm, and tried some basic first aid to avoid his scars become worst. Saw he was in hurt, my heart broke.
Luckily, TARC never lack of kind people, thanks for any for them who stopped and helped us especially the bus driver who had went to First Aid and get me the medicine box somemore report to the school. Besides, the student who was willing to stop by and drove him back hostel. Thousands thanks to you guys.
After all we managed to be left alone. And I cried. I said sorry.
I shouldn't left him behind and made him hurt.
I'm not a good girl friend. I can't even take good care of him.
He forgave me. I know he will. He is just so loving me.
I love you.
Sep 28, 2011
Every Day is a New Day
The new semester is started and soon we get the assignments.
However I feel that somethings aren't the same this semester.
Passion? Idea?
I'm expecting something great for myself this time. Remind and scold me if I didn't make it, k?
Ganbateh Angela ❤
However I feel that somethings aren't the same this semester.
Passion? Idea?
I'm expecting something great for myself this time. Remind and scold me if I didn't make it, k?
Ganbateh Angela ❤
Sep 1, 2011
Contented with your love
I'd threw everything of my life behind, and just stay with you.
The Merdeka night on Genting Highlands; amd the next day together with JunHong and his girlfriend too.
And the happinesses within these 24-hour make me miss you even more after your leaving.
In the time we spent together, we share the dreams, share the interests, the idea, the happiness and the sadness, with no difficult at all like we born to be that match. :)
I do really really surprised and adored when you gave me the roses. The tears prove my appreciation to your love. I know you love me, always. And you do every of your best to make me smile. Besides love you more and more, I've no idea of how to repay back. I got nothing. But I'll try to be your perfect one in life.
We had our lunch and dinner together. Even though they were not expensive not luxury and we need to consider the price before order, it still satisfied me, as you were there beside me. We share our dishes and chit-chat, that's the simple happiness I ever wanted. And you gave me, with your greatest effort, I saw it, and I appreciate it.
There are such great obstacles in front of us. They try to break us up. They try to fade us up.
I'd think of give up, as I'm afraid that we'll never make it through. But that night you hold my hands and said, "Every of it worth for our fight, because as we've gone through the future that we always dream for will be there for us." You give me confidence said that you'll never leave me no matter what happen. You strengthen my faith. The dreams that we always dream for, the home, the work, the car, the pets, the life...Everything. They'll come true they'll be realised. I believe in you.
People have so many that we are longing for. But they didn't appreciate it. We could be better, 'cause we know, appreciation and love, will lead to happiness.
Hong, my love. I don't feel sorry to world that I love you. And I'm not afraid to tell the world I love you more that I ever could. After seeing the people, I've found my destination. With no doubt I'll be with you until the day you feel that you don't love me any more. I love you, my dear.
The Merdeka night on Genting Highlands; amd the next day together with JunHong and his girlfriend too.
And the happinesses within these 24-hour make me miss you even more after your leaving.
In the time we spent together, we share the dreams, share the interests, the idea, the happiness and the sadness, with no difficult at all like we born to be that match. :)
I do really really surprised and adored when you gave me the roses. The tears prove my appreciation to your love. I know you love me, always. And you do every of your best to make me smile. Besides love you more and more, I've no idea of how to repay back. I got nothing. But I'll try to be your perfect one in life.
We had our lunch and dinner together. Even though they were not expensive not luxury and we need to consider the price before order, it still satisfied me, as you were there beside me. We share our dishes and chit-chat, that's the simple happiness I ever wanted. And you gave me, with your greatest effort, I saw it, and I appreciate it.
There are such great obstacles in front of us. They try to break us up. They try to fade us up.
I'd think of give up, as I'm afraid that we'll never make it through. But that night you hold my hands and said, "Every of it worth for our fight, because as we've gone through the future that we always dream for will be there for us." You give me confidence said that you'll never leave me no matter what happen. You strengthen my faith. The dreams that we always dream for, the home, the work, the car, the pets, the life...Everything. They'll come true they'll be realised. I believe in you.
People have so many that we are longing for. But they didn't appreciate it. We could be better, 'cause we know, appreciation and love, will lead to happiness.
Hong, my love. I don't feel sorry to world that I love you. And I'm not afraid to tell the world I love you more that I ever could. After seeing the people, I've found my destination. With no doubt I'll be with you until the day you feel that you don't love me any more. I love you, my dear.
Aug 20, 2011
You've disappointed me out. Damn disappointed on you, Tan Kok Hong!
You're the worst guy I've ever meet.
You never leave a message on what you're doing what you're going and even tough you know I'll keep waiting in scare and alone, I'll stay awake in midnight just to open the door for you when you back. You know but you pretending not! You suck! You never fulfil every of your promise not this time too! You idiot! You asshole!
You make me fuck off.
Is that funny? Let me tell you now and ever, we've done!
You're the worst guy I've ever meet.
You never leave a message on what you're doing what you're going and even tough you know I'll keep waiting in scare and alone, I'll stay awake in midnight just to open the door for you when you back. You know but you pretending not! You suck! You never fulfil every of your promise not this time too! You idiot! You asshole!
