A letter for ma dear

A letter for my dear ::


Nothing special, just wanna write you a letter tell you something not so special too.

Just now when I was bathing, I think about something so interesting.

We get together for already one month long =)

I wonder what will we be if we didn't been divided into the same class during the first week...Actually we weren't in the same group too at first, but, I believe that is fate, that make me met you, and close to you, and be with you.


Have you ever think that so funny the story was for you and me become couple?We aren't even close friends to each other during the orientation week, and then after I become class representative, we started be close as ONLY friends. You have no idea on actually I did fell for you during the orientation week.

That's my secret and I'm going to tell you here, if you are reading, you'll figure it out.

The story continued on the days we spent together when bought the drawing materials, went for dinner at pasar malam, you tought me and gave me confidence to drive...and so on...

Until the day I asked you, "Will you like a girl like me?"

I think the question made you think of the possibilty to be with me, and hence you started to notice about a girl who spinning around you all the time named An.

Until the day I tried to share your burden, then I wrote on your note, "Be happy..."

I didn't know that you replied me, "I will be happy, and my mood is affected by all the things you did."

Until the day, you told me that you think you like me...

Then only I can be brave to step out my very first step to come closer to you, my love.
Thanks dear for being there all the time when I need you to be there, just right beside me, maybe there need no word, only your shoulder for me to lie, maybe only your hand to wipe off my tears and my tiredness.

I'm not that good on expressing my own feelings towards the other so I'm not going to tell you how important are you to a little girl named An.

There has been awhile I was facing with some problems and I just don't wanna share with you, because, I thought that I'm the onne should only bring you happiness but not throw you my own problems. But after that, I've found that these things shouldn't happen as you might think that, you're not important to me...Dear please don't you ever think that, I just worry if you will feel annoying if when you with me are not happy. That's why I do so but, I'm going to change it as I want you to be my listener, my rubbish bin XD, and also the one who understand me well...Can I?Can you?

I miss you everytime when we have to say goodbye, when after school, or during weekends (the worst). But I think that is good so that we have our own time to spend on our private things, to rest to break. We are really more lucky than the other couples as we got many opportunities to stick together, I hope that it will be the good thing to us but not the reason for us to bore.

Dear, now I'm going to tell you once,

I need you

I miss you

And...I love you

My dear Hong

In these days...

Hush Hush!All the finals' deadline is just right at the corner ><

Angela you have to be strong now!!!

Well, actually this week wasn't wasted for me, I've done with a lot of nice programme =)

Had a great shopping moment at Jaya Jusco ^^

I LOVEEEEE MegaSales XD
Bought two pairs of shoes which is really really beautiful with the amazing low price XD Almost buy the third but lastly been stopped by all ma friends hardly huhu...
They all hid ma purse and don't wanna let me get it, we played hide-and-seek just right in the market XD (Like big children) That was fun actually. And then since I couldn't get ma purse to purchase on the pretty nice high heel, Joyous brought me to hide away and let them couldn't reach us...Then after an hour, we decided wanna appear but they were not in the market anymore, I still can remember the last message from them was "Go to the taxi station..." Me and Joyous were totally noob in finding location hence we went to the taxi station opposite LRT...We waited there sooooo long time but no one there! (I guess their taxi station was definitely different from ours...==) What worse was me and Joyous's phone were OUT OF BATTERY!!!And with no purse on me and with Joyous's empty wallet...we can do nothing...I shouted there for helpless like a mad (and scared an old malay aunty)...I thought that we might oevrnight at there since no one reach us...
Until I saw Zack slowly walked towards us!I broke down!...Thanks God...

So sorry that make you worried dailou...and also Tee and Zack...:'(

Had a vege-dinner made by Tee and Esther and Joyous at Tee's house ^^

Well, ma comment for that dinner is satisfying lar~~~Haha and that really was a suffering for dailou to take those green green vegetables...Muahaha although sympathy but I can do nothing LOL
And the "Sushi" are nice XD Thanks Tee
We planned to back at about 2a.m. but all ACCIDENTALLY fell asleep and once we opened our eyes, Sun was rose...wakaka we all are pig pig

Lend a hand for Tee's mother to prepare the food for catering-used ^^

That was so nice when worked together with Joyous, Esther, Zack, Tee, and of course ma dailou (XP), sambil work sambil talk sambil joke sambil laugh...That was damn fun ^^ Eventhough our body was sweaty like hell and was covered with lime juice XD


The romantic moment ^^

Just Friday, we went to Time Square to date since we have alredy long time didn't dating =) You brought me to try the Bar-B-Q which I had never tried before...
And that's nice ^^ soooooo delicious and have lot of fun with you there. And we ate 5 bowl of rice there...FULL.......

