So soon, my semester break is coming to an end.
Think back what had I done along this month, actually nothing.
I spent my time with family,
I spent my time on guitar,
I spent my time to sing,
I spent my time for...missing u the most.
Soon, the second semester is coming. Many new subjects that I really eager to learn. I wanna learn new things I love to learn new things. ;)
Gonna meet my friends back soon also. Are they changed in the month? Hope friendship never change. =)
Gonna start the college life again. Hope, will be busy until I could use my mind fully in those useful things. don't think too much.
Be happy my Dear Angela ;)
Goodbye my home~
Sep 25, 2010
Sep 23, 2010
Love u Hate u and I'm Leaving
I can move on with u if u say u can't find ur future.
I can find with u if u say u have no destination.
I can hold ur hands and give u the most calmly habour to stop if u feel tire.
I can tell u I'll be with u until my last heartbeat.
I can stay beside you when u need me there.
I can leave ur side if u tell me u wanna be free.
But u deny it all.
U said I deserve a better one.
U said u won't let me see if u are be with another one.
U said we are not gonna make it till the end.
U break my heart.
And u make me feel scare every second. Keep wondering when are u gonna to leave my side.
U make me feel guitly just because I'm too good.
I learn become independence
I learn become strong enough to take everything
I learn become a girl who can do everything
I learn become so optimistic until people seldom see my tears
All because of u.
I want u to love me more. I want u not to worry about me, I don't wanna be ur burden.
But seems I make u misunderstand, U think I can live without u. U think I'm too good and u're not that good enough for me.
Tell me. What am I supposing to do? So that I can stay u.
U give me a suck reason in order to leave me. U break my heart into pieces and u'll never get to know how hurt am I until my breathing is going to stop. U'll never know.
U give me the strength to love, give me the hope of forever, and u leave me alone here.
I hate u.
I don't wanna stay and wait u everyday, wait for u to say break up with me. So I'm the one to tell u. Since u wanna break, so let's break.
I still here for u. If u ask for stay.
I will leave for u. If u show me nothing.
My first time to say break up with u. I decided not to say it to u forever and tried to work hard on our relationship make it until forever. But u disappoint me. U never show me u're loving me and wanna be forever, like what I always do. This time, my leaving, wanna see if u're loving me, or not.
U're my love one. And u do really really hurt me deep deep more than I can afford. I hate u, I love u.
I can find with u if u say u have no destination.
I can hold ur hands and give u the most calmly habour to stop if u feel tire.
I can tell u I'll be with u until my last heartbeat.
I can stay beside you when u need me there.
I can leave ur side if u tell me u wanna be free.
But u deny it all.
U said I deserve a better one.
U said u won't let me see if u are be with another one.
U said we are not gonna make it till the end.
U break my heart.
And u make me feel scare every second. Keep wondering when are u gonna to leave my side.
U make me feel guitly just because I'm too good.
I learn become independence
I learn become strong enough to take everything
I learn become a girl who can do everything
I learn become so optimistic until people seldom see my tears
All because of u.
I want u to love me more. I want u not to worry about me, I don't wanna be ur burden.
But seems I make u misunderstand, U think I can live without u. U think I'm too good and u're not that good enough for me.
Tell me. What am I supposing to do? So that I can stay u.
U give me a suck reason in order to leave me. U break my heart into pieces and u'll never get to know how hurt am I until my breathing is going to stop. U'll never know.
U give me the strength to love, give me the hope of forever, and u leave me alone here.
I hate u.
I don't wanna stay and wait u everyday, wait for u to say break up with me. So I'm the one to tell u. Since u wanna break, so let's break.
I still here for u. If u ask for stay.
I will leave for u. If u show me nothing.
My first time to say break up with u. I decided not to say it to u forever and tried to work hard on our relationship make it until forever. But u disappoint me. U never show me u're loving me and wanna be forever, like what I always do. This time, my leaving, wanna see if u're loving me, or not.
U're my love one. And u do really really hurt me deep deep more than I can afford. I hate u, I love u.
Sep 22, 2010
What Those Happy Days =)
These days really really marked happiness in my life.
First of all, Happy Mooncake Festival to all my sweet friends ;)
Going to talk about, about these days...
20th September 2010
Today, went to hostel to meet my Hong, since he was off on that day to settle the hostel stuff, and he was arranged to the same room with Zack, what a nice arrangement ;) Had a nap at their hostel, too tired was I, so for Hong >< Then went back my hostel to get myself prepared for the next, we went to Times Square to watch Step Up 3 with Hong's friends ;) Reached there, and had my favorite Mc Donald as our lunch ^^ Then we went to meet up with his friend, Kam Hoe, and his friends.
The movie really nice and worth to watch, I bet it is nicer than Pirahna =D Really, it is talking about a gang of teenagers, teenagers who like to dance, and how they kept their dream moves on. I was touched. And I thinked to myself...There are so much to talk about my dream but, anyway the movie is really nice ;)
And then we rushed to Kepong, for steamboat~ Haha. Hong was calling up his friends. But we reached earlier than them, so we started to eat first XD The food there is really really many type to choose. And we took so many until the table was half fulled. Haha. And we started to steamboat and BBQ. And Hong's friends were coming one by one. I met with them and get to know them, and they are really Nice, Funny and Friendly ;) Honestly I love them all. We ate there for rounds >< And I did very very FULL...urghhh...>< First time saw Hong feels full, huhu. And we ate until almost 11++
Then, back to Hong's house to sleep by SoonMing's car =D And fast fast bath, fast fast sleep, TIRED~~~
21th September 2010
Woke up in 12 noon. Huh. Planned to watch Pirahna, but couldn't make it because time was rush and day was raining, haha. So I said wanna back home ler. Just right on this moment, Hong received a call from his friend, Ah Lai to ask him went to Genting Highland with him since he had a meeting up there. Hong was thinking whether follow or not, but than at the end he agreed also, and without hesitated I follow him to go ;)
Ah Lai reached Hong's house and we get up his car, and went to fetch JunHong, haha. All guys talked and joked along the road, really funny =D
Reached there, Ah Lai went for meeting and left we three, with no place to go for killed time, we went for 4D Motion Master =D Haha kinda scary the movie, but seemed I was the only one who scared huh, hahaz. Then went to outside there, sat down and ate Hong's mummy's cook. Nice~ But cold hahaz, JunHong was there kept shivering, haha really funny larr~ And soon Hong was like him also XD I kept laughing there, so bad huh =P So we fast fast finished the delicious food and run back to indoor, had a walked at there, watched the portrait artist from Shanghai drew the potrait there on the spot, with Hong, kept wondering how can he draw so perfect with those scale and the feeling. Nice ;)
Soon Ah Lai here and brought us to put our bags into the hotel. Reached hotal and we played cards there =D Haha nice, JunHong and Hong kept losing nia~~ Haha, and the loser had to open the oranges for the winner~~~Haha. Pity Hong =P And later we teared off some papers to be used as betting money XD funny, played Poker, and JunHong really funny lar~~Always lose and left fews, keke. And then Ah Lai went back to continue his meeting, ( He left it with the reason TOILET, and he went for "toilet" for about an hour haha ) After he left, we slept. Tired, haha. Slept until Ah Lai was back, and he brought JunHong out to chat something about their career. So, left me and Hong lu. We took turn to bath, and watched animal channel, and chatted about something about our future...Kinda be an other story to talk with, so, skip >< Chatted and then slept again =D Until JunHong they back, and went out for dinner at 2 midnight! Haha.