You make me fuck off.
Is that funny? Let me tell you now and ever, we've done!
♀Change♂
Realize that I'm not the me that I used to be when I was the freshman to here. It's sad that I know you're the one who change me, or the love does changed me.
Fall back to the past, the saddest past that I wish I could never retouch it but I did. I was too much care on my man. Lived in scare and worry everyday and still, too much care and feels of insecure. Mistrusting everyone. Maybe I was held the rope too tight and the last he still gone. I lost everything that I care the most.
Once again the scene replay.
I love you. Just too much than the beginning until I can't afford it at all. I started to hold on it and tighten, tighten and tighten. Perhaps I'm relying you on everything in my world. In simple words, I couldn't lose you.
Is that seems too hard for you to be relied? I know it.
And you started to not respond to me when I'm sad and down, not even try an effort to make me laugh. And if I want it, I've to beg it. That's so hard, for me to beg. You're starting to request for more and more and more, about my attitude, my appearance, my everything and I've tired to respond to it. You're not with any feeling anymore when I ask for leaving.
Every of it does scared me.
You'll be him again, and I'm going to be hurt once again.
Is that mean that, if I change, not to care about you, and having back my own world, will be good for both of us?
Hwai said, we are girls and we should not beg for love, but try to find the happiness by ourselves, she is right.
Sometimes I know my temper is the factor for us to fight. I'll change it for you and try not to tighten you. You should have your own life and so for me :)
Lets be happy and let the bad things go~ Yet I'm still loving you❤
Fall back to the past, the saddest past that I wish I could never retouch it but I did. I was too much care on my man. Lived in scare and worry everyday and still, too much care and feels of insecure. Mistrusting everyone. Maybe I was held the rope too tight and the last he still gone. I lost everything that I care the most.
Once again the scene replay.
I love you. Just too much than the beginning until I can't afford it at all. I started to hold on it and tighten, tighten and tighten. Perhaps I'm relying you on everything in my world. In simple words, I couldn't lose you.
Is that seems too hard for you to be relied? I know it.
And you started to not respond to me when I'm sad and down, not even try an effort to make me laugh. And if I want it, I've to beg it. That's so hard, for me to beg. You're starting to request for more and more and more, about my attitude, my appearance, my everything and I've tired to respond to it. You're not with any feeling anymore when I ask for leaving.
Every of it does scared me.
You'll be him again, and I'm going to be hurt once again.
Is that mean that, if I change, not to care about you, and having back my own world, will be good for both of us?
Hwai said, we are girls and we should not beg for love, but try to find the happiness by ourselves, she is right.
Sometimes I know my temper is the factor for us to fight. I'll change it for you and try not to tighten you. You should have your own life and so for me :)
Lets be happy and let the bad things go~ Yet I'm still loving you❤
你...想我吗?
好想知道，
你那一晚对流星许下的是什么愿望?
好想知道，
你说我们象这首歌一样，是什么意思?
好想知道，
你背着我头也不回的离开那一刻，心里想的是什么?
好想知道，
再看见我的你，没感情了吗?
好想知道，
当你看见我为你付出得那么多，会心疼吗?
还想知道，
你
还会不会偶尔担心，
我
过得好不好…?
你那一晚对流星许下的是什么愿望?
好想知道，
你说我们象这首歌一样，是什么意思?
好想知道，
你背着我头也不回的离开那一刻，心里想的是什么?
好想知道，
再看见我的你，没感情了吗?
好想知道，
当你看见我为你付出得那么多，会心疼吗?
还想知道，
你
还会不会偶尔担心，
我
过得好不好…?
Aug 14, 2011
肤浅の人
我知道我在别人的眼中，是个很强势的女朋友。至少他的朋友是这么说。
那一晚，我哭了。
他走过来抱着我，安慰我。
那一晚，我明白了，也看开了。
我不是强势，他也不是软弱。这，是一种尊敬。
他尊敬我的每一个决定，而且每当他做不出决定的时候，他都会问我的意见。
因为有尊敬，所以我们才能在一起。
因为我们互相了解，才不会有误会。
他懂，我不是霸道。
我懂，他不是软弱。
我们也会争吵，
因为两个人一定会有两个不同的性格和想法。
我们为了让对方明白，所以争吵。
但是我们不为了误会和妒忌而伤害感情。
当然很多东西是旁人看不到的。
当我也会有询问他决定的时候，他们都没看到，或者他们主观地不看到。
因为他尊敬我。
因为我珍惜他。
很多肤浅的人看表面，就自以为是的下定论。
无所谓。
他说，他懂我，就够了 :)
p/s: Sometimes you just too straight forwards and too subjective when you are dealing with things, no matter friendship or love. You judge based on what you think. I hope that one day you will realise that you're wrong and that's why things aren't going right with you. And hope that day won't be too late for you to regret.