Thanks dear for bringing me enjoyed the delicious food muakss ^^

Jamming session ^^

Great piano x guitar jamming with Tee and Esther XD
Playing guitar made me forget about tiredness and hungry...that night I slept on 6.30 a.m. XP

Loveeee guitar Loveeee musci Loveeee singing

Today

Well, what have Angela done today......

Woke up 7 early in the morning to finish my IT exercises, and then went for a bath for refreshment. Maked-up and styled myself, and then went to college by walking...

Reached tutorial class and met up with Esther and Dailou, greeted them, have a seat, and not longer Sir came in and class started...Thanks Dailou for helping me finish my IT exercises =)

Then after class finished at 10, I went TBR with Dailou to print out our IT assignment and his Pepsi layout, saw a CUTE puppy lied in the printing shop XD After that, passed by the road and saw a gang of Bandaraya were giving saman there! Dailou fast fast called Joyous to drive away his car so that won't get saman and luckily, those Bandaraya gave us a chance to wait until Joyous came and drove away his car...Joyous ran like a mad and he said, there are only one thing he thought none-stop at that moment, "Saman Saman Saman..." Honestly he arrived there in a super short time XD (clapzz....)

And then attended to English class, had a journal writing test today and the titile I chose was "How to make my parents and family proud"...Kept on writing and achieved around 5 hundreds words, but the writing was BAD ><

Went to 'pondok' after class to kill our time meanwhile waited for the next class. Dailou and Ken were doing touch-up for their Pepsi, Joyous was sleeping in the pondok, Esther went for blood donation with Seven. Left me and Chih Chin and Tee talked non-stop there ^^

Time passed by quickly. Went to lecture hall. Held a exhibition for our Pepsi works there. After compared to the others', I found my works are SUCK! Damn...I have to improve it as well...Hmm...Feel so unsatisfy with my works and I must do better next time ><><

Had luch with Dailou and Chin at canteen...Nice roast meat rice and waffles ^^ Thanks Dailou~^^ Then went to Cyber Center to make the presentation-use slide show...

That's all for today's story...XD

Well...

I think it's the time for me to let go all the past...

The past that have made me cry for nights...for everytime when I watch sad movies or listen to love songs...

Tha past that left me behind than happiness everytime when happiness was came near me...

The past...that made me couldn't make to forget you to delete you from my memory or even my dream...

But now...

I met him...another him that I know is worth me to let go to forget to forgive...=)

I will not let him go so simply as how I have let go the happiness before...just because of my stubbornness...

Thanks for teaching me how to love a person maturely, and rasionally, hence now I can use it all to love the guy that worth me to do so...

Bye my past, Thanks my past...=)

My 25 of July

Went through a happy day with my beloved family...=)

Early in the morning we went to Puchong, as Daddy wanna repair his car (my loved Camry) because of the air-con wasn't function right, and meanwhile we waited for it, we went to the nearby Tesco to kill our time ^^

Well, it was a little bit boring when we hung around in the market that sells daily-needed stuff...But then I brought brother to the games area and played there~ We played a game named "Spot the differences" XD and that was fun when played with brother, he is really a good observer XD Muaks baby~~

And then, we went to......SUSHI KING!!!Haha my favorite food is sushi XD
That was the second time I ate sushi with family, and I love to introduce those delicious sushi to them =) We ate and enjoyed so much there ^^
Opps, almost forget to mention about one funny thing, haha Daddy had a tried on Wasabi, and XD his expression was sooooooo funny XD

Then, as the day still early, we went to Jaya Jusco~
Mummy used about an hour time to choose the bed sheet as there are mega sales XD
Then brother brought me to watch the sea cucumbers (urghhhh...) that feed inside an aquarium in the mall.
Then I bought a pair of shoes and a pair of socks for myself =) Happy~~

At night, Daddy then sent me back to hostel...Muaks muaks muaks, really feel sad to say goodbye with them but, I have to...I did promised my brother and sister to back again next week^^

Had my dinner for sushi, chocolate cake and mushroom soup alone in hostel...I miss the moments have dinner together whole family...Eat alone somehow feel not delicious at all no matter what nice food I ate...