Ate KFC, since Hong had the voucher to free 4 chickens. We ate 10 chickens for 4 people, horrible >< Haha. Ah Lai decided to back just right on that night. >< So suddenly and I had no where to go if they back, I can't back home because family all slept already, and since they're going to come here tomorrow morning, so I had to leave, not following them, and my Hong, also left down in order to accompany me. Touched. Thanks. Really...I love you.
After they back, left me and Hong in hotel, time was getting late, so we had to sleep. Tomorrow need to wake up early. But before get sleep, we chatted a lot...Many, about Hong, about us, about...many. Slept at 4++
22th September 2010
Woke up at 8. Tired. Both tired. Washed face and went to buy bus ticket for Hong to back. Really worried to let him back alone, felt sorry. >< Then, after Hong back, I went to First World to wait my family =)
Soon they came. After bought tickets, we went to play~~~
We played really many games today, played four times for the Corkscrew, my favorite~~Haha, and DiiDii was addicted to the Roller Coaster, so, I played with him, for seven times! Haha, DiiDii really very brave and shocked us all, he even braver than my mum XD but me, gonna vomit already. And played Train, Flying Chair, 4D, Pirate Ship and so on, haha, really abit couldn't take it, old already XD Especially the Pirate Ship, almost vomit when I went down, damn scary >< We also enjoyed the Kenny Roger's Roaster there, delicious~~ At the end, we all really kinda headache and tired, so we back. All were super tired, so for me, so I slept since back, until now...Haha =D
First of all, Happy Mooncake Festival to all my sweet friends ;)
Going to talk about, about these days...
20th September 2010
Today, went to hostel to meet my Hong, since he was off on that day to settle the hostel stuff, and he was arranged to the same room with Zack, what a nice arrangement ;) Had a nap at their hostel, too tired was I, so for Hong >< Then went back my hostel to get myself prepared for the next, we went to Times Square to watch Step Up 3 with Hong's friends ;) Reached there, and had my favorite Mc Donald as our lunch ^^ Then we went to meet up with his friend, Kam Hoe, and his friends.
The movie really nice and worth to watch, I bet it is nicer than Pirahna =D Really, it is talking about a gang of teenagers, teenagers who like to dance, and how they kept their dream moves on. I was touched. And I thinked to myself...There are so much to talk about my dream but, anyway the movie is really nice ;)
And then we rushed to Kepong, for steamboat~ Haha. Hong was calling up his friends. But we reached earlier than them, so we started to eat first XD The food there is really really many type to choose. And we took so many until the table was half fulled. Haha. And we started to steamboat and BBQ. And Hong's friends were coming one by one. I met with them and get to know them, and they are really Nice, Funny and Friendly ;) Honestly I love them all. We ate there for rounds >< And I did very very FULL...urghhh...>< First time saw Hong feels full, huhu. And we ate until almost 11++
Then, back to Hong's house to sleep by SoonMing's car =D And fast fast bath, fast fast sleep, TIRED~~~
21th September 2010
Woke up in 12 noon. Huh. Planned to watch Pirahna, but couldn't make it because time was rush and day was raining, haha. So I said wanna back home ler. Just right on this moment, Hong received a call from his friend, Ah Lai to ask him went to Genting Highland with him since he had a meeting up there. Hong was thinking whether follow or not, but than at the end he agreed also, and without hesitated I follow him to go ;)
Ah Lai reached Hong's house and we get up his car, and went to fetch JunHong, haha. All guys talked and joked along the road, really funny =D
Reached there, Ah Lai went for meeting and left we three, with no place to go for killed time, we went for 4D Motion Master =D Haha kinda scary the movie, but seemed I was the only one who scared huh, hahaz. Then went to outside there, sat down and ate Hong's mummy's cook. Nice~ But cold hahaz, JunHong was there kept shivering, haha really funny larr~ And soon Hong was like him also XD I kept laughing there, so bad huh =P So we fast fast finished the delicious food and run back to indoor, had a walked at there, watched the portrait artist from Shanghai drew the potrait there on the spot, with Hong, kept wondering how can he draw so perfect with those scale and the feeling. Nice ;)
Soon Ah Lai here and brought us to put our bags into the hotel. Reached hotal and we played cards there =D Haha nice, JunHong and Hong kept losing nia~~ Haha, and the loser had to open the oranges for the winner~~~Haha. Pity Hong =P And later we teared off some papers to be used as betting money XD funny, played Poker, and JunHong really funny lar~~Always lose and left fews, keke. And then Ah Lai went back to continue his meeting, ( He left it with the reason TOILET, and he went for "toilet" for about an hour haha ) After he left, we slept. Tired, haha. Slept until Ah Lai was back, and he brought JunHong out to chat something about their career. So, left me and Hong lu. We took turn to bath, and watched animal channel, and chatted about something about our future...Kinda be an other story to talk with, so, skip >< Chatted and then slept again =D Until JunHong they back, and went out for dinner at 2 midnight! Haha.
Ate KFC, since Hong had the voucher to free 4 chickens. We ate 10 chickens for 4 people, horrible >< Haha. Ah Lai decided to back just right on that night. >< So suddenly and I had no where to go if they back, I can't back home because family all slept already, and since they're going to come here tomorrow morning, so I had to leave, not following them, and my Hong, also left down in order to accompany me. Touched. Thanks. Really...I love you.