那一晚，我哭了。
他走过来抱着我，安慰我。
那一晚，我明白了，也看开了。
我不是强势，他也不是软弱。这，是一种尊敬。
他尊敬我的每一个决定，而且每当他做不出决定的时候，他都会问我的意见。
因为有尊敬，所以我们才能在一起。
因为我们互相了解，才不会有误会。
他懂，我不是霸道。
我懂，他不是软弱。
我们也会争吵，
因为两个人一定会有两个不同的性格和想法。
我们为了让对方明白，所以争吵。
但是我们不为了误会和妒忌而伤害感情。
当然很多东西是旁人看不到的。
当我也会有询问他决定的时候，他们都没看到，或者他们主观地不看到。
因为他尊敬我。
因为我珍惜他。
很多肤浅的人看表面，就自以为是的下定论。
无所谓。
他说，他懂我，就够了 :)
p/s: Sometimes you just too straight forwards and too subjective when you are dealing with things, no matter friendship or love. You judge based on what you think. I hope that one day you will realise that you're wrong and that's why things aren't going right with you. And hope that day won't be too late for you to regret.
Jul 4, 2011
May 17, 2011
我们...?
我 终于离开了
挣扎了很久很久 最后选择不留
为你做太多
失去了太多
累了
我以为我会哭
但是 只有面无表情
我知道你会来找我
却没想过你把我伤得更深
你说了那句
我决定了 离开 离得远远的
不为谁
这次
只为自己
路上我一直在想我们一路走来
把回忆一件一件地搬出来
把我们的梦想一件一件地拿出来
再一件一件的撕碎
虽然痛
但是我不哭
不值得
爱了你那么久
不能潇洒
潇洒不起来
但是
决不能再不管我的尊严
会痛
不适合的两个人
再怎么迁就
得到的也只有疲惫
走不到未来
我懂了
理由再多我也不想再说
再解释
你也听不进
就如你否认了我被伤害
如果你也累了
那么
再扯下去只会让两个人伤痕累累
不想再看到最爱的你受委屈
真的会心痛
我只能说
我只爱你 一个人
没有第三者
即使
你从来从来 就不曾明白我有多怕
挣扎了很久很久 最后选择不留
为你做太多
失去了太多
累了
我以为我会哭
但是 只有面无表情
我知道你会来找我
却没想过你把我伤得更深
你说了那句
我决定了 离开 离得远远的
不为谁
这次
只为自己
路上我一直在想我们一路走来
把回忆一件一件地搬出来
把我们的梦想一件一件地拿出来
再一件一件的撕碎
虽然痛
但是我不哭
不值得
爱了你那么久
不能潇洒
潇洒不起来
但是
决不能再不管我的尊严
会痛
不适合的两个人
再怎么迁就
得到的也只有疲惫
走不到未来
我懂了
理由再多我也不想再说
再解释
你也听不进
就如你否认了我被伤害
如果你也累了
那么
就分手吧
再扯下去只会让两个人伤痕累累
不想再看到最爱的你受委屈
真的会心痛
终于明白
两个相爱的人等着说分手
那种痛
和无奈
我只能说
我只爱你 一个人
没有第三者
即使
你从来从来 就不曾明白我有多怕
怕 我们走不到那天
把梦都实现的那天
就像
现在
我爱你，再见
希望还能是朋友 :)
May 15, 2011
❤ Photoshooting session with Horses ❤
Have a nice trip yesterday to Genting Highland there, to do our assignment, photoshoot of Horse.
Was with Chun Fai and Hong.
However the weather was unfavorable. That's bad. But we still tried to shoot the photo in the rain, eventough is cold.
Thousand thanks to the staff there allowed us to get inside while their boss wasn't around. Hehe.
Then we went down, to the Air Panas Hulu Tamu.
Water was hot. Super hot.
And rain again.
Went to the new opened Econsave nearby my house.
Have a pack of maggi to cook as our lunch.
Nice kitchen moment wiith Fai. Haha.
Then is PS2 time. However the PS2 wasn't worked that good.
Great time with guys.
Next time is planning to Desa Water Park. ;)
Who's going with me??
Was with Chun Fai and Hong.
However the weather was unfavorable. That's bad. But we still tried to shoot the photo in the rain, eventough is cold.
Thousand thanks to the staff there allowed us to get inside while their boss wasn't around. Hehe.
 |
| Can see that chun fai cant tahan edi larh~~XD |
Then we went down, to the Air Panas Hulu Tamu.
Water was hot. Super hot.
And rain again.
Went to the new opened Econsave nearby my house.
Have a pack of maggi to cook as our lunch.
Nice kitchen moment wiith Fai. Haha.
Then is PS2 time. However the PS2 wasn't worked that good.
Great time with guys.
Next time is planning to Desa Water Park. ;)
Who's going with me??
May 10, 2011
Hey Hey~
Now start study lurh~
There are 5 subjects to learn in this semester and some of them I actually full with expectation <3
Like
Wow wow
And I wonder how the English for Mass Communication is about
And,
I've got my salary lurh~
Wow, how good is
So I bought MeiMei's birthday present
And Mama's printer
And her Mama's Day present
Haha so I didn't actually left much huhu ><
Anyway I still bought myself a pair of shoes
Muaks
And a damn awesome movie!!!