End here, my Sunday =)

Home Sweet Home part II (XD)

Home sweet home~~

Haha, that's true, nothing is better than hanging at home...especially at my big big home XD

Since I slept quite late yesterday night, so consequently I woke up late this morning, about 12 in the noon.

My brother came into my room early in the morning and greeted me, Happy Birthday da jie~Well, but I still blurr in my dream bubbles...So I thought my brother was kidding haha...

Not longer after that, my mummy came in also and the first word was Happy Birthday~~haha now only I knew what was going on XD Today is my birthday in Chinese Calendar ^^ Mummy brought me downstair then gave me the red eggs...=) I ate that with my sister and my busy-gaming brother XD Thanks mummy~that was great~

After that, enjoyed the LED tv and blu-ray DVD with my brother, the movie we watched "The Wolfman". WOW! The scene is just soooooooo clear haha, I think I love that XD

Halfway we all went to have a nap...Movie didn't finished also...

I slept until 7 something only woke up (ate medicine already that's why slept longer)

That's great to have dinner with my beloved family, and enjoyed so much mummy's cooking...Ate a lot vegetables ( Hong didn't eat vege...==), and fried eggs with prawns, yummy~~

Later plan to have time with whole family (compulsory for all family!!) to sit in front of the tv and watch muvee together~~Haha XD have fun

Well, not to forget keep my things since tomorrow I gotta back to hostel...><

OMG I haven't bathe yet.......can I don't want bath...??

Home Sweet Home

I'm home again~
Home sweet home...That's true =)

Left all college stuff behind left at histel and Tarc,
Bring only the heart that full of missing back to home...

On the way, on the motorcycle,
My back took a HUGE bag and front handled my hubby (guitar)...
Then, my legs are definitely kept on cramping >< That's hurt but I didn't even spoke out oh...
On the way home passed through a street...
Left hand side was all long grasses...
Right hand side was the jungle along the road...
Totally no street lamp...
I found some soft light sprinkled on our back...I wondered where the light came from and I rose my head I saw the moon...She was sprinkling the so romantic light onto us so that we won't get lost...Daddy have you saw that beautiful scene?I hope you did but I think you were not, well, I always believe that all the beautiful frame can be only captured by our eyes but no others cameras or what else can...=)
As I looked up, I did saw also the twinkle twinkle little stars...Sparkled above the sky...When you were on the moving vehicle and enjoying the sky view, the feeling is just definitely different that couldn't be described by words...

Then we reached home, after bath, Daddy and Ling couldn't wait to show me how awesome is the new LED television and the Blu-Ray they bought~But seems that both of them really showed tiring faces, I asked them to sleep earlier and next promised that tomorrow will enjoy the TV-time with them XD and I do expect that

Have a cup of herbal tea that made by my superwomen Mummy~yummy~

Tomorrow I'm going to make my Hometown-Weekends so great~

Daddy Mummy I'm home~~~^^

Me and U

和你在一起的时候，心里总是想着好多事情，好多烦恼的事情...
于是会不知不觉地沉默了，不说话的......不笑了。
对不起...
恨自己那么的多愁善感...

我多想带给你快乐，但是在我把烦恼忘记了之后...

和我在一起会辛苦吗？
和我在一起会疲倦吗？

我尽量成为你一百分的女朋友，不是外表，而是我的个性、我的想法和行动...

其实我爱对你撒娇^^
爱偷偷亲你，爱握你的手，爱和你吵吵闹闹...
更爱让你更爱我...
于是我会偷偷变得可爱一些，或者性感一些，嘻。
因为我爱上你惊艳的目光，虽然多的是你哭笑不得的表情，哈哈。

我知道我并不是最漂亮的或最有气质什么的，
我也没有魔鬼身材，
然而我会用我仅有的，让你觉得爱上我没有错...
我会唱歌给你听...
我会弹吉它给你听...
我会说笑话或弄你发笑...
我会每天让你知道我有多爱你、多想你...
我会偷偷把难过都收藏起来，拿微笑来面对你...
我会为你把头发留长...
我会为你尽量便得女生一些(>.<)

因为我爱上了你...因为我拥有了你...