After they back, left me and Hong in hotel, time was getting late, so we had to sleep. Tomorrow need to wake up early. But before get sleep, we chatted a lot...Many, about Hong, about us, about...many. Slept at 4++
22th September 2010
Woke up at 8. Tired. Both tired. Washed face and went to buy bus ticket for Hong to back. Really worried to let him back alone, felt sorry. >< Then, after Hong back, I went to First World to wait my family =)
Soon they came. After bought tickets, we went to play~~~
We played really many games today, played four times for the Corkscrew, my favorite~~Haha, and DiiDii was addicted to the Roller Coaster, so, I played with him, for seven times! Haha, DiiDii really very brave and shocked us all, he even braver than my mum XD but me, gonna vomit already. And played Train, Flying Chair, 4D, Pirate Ship and so on, haha, really abit couldn't take it, old already XD Especially the Pirate Ship, almost vomit when I went down, damn scary >< We also enjoyed the Kenny Roger's Roaster there, delicious~~ At the end, we all really kinda headache and tired, so we back. All were super tired, so for me, so I slept since back, until now...Haha =D
不完美
你常常说 我很完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
没人能取代 我给的一切
我就以为 我努力更完美
我们 就会永远
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
后来你说 我太完美
值得更好的 陪在我身边
你不是我 你怎么能体会
你有 多么珍贵
完美并不美 我们多虚伪
你让我的好 变成一种罪
完美并不美 当你爱了谁
我的完美也只是 不完美
我希望你幸福 尽管你并不爱我
[李玖哲::不完美]
Sep 19, 2010
See You Tomorrow
Today I made my hair treatment.
Today I put lotion on my skin.
Today I coloured my nails.
Today I made a mask for my face.
Because tomorrow will be our first meet after this long long holiday. Expecting. Aren't you? Miss you...
See you tomorrow my dear =]
Sep 18, 2010
Love of This World
Why is some people can be so easy come easy go towards their relationship? And they will get whatever they want.
Why is some people always pay off their everything in a relationship blindly and without ask for any repay? And what they get is always the sad ending, heartbroken ending.
Why is some people will easily forget about how eager are they to start the relationship with the one they really "Love" for at first of all? And they act like wanna throw away the relationship such as it looks like a burden to him/her.
Love, fool people. And Love, where people are fooled.
So many kinds of love in the world. And now I'm talking about the love between man and woman.
I don't really sure if is it fixed that the one who loves the deepest the one who will get hurt at the end. But what have I seen around me, including my own experiences, it seems correct. Who loves the deepest, the easiest he/she will get hurt. Isn't that cruel? Why must be the one who loves the deepest get hurt? Because their partner never ever pay off the same and never precious their love. Why? Unfair.
Case I
He left a girl, Angie because of the other girl, Mandy. He told Angie that he loved Mandy in the way she is. Independence, self-confidence self-esteem, cheerful, sporting and so on. Described like no other can be compared with her. Angie cried, cried of sadness and be self-abased. She left. And soon he was together with the girl he dreamed for, Mandy. Not that long time, he left Mandy. He hurt Mandy so deep in the way that outsider could never imaging. Mandy gives him all he asked for and at the end Mandy lost much more than she can afford...He soon started his new life with the other girl. What can I say?
Case II
A girl lost her love one. And soon meet with a new one, who really really pamper her and love her more than the past one. She accepted this one. She was so in love with the one, she told her friends, like she has met the right one. Only in a short time. She felt that they aren't that sweet than before, feeling just can't correct. She asked for break. She totally forget abut, her happiness at first. What can I say?
Can I point that whose the wrong one? I think I can't. There are no mean of correct or wrong in a relationship...? I really really don't know.
I will admire when I see two old couple, jogging in the morning. They aren't talking sweet things but keep babbling about the life's unsatisfying. Then, is raining. The old uncle faster takes out an umbrella, and opens it holds it for his old partner. They walk slowly, with keep babbling...I wonder how many things they had came through along the years since they get married. I wonder how deep is their love to hold them together after so many years. Their love with no such beautifully romantic stuff, but their love is permanently, and strong than the teenagers' or the adult's love which always hanging those words of "Love" and "Forever" everyday. The only thing I know is, they never simply think of "break up" or "divorce" no matter what had happened. They live in the world of two people, isn't their own.
My friend told me about a cruel thing she had gone through. She had a baby, and her boyfriend brought her to abort it. And after the abortion, her boyfriend left her. I can imaging, how was the girl's feeling. She loves him, gives him everything. And she had their, or her very first child in her life. the little child. As a mother, she imaging how will the little baby looks like, and what if the baby can born, how will be her life...? But she is still very young! How can she faces this all? She was in scare...And her stupid boyfriend brought her to abort! It was an operation. She killed her own baby by herself. Can you imagine the girl's feeling?...I do, and I cry for her experience. She has sacrificed so so much to the only guy she loves and what she wants is only the guy's love...Is that too much? I think what has she paid is far more much than what she expects for.
I'm now in a relationship. A simple relationship with not that much problems. Everything seems just fine, but who know what's going to happen in the future? Love isn't guaranteed us forever, Love isn't for the purpose to be forever anymore. Love isn't simple as human change to become greedy and greedy.
All of us who really serious towards the relationship will always confuse and wonder, what can I do, so that my love will guarantee me forever? I believe they will do anything if there are any way to get it, if there are any way...But there aren't any way.
People always said, Love isn't that precious if it can always last forever, Love can be prettier if we only have it for some days in our life time...I say that all bullshit! Love, is that so holy that God gives us the ability to love a person, so that our love can last for forever and forever. That's only the love is beautiful.
Love, how good is if it is simple and last forever?
WTF!
Really really angry now.
What the heck!
Ask you guys, will you get angry when there are people talk bad about you with the things that isn't correct at all?? Mean, GOSSIP !......
@^&**&^%$#@$^&*(&$%TT&*$#%&*$#%$&..........
Hey you know me nothing but you can talk about me in front of the people around me?
Hey you always act like you know everything and talk like you wanna help me?
Hey you think you are my WHO that's enough to talk about me?
Hey what the hell you think you're doing that you thought can ruin me?
Gosh! You make me sick!
There're nothing you can do on my life with you fucking gossip mouth!
You really really such an ordinary BITCH!
I blame myself for such stupid ever think wanna forgive you.
I'll NEVER forgive you anymore, no matter how they beg or ask, I WON'T! I hate you.
Stop acting like you're a good person, don't dream wanna get heart from the people around me, don't dream!
Bitch than a BITCH! Gossip gossip gossip gossip......please larr, no qualification to talk about me at all larr you. Somemore, know only a little bit than act like you know everything, don't make me laugh! In my eyes what you have done is just such an idiot...
What the heck!
Ask you guys, will you get angry when there are people talk bad about you with the things that isn't correct at all?? Mean, GOSSIP !......
@^&**&^%$#@$^&*(&$%TT&*$#%&*$#%$&..........
Hey you know me nothing but you can talk about me in front of the people around me?
Hey you always act like you know everything and talk like you wanna help me?
Hey you think you are my WHO that's enough to talk about me?
Hey what the hell you think you're doing that you thought can ruin me?
Gosh! You make me sick!
There're nothing you can do on my life with you fucking gossip mouth!