Haha yea is it, FAST AND FURIOUS 5!!!
Muahahaha I never get that great movie as this before <3
What a niceeee ;)
Many changes among my friends about their relationship.
So for me,
I've changed.
To get different.
Muahaha <3
I'm going to attend the insurance pre-contact examination.
Haha.
And,
I
Want
i
Pad
2~~~
LOL.
Wish me goodluck yea,
Muaks.
Happy always to all my friends.
Now start study lurh~
There are 5 subjects to learn in this semester and some of them I actually full with expectation <3
Like
_____Introduction to advertising
_____Web design
Wow wow
And I wonder how the English for Mass Communication is about
And,
I've got my salary lurh~
Wow, how good is
So I bought MeiMei's birthday present
And Mama's printer
And her Mama's Day present
Haha so I didn't actually left much huhu ><
Anyway I still bought myself a pair of shoes
Muaks
And a damn awesome movie!!!
Haha yea is it, FAST AND FURIOUS 5!!!
Muahahaha I never get that great movie as this before <3
What a niceeee ;)
Many changes among my friends about their relationship.
So for me,
I've changed.
To get different.
I
Want
More
MONEY~~~
I'm going to attend the insurance pre-contact examination.
Haha.
And,
I
Want
i
Pad
2~~~
LOL.
Wish me goodluck yea,
Muaks.
Happy always to all my friends.
Apr 30, 2011
我回来了
终于 没有做工了 做了两个月 其实怎样还是有点不舍得 嘻
说说 那天老公和我一起请假
我们去Ikea和e@Curve
和老公看家私
和老公看了一部戏 The Roommate
然后回家 嘻
幸福快乐的一天
然后又做了两天
回家 嘻
在路上和爸爸聊好多
回家了和爸爸一起“撑抬脚”
第二天 爸爸带我们去听讲座会
在Tropicana Golf & Country Resort
叫“与梦想有约”
听到最后 我报考了保险执照
呵呵 没想到没想到
讲座会蛮有意思
让我似乎学到了些什么
不满意现状 就要停止找借口 然后 去改变 才能达到梦想
要有明确的目标 才知道自己要的是什么
当他讲起爸爸妈妈 我的眼睛湿湿的
是的 不应该让我们爱的人等太久
五月一号 计划要回宿舍
搞定那个MassCall的东西
开学 还蛮多东西要烦的
老公
想你呵
计划一下
要帮妹妹庆祝阳历生日
谁叫 都没有人告诉我那天是妹妹农历生日><
唉 不好意思呐 我真的只记得阳历 抱歉抱歉
还有还有
男人
你骗我哦
所以才说男人不可信不可信
哈哈
才不是我老公XD
说说 那天老公和我一起请假
我们去Ikea和e@Curve
和老公看家私
和老公看了一部戏 The Roommate
然后回家 嘻
幸福快乐的一天
然后又做了两天
回家 嘻
在路上和爸爸聊好多
回家了和爸爸一起“撑抬脚”
第二天 爸爸带我们去听讲座会
在Tropicana Golf & Country Resort
叫“与梦想有约”
听到最后 我报考了保险执照
呵呵 没想到没想到
讲座会蛮有意思
让我似乎学到了些什么
不满意现状 就要停止找借口 然后 去改变 才能达到梦想
要有明确的目标 才知道自己要的是什么
当他讲起爸爸妈妈 我的眼睛湿湿的
是的 不应该让我们爱的人等太久
五月一号 计划要回宿舍
搞定那个MassCall的东西
开学 还蛮多东西要烦的
老公
想你呵
计划一下
要帮妹妹庆祝阳历生日
谁叫 都没有人告诉我那天是妹妹农历生日><
唉 不好意思呐 我真的只记得阳历 抱歉抱歉
还有还有
男人
你骗我哦
所以才说男人不可信不可信
哈哈
才不是我老公XD
Apr 18, 2011
凯文和美茜分手了。
知道了这个消息的我，只有难过和遗憾。
对凯文只剩下一份相识的友情，
而美茜也是我的朋友。
真的真的以为凯文终于能找到他的幸福了。
但是，他却放开了。
我真的好难过。
难过得快哭了。
就像当时知道了凯文和Amanda分手的原因。
愤怒。
难过。
他真的变了。
我要他答应我，不要再这样了。
我不想他再伤害他自己...也伤害了他深爱的女人...
真的希望，
他能改过，给美茜幸福。
凯文，
可以吗？
终于可以休息了~
长长的做工时间。
和鸿一起连休两天，就要幸福的过。
一起窝在房间里，
一起逛百货公司，
一起弄意大利面，
一起吃晚餐，
一起看戏，
一起睡觉。
就算很普通，也很幸福。
老公，你不会变得和凯文一样的，对吗？
你不会伤害我的，对吗？
我相信你了...
