Busy, Tired, and Lovely.

Whoa!
Such a long time didn't write my blog. Flies everywhere here wakaka.

Anyway. I'm totally busy. Haiz.

Busy.
With a little bit happy.
With a little bit contented.

Because love in my world. =)

Went to many place I've never been there or long time didn't been there to shoot photo for study use. Batu Caves larh, Pavilion larh, Lot 10 larh, Orchid Park larh. Haha. Kinda sweet because you were there with me along the journey mah. ^^ But sweat also lar ><

Sometimes didn't forgot to take a break meanwhile let assignments and exercises drive me crazy. Just used half day time to sleep and watch anime in room with you. Hahaz. Lazy day~ And go for a movie, a GREAT movie Harry Potter 7! Haha~ Happiness still there even tough life is hard. Because I know the place it is.

And thanks much also to my friends yea. Always make me laugh when I'm tiring. =)

Last but not least. My family. My lovest family always the reason for me to keep awake through the night and through the stress. Muacks. And thanks God I've made the time to go home after all this. I do really really miss you guys...

Thanks everyone I love in my life. You give me love. You give me strength. You give me life.

True Love

What make you cry so helpless like a child, my dear?

Are you feeling so unsure and confuse about what you are doing?

Love always fools people around.You love him. He loves her. She loves him. He loves her. And you ask, who loves you?

Your family.

Love from family is the only unchange love. They brought you to the world with not easy. Brought you up until you can stand, can speak, can feels, can chase for the things you want. You are here because of them.

And then, the so call LOVE comes. Makes you happy and sad and smile and cry. You are so addicted to it until you lost yourself. What you do is only centering her/him. There might be one day the LOVE leaves you. You feel so sad so depress like lost everything in your life. And?

You try to hurt yourself or maybe suicide.

STUPID!

Look at you! Like an idiot.

Have you ever think of the result? The one you love will maybe at most sad and guilty for some time. After that she/he can live with no more effects that you've made. Okay. Is that worth? And, try to think about the one who brought you to this world. You leave will bring them the permanent scar inside their deep deep heart. They might use the whole of their life to cry to mourn you. They lost is forever. The lost is unrecoverable. The one they used to love with all their life had gone. Who else can replace? Don't hurt yourself. You're not alone in the world.

If you can't let go the so called LOVE, means that you aren't understand what love is, and you're not mature enough. Well my "let go" doesn't mean that you won't sad anymore, but, you won't do any stupid things.

Everything you do you shouldn't just think of yourself, you're not allowed to be selfish. The first you have to think is you parents. They love you. And there are so many people such as your friends love you too. And don't sad because you lost one, since that one isn't the right one for you.

 love yourself more. Just go on your life. God will be there. You family will be there too.

I'm Totally Going Crazy.

Home again.

Home again with complicated feeling.

I'm about to mad.

What's wrong?What's wrong?


Can someone please understand my situation? I need only the understanding but not demand the care or attention or what more. I need you to understand and please stop blaming. You know I love you you know I'm not mean that is it? I love you so so much daddy. I wish I can share your sadness too...I'm sorry...


I'm crazy. Untrusting you crazily. You make me go insane or I drive myself insane? I hope that my instinct isn't correct this time even tough it is strong until I can't bear it. You know I'm going to leave without any mercy if you turn back to me once, I won't care how hurt is my heart until break to pieces and pieces. Three days time. For you.


I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hate myself.


Assignments. Exam. Exercises. Redo. I need more time...I'm all in a mess. I need more time. I can't make it! I'm crazying and I've cried for tiring nights and nights. Non-stop coming works I need a breathe...but who cares? I need more time to finish them all. All I just want a little relax time I wish I can go Zoo Negara...But I don't even have time to sleep. Don't dream.

I've forgetten what is entertainment. I can't even make time for a short movie before sleep. I need a break for breathe. But why this time I feel so depress when I'm at my home...?

I can't face death. It's my first time and I'm scaring. I don't know what to respond. I wonder if someone is with me now. But no one. 

I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Can someone, just anyone, to speak. Tell me be strong. Tell me you will always with me. Tell me I can make it through all of these mess. Can I?

I'm alone with no one can understand I was exhausted I'm tired and I'm crying. No one no one.

I should walk trhough it all by myself. Because this is my life. Is it?

Don't worry. I'm okay. I won't do any wrong thing or stupid thing. For all who really care about me.

I love you.

You love me...?