You really really such an ordinary BITCH!
I blame myself for such stupid ever think wanna forgive you.
I'll NEVER forgive you anymore, no matter how they beg or ask, I WON'T! I hate you.
Stop acting like you're a good person, don't dream wanna get heart from the people around me, don't dream!
Bitch than a BITCH! Gossip gossip gossip gossip......please larr, no qualification to talk about me at all larr you. Somemore, know only a little bit than act like you know everything, don't make me laugh! In my eyes what you have done is just such an idiot...
LOLz, you did made me laugh.
Sep 15, 2010
Big Girl Don't Cry...
好朋友失恋了...><
看她即使难过得快崩溃了，还是逞强，心也就跟着疼了...傻婆...
在一起了好久呵...
说分了就分了。
海誓呢？山盟呢？...
她哭着告诉我，数落着她自己，说曾经是多么的傻，相信能够牵着他的手到白头。
感慨。
亲爱的，
抱歉我真的什么都帮不上。
只能陪你疯、陪你闹。
只能在笑闹间无意瞥见你心伤掉下的泪。
只能默默祝福，希望外表坚强的你能再一次站起来...
只能，在你的背后看见自己的影子...
亲爱的，
你知道我能明白你。
所以你选择了在我面前卸下城墙。
因为，我们走的，竟是不同时空的同一条路...同样的故事、同样的结局、同样的背景和人物...
当初就没怪过你，你就别自责了，傻婆...
你说，你心情复杂的快要疯了。
他说，要分开，因为彼此的不适合。很快的他的身边就出现了另一个她。
你会难过，是应该的...
你说，他告诉你爱情是没有童话故事般的结局。
我懂你说这话的时候，是有多么多么的无奈。
你恨他，为什么不在一开始就告诉了你...
我知道。我统统都知道。
时间会是一切的解药。
相信我。
你一定，能比我更快走出回忆的痛，能走向更幸福的未来。
看她即使难过得快崩溃了，还是逞强，心也就跟着疼了...傻婆...
在一起了好久呵...
说分了就分了。
海誓呢？山盟呢？...
她哭着告诉我，数落着她自己，说曾经是多么的傻，相信能够牵着他的手到白头。
感慨。
亲爱的，
抱歉我真的什么都帮不上。
只能陪你疯、陪你闹。
只能在笑闹间无意瞥见你心伤掉下的泪。
只能默默祝福，希望外表坚强的你能再一次站起来...
只能，在你的背后看见自己的影子...
亲爱的，
你知道我能明白你。
所以你选择了在我面前卸下城墙。
因为，我们走的，竟是不同时空的同一条路...同样的故事、同样的结局、同样的背景和人物...
当初就没怪过你，你就别自责了，傻婆...
你说，你心情复杂的快要疯了。
他说，要分开，因为彼此的不适合。很快的他的身边就出现了另一个她。
你会难过，是应该的...
你说，他告诉你爱情是没有童话故事般的结局。
我懂你说这话的时候，是有多么多么的无奈。
你恨他，为什么不在一开始就告诉了你...
我知道。我统统都知道。
时间会是一切的解药。
相信我。
你一定，能比我更快走出回忆的痛，能走向更幸福的未来。
祝福你...
我爱你
就这么说吧，简简单单一句，“我爱你”。
够了。
足够让我明白你的心。
别每次都不说什么，我不够聪明去猜懂你，我怕猜错。我需要你的肯定。
你说我该懂，只要你说，我就懂。
懂你，
够了。
足够让我明白你的心。
别每次都不说什么，我不够聪明去猜懂你，我怕猜错。我需要你的肯定。
你说我该懂，只要你说，我就懂。
懂你，
其实和我爱你一样，那么爱我
其实当我每次为你付出，你都知道，也会感动
其实你心疼我
其实你在乎我的感受
其实，你也想我... ...
或许我们都太年轻了，或许我偶尔真的太任性了。可是你的包容、你的了解，我都知道，谢谢你，亲爱的。或许我们都不懂，该怎么去恒温一段感情。可是我们可以慢慢慢慢地学习，不是吗？就这样，牵着手，一步一步地走，或许，或许会就这样地一个不小心，让我们走到了永远...？嘻，我爱你。
氧气
带你心飞
沉入越来越深的海底
我开始想念你
我好孤寂
跌进越来越冷的爱里
我快不能呼吸
我想要你
人活著赖著一口氧气
氧气是你
如果你爱我 你会来找我
你会知道我 快不能活
如果你爱我 你会来救我
空气很稀薄 因为寂寞
[卢学叡 :: 氧气]
Sep 13, 2010
Yipee~~~
Wakakakaka~~~
Finally, we finished that PUZZLE larrrrrr~~~~
Hahahaha,,
Happy ^^
All the effort from Ling, Mummy, DiiDii, and...ME~~~~
Hohohoho
12 Sept 2010, Family Day
Today is a typical Sunday, Daddy hasn't worked. And I still not sleep for the whole night.
Early in the morning Mummy came and knocked my door,
At first I thought not to go because I was totally exhausted but it was a family day! I shouldn't be so selfish, and I wanna join their happiness moment, and hence, I went.
We went to UYB there to have our breakfast, we ate a super delicious roast duck rice =] Not very expensive also. Nice.
Then we departed to Damansara~~
We reached and visted The Court first. Had a look on the furniture. And then went to upstair the Bentley Music. There sold a lot of music instruments, drums, violin, guitar, piano, keyboard...OMG. And I saw a very nice plug-in guitar, sold RM 1060, I target for it, hehe, save money and learn more on guitar, and then will buy it for myself, it is really really nice. =]
Then we went to The Curve, and then E-Curve. We snapped some photos there because the decoration was nice. ^^ MeiMei and me found our "heaven" there! An animation shoplet! OMG, there has sold a lot of accesories related to animation especially our favorite one Bleach and One Piece! MeiMei said wanna save money, because wanna buy the Bleach cosplay costume, hahax, but that really nice, cost RM 100++, and at the end we bought 4 four t-shirts whice has the Anime's pictures on it. And a 1000 pieces puzzle! Hahax, DiiDii also bought a transformer model. We spent RM 185 there...That's worth! Happy~~
Then, I went to Sasa. There had been a long time since I visited. And bought an eyeliner and a yogurt mask. Hahax. I love to make myself look pretty =P
Tesco. Mummy and DiiDii went into Tesco and MeiMei and me were totally tired, we sat on a bench to take a break. Also bought a lot of things at here. I bought the Herbal Essence shampoo and conditioner, Lux body shampoo, and some beverages. Hahax. Really used alot of money today, but still happy. Not forget to buy the SUSHI~~hahax, bought RM 15++, hahax.