别让我失望。
还有啊，
鸿买了一双鞋哦~
很漂亮^^
鸿说，这是他第一次买东西给自己呐。
他很喜欢，也很开心。
他开心，
我也好快乐。
爸爸妈妈，弟弟妹妹...
一个星期没回家了...
好想念你们。
爸爸的伤口有好些吗？还痛吗？
嗯。
电话老是没电。
明天又要开工咯。
雯，加油哦!
我爱你们。
我爱你。
知道了这个消息的我，只有难过和遗憾。
对凯文只剩下一份相识的友情，
而美茜也是我的朋友。
真的真的以为凯文终于能找到他的幸福了。
但是，他却放开了。
我真的好难过。
难过得快哭了。
就像当时知道了凯文和Amanda分手的原因。
愤怒。
难过。
他真的变了。
我要他答应我，不要再这样了。
我不想他再伤害他自己...也伤害了他深爱的女人...
真的希望，
他能改过，给美茜幸福。
凯文，
可以吗？
终于可以休息了~
长长的做工时间。
和鸿一起连休两天，就要幸福的过。
一起窝在房间里，
一起逛百货公司，
一起弄意大利面，
一起吃晚餐，
一起看戏，
一起睡觉。
就算很普通，也很幸福。
老公，你不会变得和凯文一样的，对吗？
你不会伤害我的，对吗？
我相信你了...
别让我失望。
还有啊，
鸿买了一双鞋哦~
很漂亮^^
鸿说，这是他第一次买东西给自己呐。
他很喜欢，也很开心。
他开心，
我也好快乐。
爸爸妈妈，弟弟妹妹...
一个星期没回家了...
好想念你们。
爸爸的伤口有好些吗？还痛吗？
嗯。
电话老是没电。
明天又要开工咯。
雯，加油哦!
我爱你们。
我爱你。
Apr 15, 2011
我们在一起
昨晚在你手机看见了你发给她的信息。
有点心痛。
我开始不想说话。
不想看到你了。
我去冲凉。
去看戏。
和你妈妈说话。
然后上床睡觉。
你一句话不说。
我也不说了。
越想越难过。
你说，只是朋友。
为什么那么多朋友你不找？
为什么一定是她？
我不懂。
你还是不过来安慰我。
委屈。
慢慢的就哭了。
你才肯过来，递给我面纸。
你说我想太多了。
你不懂。
我只是害怕。
你们关系匪浅。
我怕你会和别的男人一样。
我怕你会离开我。
你说，
你不会。
说要我相信你，就如你相信我。
因为在你怀里，
我感觉很安心。
答应我，不要背叛我。
对爱，我是认真的。
有点心痛。
我开始不想说话。
不想看到你了。
我去冲凉。
去看戏。
和你妈妈说话。
然后上床睡觉。
你一句话不说。
我也不说了。
越想越难过。
你说，只是朋友。
为什么那么多朋友你不找？
为什么一定是她？
我不懂。
你还是不过来安慰我。
委屈。
慢慢的就哭了。
你才肯过来，递给我面纸。
你说我想太多了。
你不懂。
我只是害怕。
你们关系匪浅。
我怕你会和别的男人一样。
我怕你会离开我。
你说，
你不会。
说要我相信你，就如你相信我。
因为在你怀里，
我感觉很安心。
答应我，不要背叛我。
对爱，我是认真的。
Apr 13, 2011
我想我只是突然累了
又吵架了。
很久没有和你吵了。
在广场走散了，找来找去，大家都累了。
因为我知道你爱我，所以再累也好，我都会逗你笑。
换我牵你的手过马路，
换我为你提重重的东西，
换我让你靠肩膀。
你却闷闷的。
你指责我不该乱跑。
说是我错。
亲爱的，
难道我就没有找你找得焦头烂额吗？
难道我就没有担心害怕吗？
难道我就不累吗？
你好过分。
我也不想再说话了。
第一次，
把写给你的信撕成碎片，把真心扔进垃圾桶。
你看不见。
那信，是我最期待你能看到的信。
里面写满了我对你的爱、对你的期待，
和满满的，幸福。
最后我把它们送进了垃圾桶。
想对你抱歉的话，在你关上门后统统成了不能抑制的愤怒。
和你说话，你有一句没一句的敷衍着。
就像个大小孩。
在闹脾气。
我累。
累在不懂要怎么和你沟通。
累在你永远不懂我的累。
我懂，你对我好。
所以才会让我一次又一次地把委屈都变成笑脸。
因为你永远都不会懂，我想要的是什么，我想说的是什么。
才发现这样心情都不说给你听，才是我们幸福的模式。
但我会累。
但我也想要个拥抱。
但我也想有个依赖。
不是你。
“你就像个小孩。”
亲爱的。
亲爱的。
亲爱的。
我可以让你去做任何你想要做的事情。
为了你，
我可以拖着疲惫的身体，和用尽我的储蓄，
只为了让你和久违的朋友聚聚，
因为我知道你想他们。
我知道你喜欢和他们在一起。
所以就算我并没有得到什么，只要你开心，就好。
喜欢听你叫我“宝贝”。
因为有你我才是世界上最幸福的女人。
很久没有和你吵了。
在广场走散了，找来找去，大家都累了。
因为我知道你爱我，所以再累也好，我都会逗你笑。
换我牵你的手过马路，
换我为你提重重的东西，
换我让你靠肩膀。
你却闷闷的。
你指责我不该乱跑。
说是我错。
亲爱的，
难道我就没有找你找得焦头烂额吗？
难道我就没有担心害怕吗？
难道我就不累吗？
你好过分。
我也不想再说话了。
第一次，
把写给你的信撕成碎片，把真心扔进垃圾桶。
你看不见。
那信，是我最期待你能看到的信。
里面写满了我对你的爱、对你的期待，
和满满的，幸福。
最后我把它们送进了垃圾桶。
想对你抱歉的话，在你关上门后统统成了不能抑制的愤怒。
和你说话，你有一句没一句的敷衍着。
就像个大小孩。
在闹脾气。
我累。
累在不懂要怎么和你沟通。
累在你永远不懂我的累。
我懂，你对我好。
所以才会让我一次又一次地把委屈都变成笑脸。
因为你永远都不会懂，我想要的是什么，我想说的是什么。
才发现这样心情都不说给你听，才是我们幸福的模式。
但我会累。
但我也想要个拥抱。
但我也想有个依赖。
不是你。
“你就像个小孩。”
亲爱的。
亲爱的。
亲爱的。
我可以让你去做任何你想要做的事情。
为了你，
我可以拖着疲惫的身体，和用尽我的储蓄，
只为了让你和久违的朋友聚聚，
因为我知道你想他们。
我知道你喜欢和他们在一起。
所以就算我并没有得到什么，只要你开心，就好。
喜欢听你叫我“宝贝”。
因为有你我才是世界上最幸福的女人。
Apr 10, 2011
There's been a really long time I didn't update my blog. And, now I'm back. Haha.
It's another sembreak again. And this time I choose to work during the break.
So I'll stay at hostel along the whole break. Alone. Is going to be missing my family crazily but luckily I can stay at Hong's house, for sometimes.
The work is suck, honestly.
Salary low, work boring, the boss is...damn suck. A lot of rules there, can't use handphone, can't sit. can't this can't that...And always babble or even scold staff when he is there. He is the only reason for me to hate this job actually. Do you think that you pay us much? So you have the right to order us do the things extra from our job? Damn you Dennis. Really, damn you. I never fucking damn a boss in my past jobs but only this time.