是我的幸运，也是你的幸运，我相信。
我们在一起...

谢谢你为我做的一切一切...
生日的蛋糕和项链...
每天的早餐和午餐，还有偶尔的甜品饮料...
带我到好多好多地方...
让我独占的左手和右手...
带我过马路...
包容我每一次的任性和糊涂...

但是我总感到好不安，
因为你不一样，
你不把爱挂在嘴边，不把永远当成誓言...
没有承诺于是我便得害怕，害怕握不到誓言的爱情会说变就变...
可是就算艰难，
我会相信你...闭上眼睛和耳朵，相信你要我看的、你要我听的...

嘻，喜欢你叫我傻婆...

但我更希望有一天，你能真的敞开心房让我入驻...
那天我们的手能握得更紧...
那天你能像我一样亲口对我说出你爱我、你想我...
那天我不再是Angela...
那天...我能变得更勇敢...









总而言之，

我爱你

Miss ya~

Receive a rose from u that u learned and made it with full heart...
Then I'll keep it nicely with my full heart also...as how I try to keep our love in warm...

You told me yesterday,
That you have found that I'm bored every time when I'm be with you...
I almost broke down when I heard that...I kept asking myself was there anything I had done do make you have such feeling??I started to feel scared...You know why?Because I scare that I might lose u just because of the same reason that the other guy had told me...For my own good...

Duh!Don't you try to do that please...

I know that I less talk with you when we are together...
Because I don't want you to feel bore because we stick together almost everyday...I hope that I can leave some spaces for both of us so that you won't feel that can't breathe when couple with me my dear...

We did an English role play today...XD
That was awesome!And I love it ^^ Thanks for partnership Joyous and u^^
Well, we get a not bad result~yahoo~^^

Haha, that's funny when a thought run into my mind...
I'm worrying if you really really treat me like a boy wakakakaka~~
Don't dear, I'm still your lovely cute darling XD
Kk? So don't you ignore me more a little bit anymore liao...I felt sad...Haha XD

Muaks muaks muaks ^^
The first time I receive flower from my boyfriend...Thanks I'm really touched...It's far far better than the flower that people buy from shop and pack nicely...Because each petal you made it so sincere and with concentrated with love...Love you my dear^^

I'm now at my hometown lu...Will be a couple days we not going to meet, so, I miss you...

p/s : Sorry all DGDG for didn't make it to tuan yuan fan with you guys even though I do really really want to T.T but I think I more prefer to go home haha because home sweet home ma XP Well, there must be another chances ya~muaks

Secret...

Sometimes, the tears fill my eyes...
Maybe when I'm watching a touching movie ; maybe when I'm listening to a sad love song ; maybe I'm just staring at the sky...
That's bcause of there are too many unrevealed secrets...stressing secrets I never ever expose them under the sun...They just stay in my heart, in the deepest corner in my heart and not being release...There're all sadness and madness side of me that people never discover yet so for me, even couldn't figure the monster side out...That's the only reason for me to try hard to close it up inside the corner...
Now there are the days when the monster is shouting for escape and I wanna to stay alone longer so that I won't become a mad person......

p/s : The "me" inside the story is not me, XD simply wanna wrote it out without reason so don't you guys being scared that the Angela you all know is a MONSTER i'm not...XD

Give Up to My Love

Woke up from a dream that could make me die b'cuz of deep deep guilty, I know what make me dream such stuff...I read her blog before I get in my sleep and saw her photos, and that do really make me almost lose my ability to think...Then I sent u the message, asked u to get back to her side...I was not really know what am I doing at that point...

She seems love u so much so deeply...

She can do many things in order to be with u...

She do everything is considering u...

U r her everything...It's sound like this...

I have not really confidence that can love u as deep as her, by satisfying herself and all is for u...
I even don't know what can I do for u to make u happier when we are together...
But she did, she always want u to be good always think about your benefits...
Don't want u to waste so much money, don't want u to feel sad...
And can let u go without a sound eventhough she is in worst...I just couldn't love u so much as her......



I'm always do my own things and sometimes even did ignored u...I do not share my problems with u, I didn't do anything for u eventhough I really want to because of I'm too focus in my study, family and friends, I'm always put all my problems in the top list in my life but with u at the second...I don't think that I'm good enough to give u the completed love that actually she could give u...