Then, Daddy fetched us to SS2 to have our lunch. After Daddy bought his DVD, we started to order, MeiMei and Mummy ate hcao donghun, DiiDii and me ate Char Kuey Teow, and ABC, and some herbal tea.
Hahax, really a nice day spent with family.
Reached home even tough I was exhausted, but I still started to play the puzzle with MeiMei. =] Not that easy, for the 1000-piece One Piece puzzle, and at the end I still fell asleep on 10...Hahax.
Early in the morning Mummy came and knocked my door,
" Wanna go out anot?"
"Go where?"
"The Curve."
At first I thought not to go because I was totally exhausted but it was a family day! I shouldn't be so selfish, and I wanna join their happiness moment, and hence, I went.
I make-up. Hehe, long time didn't make-up.
We went to UYB there to have our breakfast, we ate a super delicious roast duck rice =] Not very expensive also. Nice.
Then we departed to Damansara~~
We reached and visted The Court first. Had a look on the furniture. And then went to upstair the Bentley Music. There sold a lot of music instruments, drums, violin, guitar, piano, keyboard...OMG. And I saw a very nice plug-in guitar, sold RM 1060, I target for it, hehe, save money and learn more on guitar, and then will buy it for myself, it is really really nice. =]
Then we went to The Curve, and then E-Curve. We snapped some photos there because the decoration was nice. ^^ MeiMei and me found our "heaven" there! An animation shoplet! OMG, there has sold a lot of accesories related to animation especially our favorite one Bleach and One Piece! MeiMei said wanna save money, because wanna buy the Bleach cosplay costume, hahax, but that really nice, cost RM 100++, and at the end we bought 4 four t-shirts whice has the Anime's pictures on it. And a 1000 pieces puzzle! Hahax, DiiDii also bought a transformer model. We spent RM 185 there...That's worth! Happy~~
Then, I went to Sasa. There had been a long time since I visited. And bought an eyeliner and a yogurt mask. Hahax. I love to make myself look pretty =P
Tesco. Mummy and DiiDii went into Tesco and MeiMei and me were totally tired, we sat on a bench to take a break. Also bought a lot of things at here. I bought the Herbal Essence shampoo and conditioner, Lux body shampoo, and some beverages. Hahax. Really used alot of money today, but still happy. Not forget to buy the SUSHI~~hahax, bought RM 15++, hahax.
Then, Daddy fetched us to SS2 to have our lunch. After Daddy bought his DVD, we started to order, MeiMei and Mummy ate hcao donghun, DiiDii and me ate Char Kuey Teow, and ABC, and some herbal tea.
Hahax, really a nice day spent with family.
Reached home even tough I was exhausted, but I still started to play the puzzle with MeiMei. =] Not that easy, for the 1000-piece One Piece puzzle, and at the end I still fell asleep on 10...Hahax.
Actually planned to watch movie through out the night with MeiMei, but, hahax, sleep already. Paiseh yea Ling~
Sep 11, 2010
10 Sept 2010, A Happii Daii
The day, DiiDii's birthday and also my house's Open Day.
Many people, relatives and friends were invited to come, and the party started at 6.
But before that, held a party isn't that simple. Many preparing need to be done.
Early in the morning, we started to clean out our house, and arranged all the tables and chairs. After the ordered food came, we now really really busy. We cooked, prepared the bbQ and steamboat, arranged the food and fruits and drinks, and also the spoons, plates, cups...etc. All of us worked until sweaty. Huhu.
Right before the party get started, and the guests were all arrived, I went to bath, and, after helped mummy out, I started to EAT~~~
Wohoo so many things to eat and I ate the most was nugget, delicious. Steamboat, and bbQ. The fire of bbQ wasn't easy to put up. Hahax. DiiDii received many presents. I can see his happiness from his smile.
My house suddenly seemed so crowdly. Around 40 guests there. All ate and chatted, haha environment was looked so noisy but harmony. I love that feeling, love of family.
Reached the time to cut the cake. One of my auntie bought DiiDii a secret recipe's chocolate indulgence, huhu, my favorite =] We all made a circle around DiiDii and sang him "Happy Birthday" in three different versions, hahax. And, DiiDii made a wish, and blew the candle, and cut the cake. Even tough we all can only be divided a little amount of cake, but we still enjoyed it.
Then was the time, most expected time, hahax, DiiDii was opening the presents. Hahax, many photos were took, and DiiDii kissed everyone who gave him presents, can be seen that how happy was him. =] All the presents he loves also, hehe. He happy, I feel happy too...
Then, me and fews were started the second round of bbQ. Hahax that was awesome and great! We kept on compared whose chicken wings were the nicest, hahax and my big uncle kept told jokes that made all of us laughed crazily =D The wings were so delicious. Mummy and aunties sat aside together and chit-chatted there, also happy. Hahax, my another uncle then caame and joined our bbQ too, because we were just too happy =D
And then was the time for Tee to perform his magic XD Lol, could hear lot of sound of admire like "yerr!", "wah, "yo"...haha. Famous jor lo!
Then, day getting night. I was just too tire due to not sleep at the night before. So I went to sleep at 12. BUT! They were all continued playing computer together the "Bejeweled Blitz" until 4...= =
Many people, relatives and friends were invited to come, and the party started at 6.
But before that, held a party isn't that simple. Many preparing need to be done.
Early in the morning, we started to clean out our house, and arranged all the tables and chairs. After the ordered food came, we now really really busy. We cooked, prepared the bbQ and steamboat, arranged the food and fruits and drinks, and also the spoons, plates, cups...etc. All of us worked until sweaty. Huhu.
Right before the party get started, and the guests were all arrived, I went to bath, and, after helped mummy out, I started to EAT~~~
Wohoo so many things to eat and I ate the most was nugget, delicious. Steamboat, and bbQ. The fire of bbQ wasn't easy to put up. Hahax. DiiDii received many presents. I can see his happiness from his smile.
My house suddenly seemed so crowdly. Around 40 guests there. All ate and chatted, haha environment was looked so noisy but harmony. I love that feeling, love of family.
Reached the time to cut the cake. One of my auntie bought DiiDii a secret recipe's chocolate indulgence, huhu, my favorite =] We all made a circle around DiiDii and sang him "Happy Birthday" in three different versions, hahax. And, DiiDii made a wish, and blew the candle, and cut the cake. Even tough we all can only be divided a little amount of cake, but we still enjoyed it.
Then was the time, most expected time, hahax, DiiDii was opening the presents. Hahax, many photos were took, and DiiDii kissed everyone who gave him presents, can be seen that how happy was him. =] All the presents he loves also, hehe. He happy, I feel happy too...