So hope to start my new semester sooner as possible. So that I can do the stuff I love even tough will be busy. But propably I'll remain the job if I still unable to support my life. Expenses high. Gosh...
Stress...
I wonder how good is the other who born in a rich family. Having everything they want.
Always play with friends, eat the nice food, have their own car, buy clothes...While we have to work die hard to have the money for life. Unfair. But, what to do? Who to blame?
Life is tough...But have to move on too.
Nowadays a lot of singing competition are held.
Singing...
I wish that someday I might be like them, sing on the stage.
I wish that someday I can work as a cafe singer?
I wish that...someday I can sing,
But not only sing in the bath room. (hehe...)
There's nothing much to say on Hong, and me.
Everything is normal, and yet stable.
Yea, just remain stable and that's great. I love it.
No quarrel no fight no tears.
Everything just say it out, share it out and fix it together.
I think this is the love that I'm looking for so long.
Without any problem...?
I hope it remains.
Hmm.
Even tough I have no much. Like the others have.
But, I have what I want.
That's all.
Just let day pass by day, and I'm going through 'em step by step, yet growing.
Someday, I'll be there, with my dreams come true.
It's another sembreak again. And this time I choose to work during the break.
So I'll stay at hostel along the whole break. Alone. Is going to be missing my family crazily but luckily I can stay at Hong's house, for sometimes.
The work is suck, honestly.
Salary low, work boring, the boss is...damn suck. A lot of rules there, can't use handphone, can't sit. can't this can't that...And always babble or even scold staff when he is there. He is the only reason for me to hate this job actually. Do you think that you pay us much? So you have the right to order us do the things extra from our job? Damn you Dennis. Really, damn you. I never fucking damn a boss in my past jobs but only this time.
So hope to start my new semester sooner as possible. So that I can do the stuff I love even tough will be busy. But propably I'll remain the job if I still unable to support my life. Expenses high. Gosh...
Stress...
I wonder how good is the other who born in a rich family. Having everything they want.
Always play with friends, eat the nice food, have their own car, buy clothes...While we have to work die hard to have the money for life. Unfair. But, what to do? Who to blame?
Life is tough...But have to move on too.
Nowadays a lot of singing competition are held.
Singing...
I wish that someday I might be like them, sing on the stage.
I wish that someday I can work as a cafe singer?
I wish that...someday I can sing,
But not only sing in the bath room. (hehe...)
There's nothing much to say on Hong, and me.
Everything is normal, and yet stable.
Yea, just remain stable and that's great. I love it.
No quarrel no fight no tears.