I'm sorry to ask u back to her and I know that she will be happy in this and then accept u back...



I almost kill her without acknowledge that's enough for me to feel guilty im my life...!



Maybe u don't know whether u are loving her or not...

But u did also said that we both are important for u, u did also said that u don't know which to choose...That's enough to brake my heart into pieces...



I just don't know how to face with u and talk with u and even pick up ur phone after all these came into my love to u...



I know that I love u



Maybe I can pretend that all things didn't happen at all and be your brother or buddy when we meet and study together, be with u in the other form of love...

Angela's 18th

Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me~~~^^

Ya, there are still left few hours then reach my 18th birthday =)

Happy Birthday!!!

I have received my first present from Him, a very lovely necklace =) Thanks~~

Then my second birthday present is from my dearest assistant, Tee, a special toy =) Thanks also~~

I decided to go back home to spend my birthday with my beloved family, and now I'm at home and that feel great =) Long time didn't chit-chat and "fight" (for fun) with mummy, somemore my dear grandma has came to my home...=)

Tomorrow is Monday and have classes,
I wonder how is my birthday gonna be when celebrate with all my best friends DGDG ^^
Evevthough have no celebration or presents or dinner, when stay with them, I know that it must be great also =)

Have a lots of great moments in these days...Sweet, sweat, sad, happy, crazy...^^

At last, Happy Birthday to me,
and...miss u ^^

Thankful

Many things I couldn't figured out before, I did finally can see clearly...

After have a walk and also a talk with my dearest friend Ah Tee, I know that what is my position my role need to be played and what am I suppose to do after this...

I won't care for those who doesn't know everything at all they doubt about,
I won't anymore confuse about the right things I need to do now...

I know that I can make it through all the mess up situation with the people who really care and love me...for sure include my beloved parents...
Thanks for understanding thanks for willing to listen...
I know I'm a strong girl...won't be beaten up by words...=)

Thanks for anyone who really bring me up from the down...

I'm Loving You

My love...

Here am I...did u notice that I'm the one who love you so much?...but also the one who being hurt by you so so much...
I'm wondering how can I put myself in this suck situation...I hate it but I just couldn't pull myself out of that mess...

You got her by your side all the time before we met up...
You dated with her,
You said you love her,
You called her baby,
You held her hands,
You hugged her...
You do that eventot we ARE together now...
You do that eventot you told me that the one you love is me but not her...

I start to become a dual-personalities person...

One side of me keeps telling myself,
Be the one who can make him loves you more...
Be the one who is called perfect to him...
Be the one who is better than the Her...
Be the one...who is able to replace Her...

Meanwhile the other side of me tells me the opposite words,
I think this is the angel's side...
It tells me that,
Don't I let such situation be continued...
Don't be so devil that make Her cry...
Don't...don't make him feel guilty anymore...
Just leave him, let him breathes and relieves...Leave him flawlessly...

I can't... I can't be both neither evil nor angel...I just can't make it...
Then the only thing I could do is close up my eyes, my ears, and my mind...
Selfishly enjoy the love and the pampering he gives to me...
Stupidly believe all the words he tells me...
And just be myself...blindly ignore all the facts loving you...

Perhaps someday we might brake up
Perhaps someday you might give up on me and walk towards the girl that with you all the time
Perhaps someday we might be forever...

Perhaps someday...I might cry......

My Belove Canteen 2

Well, canteen 2 at TARC for me is just so good because the price is quite cheap and the food is not too bad to taste =)

The stall that I like the most to visit is the chicken chop stall XD
The chicken chop rice is delicious with the fried potatoes and the price is fair as RM3.50 per dish.

Then, the thing that really impress me^^ is the stall for mixed rice which its price is really couldn't be found at outside, 3dishes with rice cost RM1.90! Gosh it just too cheap for Kuala Lumpur's residents.

The cleanliness for the canteen actually is quite satisfying for me, as it has no cockcroaches and flies around (maybe I still haven't see that yet...), and the staff there are hardworking to clean the table right after we had finished eat.

Compare to my secondary school's canteen, Canteen 2 is really the "five star" canteen for me, because at my secondary school's canteen, the stinky Nasi Lemak also can be sold to students! That's why actually I'm enjoying the food and facilities at Canteen 2.

Canteen 2 I love you XD