Then, me and fews were started the second round of bbQ. Hahax that was awesome and great! We kept on compared whose chicken wings were the nicest, hahax and my big uncle kept told jokes that made all of us laughed crazily =D The wings were so delicious. Mummy and aunties sat aside together and chit-chatted there, also happy. Hahax, my another uncle then caame and joined our bbQ too, because we were just too happy =D
And then was the time for Tee to perform his magic XD Lol, could hear lot of sound of admire like "yerr!", "wah, "yo"...haha. Famous jor lo!
Then, day getting night. I was just too tire due to not sleep at the night before. So I went to sleep at 12. BUT! They were all continued playing computer together the "Bejeweled Blitz" until 4...= =
Anyway, it is really a happy and unforgettable day for me and I believe is for my family too =]
Love you all, forever, Papa, Mama, DiiDii, and MeiMei. Muacks ^3^
Sep 9, 2010
Sep 7, 2010
My Tuesday, 7 Sept 2010
Wow. Not sleeping but here blooging in a such time, I'm going to crazy, hahax. Now is 4.30 A.M.
Actually isn't want to wait for anyone or whatelse, just simply couldn't sleep.
Let's chat about yesterday =)
Hmm. Woke up, and helped mummy in some household stuff.
Then online chatted with my guitar teacher -- Yip, Tee and another Angela, hahax.
Played guitar for a long long time, until fingers felt pain. But that was great when sing meanwhile playing guitar. I never regret to learn guitar no matter how hard I had gone through to learn it, erm I mean the fees. ><
Then, grandmum they came. House suddenly became so crowdful. Hahax. Continued my guitar.
Hungry. Cooked the Tomyam Panmee ^^ Nice neh~
And then, talked phone with Hong. Talked for long long time. Hahax. Hong didn't went to work due to his sickness. Heartache...><
Finished talked, then watched the TV programme I had downloaded, a taiwan's singing competition. Kinda like to watch such singing competition, like to learn something about singing inside that =)
Music is my life.
That's why I learn guitar,
And I fell into singing since I was still 10,
I can sing well, but not now ><
Because since I get into college, I never practise my singing anymore. No time, no place. How can I sing in hostel??Going to be threw shoes from neighbours hahax. Haiz, I did practised at home few days ago, but that voice, killed me. Disappointing to myself.
Hahax.
And raining the whole night.
Hong, sweet dream. Love you.
Actually isn't want to wait for anyone or whatelse, just simply couldn't sleep.
Let's chat about yesterday =)
Hmm. Woke up, and helped mummy in some household stuff.
Then online chatted with my guitar teacher -- Yip, Tee and another Angela, hahax.
Played guitar for a long long time, until fingers felt pain. But that was great when sing meanwhile playing guitar. I never regret to learn guitar no matter how hard I had gone through to learn it, erm I mean the fees. ><
Then, grandmum they came. House suddenly became so crowdful. Hahax. Continued my guitar.
Hungry. Cooked the Tomyam Panmee ^^ Nice neh~
And then, talked phone with Hong. Talked for long long time. Hahax. Hong didn't went to work due to his sickness. Heartache...><
Finished talked, then watched the TV programme I had downloaded, a taiwan's singing competition. Kinda like to watch such singing competition, like to learn something about singing inside that =)
Music is my life.
That's why I learn guitar,
And I fell into singing since I was still 10,
I can sing well, but not now ><
Because since I get into college, I never practise my singing anymore. No time, no place. How can I sing in hostel??Going to be threw shoes from neighbours hahax. Haiz, I did practised at home few days ago, but that voice, killed me. Disappointing to myself.
Hahax.
And raining the whole night.
Hong, sweet dream. Love you.
Feel like wanna sing now...in the midnight??LOL don't kidding = =
Sep 6, 2010
Face with Death
Early in the morning, was awoke by my STEWPID kidney >< Urghhh.
My kidney pain again. Feeling suffered.
The first thing rushed into my mind was, is it I'm going to die...?? Haizx wanna let Tee scolds again, think too much = = Hahax
But, soon think about something...Not bad to care about, hahax
Who is the person that I just can't let go until my last heartbeat...?
What is/are the things I wanna do before I die?
What will you say to people before you die?
So, what's the conclusion?
My kidney pain again. Feeling suffered.
The first thing rushed into my mind was, is it I'm going to die...?? Haizx wanna let Tee scolds again, think too much = = Hahax
But, soon think about something...Not bad to care about, hahax
Who is the person that I just can't let go until my last heartbeat...?
Answer :: Absolutely my parents. They rise me up, feed me, care me, love me. I don't wanna see their faces of sad due to my death. And I even can't repay their paid off. Haiz, sad.
What is/are the things I wanna do before I die?
Answer :: Many. Hahax. I want earn many many money, I want let my parents have their comfortable life, meanwhile not to worry about me. =] I want let my sister and brother can fulfill their dreams whatever they wanna reach. I wanna let my family feel proud of me. Hahax. One more stupid thing. I want get married. Hahax. Isn't that funny huh? But, for me, it shall be the happiest moment, or the prettiest moment for a girl. Sure larr, also for the time later, become his wife, spend the rest of my life with him, and also our children...Hahax. (Shy shy)
What will you say to people before you die?
Answer :: To my parents I'll say, "Daddy Mummy, I love you". To my didi and meimei I'll say, "Be a good person, work hard on your future". To my dear I'll say, "Don't cry, you deserve the better one" (fake hahax). To my friends I'll say, "Stay happy as when I was there beside you all". (hahax wanna cry already)
Answer :: Hahax. Sure is, I DON'T WANNA DIE SO FAST larr. XD Still got lot things wait for me to achieve, that's a waste for die so young. Haha. I'll take good care myself, for my dearest family...for my lovely Hong...for my precious friends also...I regret larr >< I want take good care of myself from now on lerr >< Solli solli T^T
p/s :: aha long time din write such a HAPPY (?!) blog lerr, owis the sad sad stuff >< Huhu, enjoy urself XD
Sep 5, 2010
Last Hurtbeat
Watch on the wall shows me 5, and the sky outside the window tells me is morning now, even tough the Sun hasn't risen.
The dogs' bark outside makes me shiver.
I stay alone at downstair of my big big house. Sometimes, it seems too big enough to make me feel lonely easily. The air downstair is cooler, that's what I told my daddy. Fake biatch.
Facebook again, and Ah Tee again, who accompany me through out the cold night. I deserve all the loneliness, I make it comes to my life. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. And totally, lose myself. Not anymore the "Me" that I used to be. Happy, optimistic, strong, charming, sporty...all gone from me. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. All because of myself.
Fall deeply into a relationship isn't a good thing.