Everything just say it out, share it out and fix it together.
I think this is the love that I'm looking for so long.
Without any problem...?
I hope it remains.
Hmm.
Even tough I have no much. Like the others have.
But, I have what I want.
That's all.
Just let day pass by day, and I'm going through 'em step by step, yet growing.
Someday, I'll be there, with my dreams come true.
Apr 1, 2011
想告诉你...
你可知道
當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛
你可知道
女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上
你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛
你可知道
女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中
你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷哭泣
你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了
你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子
你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她
你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事
你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼
而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她
女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情
於是.你們爭吵.你認為她脾氣不好.她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是.你們冷戰.你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻.用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水.
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。
兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，
否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。 。 。 。 。 。
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！ 。 。 。 。 。 。
希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報
卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界...
當女人被男人脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛
你可知道
女人為什麼會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱著她睡
她會安心一整個晚上
你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛
你可知道
女人那麼愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中
你可知道
深愛你的女人在沖你發火以後
自己卻轉身不斷哭泣
你可知道
當女人頂著哭花的臉
走在街上
是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了
你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子
你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她
你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你發火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事
你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐懼
而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你還不夠懂她
女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情
於是.你們爭吵.你認為她脾氣不好.她認為你不夠遷就她……
於是.你們冷戰.你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……
請給她一個擁抱一個吻.用你的擁抱你的吻去化解她心裡的悲傷和眼角的淚水.
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安靜。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。 。
兩個深愛的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相體諒，互相信任，
否則當你們真正失去時將會遺憾終生。 。 。 。 。 。
否則美好的未來也就在你們自己手中泯滅了！ 。 。 。 。 。 。
希望每一個男人都能夠好好珍惜陪伴在你身邊的女人
她們為你付出過，不求回報
卻希望你們能夠讀懂，能夠牽著她們的手堅定地走下去
不要讓愛你的女人流淚
不要讓她傷心
更不要讓她絕望和死心！
因為女人一旦真愛了，失去她愛著的人
就意味著失去了整個世界...
采自网络
Mar 24, 2011
It is going to be an end, another semester.
Have done alot of assigment.
Drawing. Colouring. And designing.
Well.
I've get a part time job during this time. Working at Sungei Wang as a promoter.
Working during weekends. And kinda busy when it has crush on my assignment ><
Haiz.
Money still not enough...
Just home during Ching Ming.
And actually did have a very nice moment with family.
Some add-ons also.
Petai XD
Make a competition with sister.
See whether who will be the fastest to earn money for a super luxurious banglow.
Hehe.
That's my motivation to keep going on for now.
Gambateh An <3
Have done alot of assigment.
Drawing. Colouring. And designing.
Well.
I've get a part time job during this time. Working at Sungei Wang as a promoter.
Working during weekends. And kinda busy when it has crush on my assignment ><
Haiz.
Money still not enough...
Just home during Ching Ming.
And actually did have a very nice moment with family.
Some add-ons also.
Petai XD
Make a competition with sister.
See whether who will be the fastest to earn money for a super luxurious banglow.
Hehe.
That's my motivation to keep going on for now.
Gambateh An <3
Feb 25, 2011
家
下雨了。
天气凉凉的。
回家了。
心暖暖的。
一个人在外面生活不容易。
要自己照顾自己。
所以格外珍惜每一个在家的机会。
有爸妈的照料。
有弟妹的陪伴。
还有外婆的疼爱。
不管在外面的世界闯得浑身是伤，
只要回到家，
疲惫的心就能得到安慰。
特喜欢爸爸在我回家的那段路程，
可以说好多好多话，
告诉爸爸学校的生活、在外的生活。
特喜欢听妈妈和外婆抬杠。
哈哈。
有趣。
温馨。
特喜欢疼爱我的小弟弟。
特喜欢和妹妹一起煲动漫。
家。
永远都是最温暖幸福的角落。
天气凉凉的。
回家了。
心暖暖的。
一个人在外面生活不容易。
要自己照顾自己。
所以格外珍惜每一个在家的机会。
有爸妈的照料。
有弟妹的陪伴。
还有外婆的疼爱。
不管在外面的世界闯得浑身是伤，
只要回到家，
疲惫的心就能得到安慰。
特喜欢爸爸在我回家的那段路程，
可以说好多好多话，
告诉爸爸学校的生活、在外的生活。
特喜欢听妈妈和外婆抬杠。
哈哈。
有趣。
温馨。
特喜欢疼爱我的小弟弟。
特喜欢和妹妹一起煲动漫。
家。
永远都是最温暖幸福的角落。
Jan 30, 2011
我们
幸福，很简单。
是你教会我的。
我以为幸福该用浪漫来表达。
我以为幸福该用语言来填满。
原来，
一起窝在小小的房间，也是种幸福。
亲手煮东西给你吃，也是种幸福。
一起把房间打扫得干干净净，也是种幸福。
互相依偎看电影，也是种幸福。
原来只要有你在的地方，就是幸福的车站。
好久好久，忘了有多久，忘了感动的感觉。
而你，却会为了我无心的一句话而努力。
你说：“嫁给我好吗？”
虽然是网上抄的...但是我知道你的用心。
你想我开心。
我任性。
你却一次又一次地包容我的任性、容忍我的脾气。
是你教会我，
即使世界上有许多不如意的事，
我们也应该学习放开。
每一次我做对了事情，最喜欢的就是你的赞美。
我为了你而改变。
每一次的难过，只要有你在我身边，
或许一句话，
或许摸摸我的头，
或许一个抱抱，
就能让我的心情平复下来。
为了你，我慢慢学习敞开心房。
告诉你我每一件事。
爱，该是没有隐藏的，不是吗？
原来，幸福可以很简单。
不需要华丽丽的铺张，
不需要甜言蜜语。
只要你在，就是幸福。
老公，情人节快乐。
我爱你。
是你教会我的。
我以为幸福该用浪漫来表达。
我以为幸福该用语言来填满。
原来，
一起窝在小小的房间，也是种幸福。
亲手煮东西给你吃，也是种幸福。
一起把房间打扫得干干净净，也是种幸福。
互相依偎看电影，也是种幸福。
原来只要有你在的地方，就是幸福的车站。
好久好久，忘了有多久，忘了感动的感觉。
而你，却会为了我无心的一句话而努力。
你说：“嫁给我好吗？”
虽然是网上抄的...但是我知道你的用心。
你想我开心。
我任性。
你却一次又一次地包容我的任性、容忍我的脾气。
是你教会我，
即使世界上有许多不如意的事，
我们也应该学习放开。
每一次我做对了事情，最喜欢的就是你的赞美。
我为了你而改变。
每一次的难过，只要有你在我身边，
或许一句话，
或许摸摸我的头，
或许一个抱抱，
就能让我的心情平复下来。
为了你，我慢慢学习敞开心房。
告诉你我每一件事。
爱，该是没有隐藏的，不是吗？
原来，幸福可以很简单。
不需要华丽丽的铺张，
不需要甜言蜜语。
只要你在，就是幸福。
老公，情人节快乐。
我爱你。
Jan 15, 2011
bla bla bla xD
放假了~~~
忙了那么久，想想终于可以休息了^^
在宿舍呆多了几天和老公多相处了几天。
一起去吃好好吃的鸡饭；
最喜欢的，两个人窝在被被里看戏；
打打闹闹滴，时间就过很快了。
回家了^^
幸福的家庭~
妈妈的家常菜（全世界最棒的!!）
爸爸的唠叨（温馨...）
还有弟弟妹妹一起颠颠（哈哈）
外婆、表妹...
"One big happi family"
可是呢，要找份工作可不容易...><
每天晚上和老公msn~~
假期里要为妹妹设计一个日历!顺便也温习一下学到的东西嘛...嘻
最近呢，由于老公和她家人的关系，所以有机会可以更接近佛教。
发现了，好多好多以前自己不知道的事。
现在，我懂了!
嘻...快乐的方法，很简单。
我爱你们 <3
忙了那么久，想想终于可以休息了^^
在宿舍呆多了几天和老公多相处了几天。
一起去吃好好吃的鸡饭；
最喜欢的，两个人窝在被被里看戏；
打打闹闹滴，时间就过很快了。
回家了^^
幸福的家庭~
妈妈的家常菜（全世界最棒的!!）
爸爸的唠叨（温馨...）
还有弟弟妹妹一起颠颠（哈哈）
外婆、表妹...
"One big happi family"
可是呢，要找份工作可不容易...><
每天晚上和老公msn~~
假期里要为妹妹设计一个日历!顺便也温习一下学到的东西嘛...嘻
最近呢，由于老公和她家人的关系，所以有机会可以更接近佛教。
发现了，好多好多以前自己不知道的事。
现在，我懂了!
嘻...快乐的方法，很简单。
我爱你们 <3
小夫妻
在super market逛了好大一圈
想你爱咖哩或是意大利面
幸福的食谱再恶补几遍
我的优点要你百尝不厌
你没送钻戒以後补我项链
存够钱我们逛地球 一圈
想你爱咖哩或是意大利面
幸福的食谱再恶补几遍
我的优点要你百尝不厌
在下班路上租了几支影片
有你在沙发就是浪漫剧院
辛苦的时候想着你的脸
没有蛮牛活力也会出现
小夫妻 我的福气
这辈子可以让我爱上了你
这一路
有时晴 有时雨
都没有关系
我们的真心超过钻石对爱的定义
小夫妻 永不放弃
默契是最富有的一种储蓄
赌气话
你一句 我一句
也觉得甜蜜
多庆幸我们望着同样明天
牵手 在努力
你今天玉米浓汤有一点咸
你没送钻戒以後补我项链
我的通通是你的没有期限
存够钱我们逛地球 一圈
我愿意
这一生
这一世
呵护着你
一直到
你当爷爷
你当奶奶
还是老夫老妻
蔡淳佳。欧得洋
小夫妻
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