I need someone, who needs me too. I don't need a man who is wealth, or handsome, or clever, or whatso, but, I need Him to need Me too, isn't that seems impossible? Haha. We tend to live in our own life, by having each other as partner, but won't even once stir on the other's life. That's better for me and Him. I think so.
Hmm.
I love the man. I won't let him go easily, won't speak out the WORD easily, as long as, he remains unchange. And, I know he will feel frustrated also if, I keep on waiting him, and waiting him. Even tough he never know why is my purposes. Care, and love, and scare. Anyway, this is the last night I wait for Him. Last. I promise to myself. Love myself more. Meanwhile I never fade my love towards Him. No worries.
The dogs' bark outside makes me shiver.
I stay alone at downstair of my big big house. Sometimes, it seems too big enough to make me feel lonely easily. The air downstair is cooler, that's what I told my daddy. Fake biatch.
Facebook again, and Ah Tee again, who accompany me through out the cold night. I deserve all the loneliness, I make it comes to my life. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. And totally, lose myself. Not anymore the "Me" that I used to be. Happy, optimistic, strong, charming, sporty...all gone from me. Because I'm falling in love with the man again. All because of myself.
Fall deeply into a relationship isn't a good thing.
I need someone, who needs me too. I don't need a man who is wealth, or handsome, or clever, or whatso, but, I need Him to need Me too, isn't that seems impossible? Haha. We tend to live in our own life, by having each other as partner, but won't even once stir on the other's life. That's better for me and Him. I think so.
Friends said I'm always dig out problem at wherelse suppose no problem. I make myself problem. I make myself sadness and trouble. Actually everything is going to be like normal, is me, don't appreciate what I'm having now.
YOU are not me! You will never ever know what's the feeling for a girl who lost in a LOVE where she actually isn't need to be there. Everyone got their own problems in love, so, don't you simply judge on mine. As I never really judge on yours, my dear friend. I don't need you to be by my side and comfort me and scold the man together, and so, I don't need you to be their too to say how pity are you and how stupid am I for not appreciating my love.
Hmm.
I love the man. I won't let him go easily, won't speak out the WORD easily, as long as, he remains unchange. And, I know he will feel frustrated also if, I keep on waiting him, and waiting him. Even tough he never know why is my purposes. Care, and love, and scare. Anyway, this is the last night I wait for Him. Last. I promise to myself. Love myself more. Meanwhile I never fade my love towards Him. No worries.
Hong arr Hong~~
Yesterday, almost getting frustrated when I was waiting for you at night, until the sun rose. I wasn't sleep through out the night. My dear, your working time become later and later than before.
6 a.m.
Here you were.
You called me, and we chatted.
Chatted about everything, chatted and laughed.
Sweet when hear you called me lao po...Thanks lao gong. You called me twice, enough for me to sleep tight with smile on my face.
I sang for you.
I love you. I'm missing you days and nights, every second. That's bad.
Feel your changes, but just can't say what the difference. Worry. Until I asked you not to work anymore, I told you honestly I'm worrying. But, no idea, you wanna continue also. I know you work is because of me. You want me a better life, eat better, life better, and buy all the things I wish to buy, that's why you go to work. Even tough the work isn't that good somemore tiring...Dear. Thanks, I love you, and sorry.
Sooo...
Pray for you...
Miss you...
Trust you...
Love you...
6 a.m.
Here you were.
You called me, and we chatted.
Chatted about everything, chatted and laughed.
Sweet when hear you called me lao po...Thanks lao gong. You called me twice, enough for me to sleep tight with smile on my face.
I sang for you.
I love you. I'm missing you days and nights, every second. That's bad.
Feel your changes, but just can't say what the difference. Worry. Until I asked you not to work anymore, I told you honestly I'm worrying. But, no idea, you wanna continue also. I know you work is because of me. You want me a better life, eat better, life better, and buy all the things I wish to buy, that's why you go to work. Even tough the work isn't that good somemore tiring...Dear. Thanks, I love you, and sorry.
Sooo...
Pray for you...
Miss you...
Trust you...
Love you...
Don't make me disappoint of u, okay dear?
You're my only Lao Gong, Hong.
Sep 3, 2010
For Dear
Planned to sleep on 9 and then wake up at 4, just right when Hong back from work. But thing wasn't gone right, slept on 11 something and soon, woke up at 12 due to hungry...
Kinda lazy to walk down, and cook myself a maggi, but after thought and thought and thought repeatly, I still did it. Went down, cooked maggi + egg, cold water, and, online. Haha.
Finished eating and now, sitting in front of my laptop. Facebook-ing and trying to write something in my blog.
Hmm, nothing much to write about lately. Due to my simple lifestyle at home. Nothing much to do, nothing much happen. Easy come easy go haha.
Anyway, isn't really in good mood today. Maybe also for the next few days.
Never show up, don't wanna let mummy daddy worry. Hidden inside my room only I'll take away my mask, the mask with charming smile.
Hmm.
You larr. The one who makes me like this. Haiz. Blame you?? No I'm not doing this. Just...haiz babbling.
I'm worrying about you, although I never tell you. Working in such a place, so complicated place. I just don't like it. But what to say? You need work, you need money, that's my fault too. Dear, take good care of yourself can? I'll always here pray for you safety. I don't know is that too over to say about these, but, I just aren't feel good about it.
Somemore I'm nt there beside you. No one is going to takecare of you. When you back home, no one wait for you, maybe cooks for you. Everytime I will think how good if I'm there with you. Wait for you. Heartache for seeing you work until so late, worry about your health also.
What I can only do for you is, staying up in the middle of the night, waiting for you. Maybe have a call to you, listening your story about today's stuff, and, sleep with you...eventough not beside you.
Dear, don't forget that I'm here, I'm the one who loves you so much.
Kinda lazy to walk down, and cook myself a maggi, but after thought and thought and thought repeatly, I still did it. Went down, cooked maggi + egg, cold water, and, online. Haha.
Finished eating and now, sitting in front of my laptop. Facebook-ing and trying to write something in my blog.
Hmm, nothing much to write about lately. Due to my simple lifestyle at home. Nothing much to do, nothing much happen. Easy come easy go haha.
Anyway, isn't really in good mood today. Maybe also for the next few days.
Never show up, don't wanna let mummy daddy worry. Hidden inside my room only I'll take away my mask, the mask with charming smile.
Hmm.
You larr. The one who makes me like this. Haiz. Blame you?? No I'm not doing this. Just...haiz babbling.
I'm worrying about you, although I never tell you. Working in such a place, so complicated place. I just don't like it. But what to say? You need work, you need money, that's my fault too. Dear, take good care of yourself can? I'll always here pray for you safety. I don't know is that too over to say about these, but, I just aren't feel good about it.
Somemore I'm nt there beside you. No one is going to takecare of you. When you back home, no one wait for you, maybe cooks for you. Everytime I will think how good if I'm there with you. Wait for you. Heartache for seeing you work until so late, worry about your health also.
What I can only do for you is, staying up in the middle of the night, waiting for you. Maybe have a call to you, listening your story about today's stuff, and, sleep with you...eventough not beside you.
Dear, don't forget that I'm here, I'm the one who loves you so much.
我-不-乖
今天的自己一直都魂不守舍
刚刚想要煲饭，却把还没放米的饭煲拿去洗碗盆，想要洗米。
发现了自己那么的笨，不禁靠在墙上捂着嘴巴哭了起来。
是妒嫉、是怀疑、是生气、是心碎，
所以我隐藏。
一切都将回到最初那样，
刚刚想要煲饭，却把还没放米的饭煲拿去洗碗盆，想要洗米。
发现了自己那么的笨，不禁靠在墙上捂着嘴巴哭了起来。
恨自己，就不能笨一点、傻一点。
恨自己，总能那么轻易的，就拆穿了你的谎言。
恨自己，非要爱你那么那么深，宁可伤了自己也不愿意让你难堪。
恨自己，爱你爱的不能恨你...
是妒嫉、是怀疑、是生气、是心碎，
所以我隐藏。
一切都将回到最初那样，
一切都和以前一样...不是吗?
到底要怎么爱，才能不受伤害...可不可以为了我，爱自己?
Sep 1, 2010
遗失的美好
自己很喜欢的一首歌，就是张韶涵的“遗失的美好”。
男孩离开了女孩。
男孩离开了女孩。
女孩还是坚强的走下去她的未来，带着那些曾经的美丽。
一步一步地，就算寂寞。女孩想寻找，想要寻找那个会让男孩深爱的自己。
即使男孩已经不爱了，女孩依然相信这、依然坚持着...# 海的思念绵延不绝
终于和天在地平线交会
爱如果走得够远
应该也会跟幸福相见
承诺常常很像蝴蝶
美丽的飞盘旋然后不见
但我相信你给我的誓言
就像一定会来的春天
我始终带着你爱的微笑
一路上寻找我遗失的美好
不小心当泪划过嘴角
就用你握过的手抹掉
再多的风景也从不停靠
只一心寻找我遗失的美好
有的人说不清哪里好
但就是谁都替代不了
在最开始的那一秒
有些人 有些事 早已经注定要到老
虽然命运爱开玩笑
真心会和真心遇到...#
我一直都相信你...
新的自己
突然回想起从前，回想起昨日的昨日，许多个昨日以前的自己。发现了改变。
从前的自己，脾气非常暴躁。
曾几何时我变了。
让自己改变的，
是我的男朋友。
记得有一次自己在家又发了一顿很大的脾气。他骂了我，狠狠地骂了我一顿，甚至扬言要离开我。那一刻我慌了，我答应他尽量不再乱发脾气。最后，我也做到了。
我记得那时候。他像是哄小孩般轻拍我的背后，止住不停哭泣的我...
分手之后，故态复萌。
是妈妈的爱、妈妈的包容和关怀，支撑着我度过了那段好失意的时候。要若不是妈妈，一瞬间失去爱人和朋友的我，无法走过来。
我答应自己不再让她难过，于是我不再发脾气。这一次自己真的做到了。
和家人的感情，尤其是妈妈，现在是非常的和谐。我很满意现在的一切。
从前的自己，非常的悲观。
谈恋爱，无法平静下来。无法对伴侣怀着百分百信赖。总检讨自己的不够完美，和过于完美的他。
最后，想得成真了。我的不信任，让幸福驶向更温暖平静的港口停泊了。
太过的依赖让自己沉溺在痛苦，久久不肯醒来。
现在镜子里的自己发现，是的，有什么不一样了。
是笑容变得自信起来。
是眉间不再紧紧揪着。
是心情，期待着更美好的幸福。
是的，我变漂亮了。
人生依旧还有好多挫折。然而现在我能独自面对，独自笑着面对。
这何尝不是一种成长？
其实改变了，还有许多美丽的依然保留着。
而我引以为傲的，是我对爱的坚持。
是的，对下一个即将来临的幸福，我已经准备好了。
从前的自己，脾气非常暴躁。
曾几何时我变了。
让自己改变的，
是我的男朋友。
记得有一次自己在家又发了一顿很大的脾气。他骂了我，狠狠地骂了我一顿，甚至扬言要离开我。那一刻我慌了，我答应他尽量不再乱发脾气。最后，我也做到了。
我记得那时候。他像是哄小孩般轻拍我的背后，止住不停哭泣的我...
分手之后，故态复萌。
是妈妈的爱、妈妈的包容和关怀，支撑着我度过了那段好失意的时候。要若不是妈妈，一瞬间失去爱人和朋友的我，无法走过来。
我答应自己不再让她难过，于是我不再发脾气。这一次自己真的做到了。
和家人的感情，尤其是妈妈，现在是非常的和谐。我很满意现在的一切。
从前的自己，非常的悲观。
谈恋爱，无法平静下来。无法对伴侣怀着百分百信赖。总检讨自己的不够完美，和过于完美的他。
最后，想得成真了。我的不信任，让幸福驶向更温暖平静的港口停泊了。
太过的依赖让自己沉溺在痛苦，久久不肯醒来。
现在镜子里的自己发现，是的，有什么不一样了。
是笑容变得自信起来。
是眉间不再紧紧揪着。
是心情，期待着更美好的幸福。
是的，我变漂亮了。
人生依旧还有好多挫折。然而现在我能独自面对，独自笑着面对。
这何尝不是一种成长？
其实改变了，还有许多美丽的依然保留着。
而我引以为傲的，是我对爱的坚持。
是的，对下一个即将来临的幸福，我已经准备好了。
p/s : Actually this post I wrote it at few years ago. I find it out, and feel that quite nice, hence wanna share with you all here.
回忆录
思念它一直都不肯迁移
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
思念它一直都不肯迁移
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
哭过以后就把泪擦干净
不要再回忆过去
毕竟我是因为你因为你
伤心的失去了自己
深夜我一个人听着悲伤的歌曲
品尝着你的离去
爱走了
和平分开
还记得那一天突然下起了大雨
我们翻阅着过去
你说你 有另一段场景
思念它一直都不肯迁移
仿佛我还听见你的声音
说好了要忘记你 忘记你
却提醒我又再想你
哭过以后就把泪擦干净
为什么在意分离
只要让我爱着你爱着你
我就感觉到很满意
明白
这一切都是种 意外
我们的爱来得 太快
所以爱消失得也那么快
明白
这是最完美的 分开
如果有一天你 回来
或许那份爱已经回不来 回不来
不回来
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